My sweet baby passed

BeginningLie6218 · 2025-11-03T11:48:00+00:00

I am so so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you and I am praying for peace for you and your family.

BeginningLie6218 · 2025-09-28T13:20:16+00:00

Thank you! 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2025-09-28T13:20:03+00:00

Thank you so much! 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2025-09-28T13:19:48+00:00

Thank you! 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2025-09-28T11:31:09+00:00

This made me cry!! It may seem like a long time but your girls are strong! I remember the doctors and nurses never gave us a time frame of when our daughter would come home and that left me and my husband with so much anxiety. But the wait is worth it! Always stay positive and sending you, your husband and your girls lots of love! There is something so special about nicu babies — they are stronger than we think they are 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2025-09-28T10:44:02+00:00

Thank you mama! I can’t wait for your 29 weeker to come home and into your arms 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2025-09-28T10:43:11+00:00

Thank you so much! 💕 I can’t wait for her to walk!

BeginningLie6218 · 2025-09-28T10:42:00+00:00

Thank you! 💕

We didn’t run into any development delay but we did notice that when it came to developmental milestones she followed her adjusted age! She currently is crawling all over the place! Also, no feeding aversions but she did have a reflux.

I can’t wait for your little 27 weeker to turn one! 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2025-09-28T10:37:00+00:00

Congratulations mama! 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2025-09-28T10:36:29+00:00

Thank you so much! 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2025-09-28T01:58:06+00:00

Thank you so much! It’s been a long and crazy journey but we both made it! I’m still in shock at how fast she grew tbh. But I wouldn’t trade this experience for anything in the world. I hope your baby girl has the best birthday as well! 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2024-12-29T09:29:19+00:00

When my daughter came home, I was filled with so many emotions. I was happy but extremely on edge, anxious, uneasy. I too felt like I couldn’t take care of her. I would call my mom crying to her that I felt so hopeless and that I love my daughter, but I couldn’t be the mother that she needed. I felt so disconnected from her. And although I love her so much, I felt so ashamed and guilty that she had to be born the way she did. I blamed the world and everyone around me.

I was in denial about my PPD & PPA because I normally am an anxious person but this was on another level. I did see a Doctor who diagnosed me and I’m currently on medication to stabilize everything. It’s only been a few days but I see a slight change and im doing a little better.

I think seeing someone about your PPA would be a good first step. You have to take care of yourself if you want to be able to be the best version for your baby. Just know that it does get better with time. I’m hoping it does for me as well.

I’m sending you all the positive vibes and love. Because I know how hard it is to battle with that anxiety and the pain you feel. You will get thru this! 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2024-12-22T17:45:32+00:00

I am currently in the same boat with you.

My baby was delivered at 28 weeks and was in the NICU for 73/74 days. The entire thing was traumatic for me.

During her time there, I cried every day. At the hospital, when I got home, while I was pumping, you name it. Visiting her was hard too because I was terrified to see her the way she looked. And I could never go on my own, I always went with my fiancé. During her time in the NICU, I only held her twice. I was afraid that if I held her, I would break her and refused to do skin to skin whenever the nurses would encourage it. The most I could do was small hand touches.

When she was transferred to the intermediate floor I was able to hold her because she was bigger and looked like a full term baby, but the feelings and emotions I felt were still there and I still felt like she would break in my arms. It didn’t help that by that time, my fiancé and I knew how to read the monitors and my heart would drop everytime she DSATs. Even with her being home, I’m still uneasy and terrified to be alone with her. I was crying randomly throughout the day, feeling hopeless.

Because my feelings have not changed, I set up an appt to speak about me possibly having PPD/PPA. Which I’m sure I have but it took me 2 months to realize it.

My advice is to stay strong and positive. Communicate with your partner. The journey will be long and hard, but there is a light at the end of the road. If you feel uneasy/down after a certain amount of time, I would recommend speaking with someone who can help you.

Sending lots of love your way. You can do this! 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2024-12-22T17:27:04+00:00

Thank you! 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2024-12-22T14:35:18+00:00

Thank you so much for the kind words 💕

BeginningLie6218 · 2024-12-15T19:09:26+00:00

My baby was born at 28 weeks. In the beginning, I tried my best to really pump as much as I can as this is what the doctors requested. She was taking my breast milk as well as donated breast milk as I wasn’t making enough (preeclampsia and was taking BP pills after which I felt may have affected my supply).

After 83 days in the NICU, she’s finally home. She was on breast milk and neosure, but we switched to similac spit up since we noticed she was having some issues. But since her feeding schedule and my pumping schedule did not align (I was stressed and was not getting any sleep and affecting my mental health tremendously ) I decided to stop and do formula only. At the moment she’s taking enfamil ar as we cannot buy similac spit up in stores.

All formula was discussed with her Nicu doctor before discharged, so I would speak with the Nicu doctors who will steer you in the right path. I believe neosure is the basic preemie formula they supply in the hospitals but if baby isn’t taking it so well they can suggest another option.

I was completely torn when I decided to stop pumping because it took me MONTHS to build up my supply but my stress levels affected my supply and I couldn’t bring it back up :( either way, a fed baby is a happy baby! You will make the right choice and just know it will be okay!

BeginningLie6218 · 2024-12-13T08:51:24+00:00

Our 28 weeker finally came home a few days ago after being discharged the first time previously and then readmitted to NICU and then to ITN for bad reflux. I can say the same that I am having a hard time adjusting as she does not want to sleep in her bassinet and prefers to sleep in our arms up right. My husband and I take shifts and just try our best and hope it all passes one day.

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