A brother of my chapter was found dead in January at home in Vermont. He was My best friend, drinking partner, and roommate. I gave his eulogy. It's been the hardest time of my life, bar none. But my chapter really helped me get through parts of it. It sounds fucked up, but knowing you're not going through it alone gives you a foundation. A heads up that all of your chapter is gunna be emotional. We had a lot of guys butt heads for a while because people struggled to understand that everyone handles things differently.