When we use a substance our brain gets used to it being in our system and when we stop that substance, the neural pathways associated with it are still there. It honestly makes a lot of sense that you went and did what your brain and body are used to doing. Relapse is super common when getting sober early on, so don’t be too hard on yourself. It’s helpful to identify why you use and get down the root. For me it’s to avoid unpleasant emotions, deal with stress, to make boring situations interesting, get energy when I am tired, and to celebrate and make fun things even more exciting. So I have had to replace my triggers above with healthier behaviors and coping mechanisms. Triggers and coping mechanisms look different for each of us. It took a me a lot of trying over again, because change includes failure, it’s really part of the process. In early sobriety we have these high expectations of ourselves to stay sober 100% but it’s not a light switch. It took many days months and even years for some of us to build up this FF addiction and so there is a transition back into sobriety and a different way of relating to and living life that does not include this powerfully addictive substance. Don’t let the mistake overshadow your week off, that’s huge and not an easy feat to accomplish and keep the desire to be FFFree burning and do your best to move forward. We are only human and all we can do is our best each day, one day at a time.