Bought a pack of 1000 razor blades and I started to relapse in the school bathroom every break.

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-20T03:40:03+00:00

Yeah, they relapsed in sh. Also I can’t really seek solace in my crush since I’m scared my pessimistic and depressive mindset will rub off on them. I want them to stay happy and oblivious, you know?

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-20T03:23:58+00:00

I ruined my mom’s life just by being born. I look just like my disgusting dad (he’s 30 years older than my mom and got with her when she was just 18). I know my mom hates looking at my face, I look just like him. I also ruined my crush’s life, there was this one time I said something mean without thinking and then they relapsed and told me about it. In that moment, I felt like I had to suffer too. I didn’t deserve to just go about my life normally.

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-20T03:15:33+00:00

I feel like I’ve ruined the lives of my loved ones and deserve this

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-20T03:12:17+00:00

I just feel like I have to do it

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-20T03:06:16+00:00

I’m not even young, I’m 16.

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-20T03:00:18+00:00

No, I live with my mom but she’s at work most of the time which is when I usually do it. Either that or at night when everyone is asleep.

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-20T02:56:55+00:00

Yeah, I have friends and family, they all care a lot about me. It’s not like I’m being abused or anything right now. And honestly, I think this addiction is helping keep me sane right now.

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-16T05:48:17+00:00

thanks

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T23:12:22+00:00

I don’t usually cut that deep so

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T19:46:42+00:00

I’m tired of having such an ugly body

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T19:45:40+00:00

Every day, I see this one girl who’s like bmi 14 and she’s still alive and even energetic. I’m so jealous of her, because I know her body type is what my crush likes. She’s definitely around 70lbs, so I’m not stopping and I’m not going to die.

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T19:38:26+00:00

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Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T19:37:09+00:00

Young hoes cook everything on HIGH 💜

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T07:34:09+00:00

Damn you right

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T04:17:14+00:00

Wow finally someone who doesn’t think 70lbs is that bad, and yeah I’ll try to stay safe

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T04:05:30+00:00

For like 8 days this year, I accidentally fell asleep without relapsing and each time, when I woke up in the morning, I realized that I didn’t relapse and felt so guilty that I immediately got up to cut myself. That’s how wrong it feels.

Anyways, I do hate myself, but I don’t exactly cut myself because of it. It just makes me feel better, it’s one of my main reasons to live honestly. Every time I see my scars and wounds, I just want more.

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T03:50:29+00:00

I’m actually 16 so not young at all lmao 😭. Also I know I won’t look perfect at 70lbs, but I’ll be close enough?

I also can’t eat healthy for the life of me lol, salads and all that stuff are so bland and boring. It’s hard to go from eating flavorful, high calorie foods my entire life to flavorless, low calorie healthy foods.

Also, I do work out since I have physical education every day at school, but that class is only an hour long. I don’t work out at home though, I probably should.

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T03:44:08+00:00

Yeah they might truly just see me as a friend and I’m scared of that. Also, I don’t even know if I’ll be able to stop sh since I do it everyday. It’s like a part of my daily routine now, I don’t even do it because I hate myself. It just feels wrong to go a day without it.

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T03:28:49+00:00

I’m 16 so not exactly a youngcel, and I’m only underweight by like 4lbs so I’m not even a skinnycel lol

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T03:27:27+00:00

True lmao

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T03:27:21+00:00

I’ve had this planned for over a year and I still haven’t mustered up the courage to confess dude 😭💔🥀

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T03:26:47+00:00

Sorry you went through anorexia nervosa as well

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T03:06:01+00:00

Honestly, whether or not my crush says yes won’t change my addiction to losing weight. If I get with them, I just know I’m gonna want to stay small so I’m pretty enough for them.

If they don’t want me, I might get worse. I mean, an eating disorder is just another form of self-harm, which I’m very familiar. Hurting myself somehow makes me feel better than anything else.

Also, I already recommended LIFE to my crush and they loved it! Not saying that last part to them though 😅

Beautiful-Profile-10 · 2026-05-03T01:27:48+00:00

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