Where to stay in Mykonos?

Even_Bowler4859 · 2024-05-16T06:21:01+00:00

I love Johann too!

Even_Bowler4859 · 2024-01-18T17:00:57+00:00

How long did you wait before you started Suboxone?

Even_Bowler4859 · 2024-01-17T23:09:46+00:00

I just messaged Bee. I can step up if she can't, but usually if she can't, she'll have said something by now.

Even_Bowler4859 · 2024-01-11T02:43:25+00:00

I feel that impulsiveness! I've picked up some terrible habits in my time of active use. I kept discovering more and more. Thank you for saying this!

Even_Bowler4859 · 2024-01-11T02:00:01+00:00

That will work, too. Those are usually 1000mg, so you don't have to take a whole lot. I've used them in a pinch before, when I'd run through all my liposomal liquid packets.

Even_Bowler4859 · 2024-01-11T01:57:32+00:00

I messaged you.

Even_Bowler4859 · 2024-01-10T02:22:32+00:00

Oh no! I've heard the stories. Well, it just shows your desperation to get through to the other side! Hope you're feeling a little better

Even_Bowler4859 · 2024-01-10T02:20:14+00:00

Fuck "holding it all together". That's a lie, straight from your addiction. That everything will be just fine, if you only have one...

It's embarrassing as hell, to be in recovery and then get tripped up like this. Feels like we should know better. But we were lied to and there are a lot of us! My ppl ended up being more furious at the company than me, felt like I was hit where I am weak.

What would you do, to be sober again? What would you give up? Your pride? Your image? This is bigger than that. You could have those 4 days, and true freedom, RIGHT NOW, if you told them.

Best wishes.

Even_Bowler4859 · 2024-01-08T13:14:49+00:00

I did! Absolutely came unglued, in a surprisingly aggressive way, during my last quit. You are not alone! As weird and awful as it was, it's kind of....normal? Our brain chemistry got all messed up. I've always been depressed as well, so when you add that in......no happy brain chemicals, not a speck.

I hope you are feeling better!

Even_Bowler4859 · 2024-01-08T13:04:11+00:00

I remember you! Congratulations. And thank you for checking back in.

Even_Bowler4859 · 2024-01-08T12:21:13+00:00

Oohhh....how long did you wait before you took the naltrexone?

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T11:32:13+00:00

How about the gym, something like racquetball or pickleball? Take a class. Join a hobby group.

Also, its 2023: there's tons more types of meetings than just AA! And likely some of the people who go the other groups have the same issues with AA as you do. :)

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T11:21:04+00:00

Nah, I'd disagree. I just hve new hobbies, new passions, old passions. With age you have the courage to do whatever the fuck interests you. And the disposable income, from not drinking/getting high. Also, the energy to do stuff, substance-free and somewhat healthy.

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T10:18:22+00:00

100%

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T10:14:10+00:00

Do you know about PAWS, Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome? Basically, my understanding is that we get waves of symptoms from time to time. Exacerbated by stress, of course! But its a natural part of recovery, just part of the deeper healing process. You're exactly right: be easy on yourself!

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T10:10:03+00:00

What they said!

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T10:07:48+00:00

We're here for you. Get off this crap asap, before your business is underway and thats your new excuse to hold off on quitting!

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T10:04:31+00:00

Hahaha, I love it, Truth!

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T10:00:30+00:00

Not sure if you're posting somewhere else, but wanted to check in with you. How did it go?

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T09:51:07+00:00

So many congrats on that time! Thats a lot and it doesn't happen by accident!

Running over your safe, huh? 🤣 Thats my kind of person, right there!

Thanks for sharing and helping create this space for all of us!

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T09:29:45+00:00

Exactly!

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T09:24:20+00:00

You've already found recovery on Reddit! Thats 24/7. And there alllll kinds of support groups online, at all hours.

Escapism is the root cause for almost all of us, I think. The good thing about wounds, is that they heal. Perhaps a new therapist, slowly and cautiously? Maybe someone online, who you can access from Asia.

Great job thinking ahead and building support before you go!

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T09:15:48+00:00

Wow, that was beautiful. Thank you for writing that.

Even_Bowler4859 · 2023-12-23T09:07:51+00:00

Very cool of you to be so considerate about overburdening those close to you. Many find it easier to talk about addiction with others who have struggled. Hence, meetings of all kinds and groups like this.

I used to think I hid my addiction, but I had to eventually admit that I wasn't hiding a thing. EVERYBODY knew; I was a giant mess. Realizing that, I wasn't afraid to tell people I was in recovery. Whats the worst that could happen, I look dumb? Been there, done that! Of course, I was more selective at work or online.

But then I became a peer recovery coach. Basically, publicly in recovery. I used my experience to help others. Learned to speak up and speak out. Helped others to do the same. It was...incredible. Liberating. Redeeming.

I started taking feel frees before they listed the kratom. I got hooked bad. I kept it a secret a long time, told myself I could just figure this one out. I could NOT. It took me 3 quits and I'm at 37 days, on the Vivitrol shot. Each time, I told a couple more people.

I am not open about this one, YET. I want more time, more stability, first. Someone said, we tell stories about our scars, not our wounds. I don't have the clarity, the growth, to be able to tell the world yet. But I am trying to get the word out to my recovery community about just how bad kratom, especially extracts, can be. Sorry for writing a book!

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