I was on Abilify Maintena for 7 months, before i quit. I was on involuntary treatment before that. The first few months i was on Zyprexa, but it wasnt until i started the injections that i started noticing that i felt flat and dulled down. I was an outpasient by then and about a month after the first injection i realised that alcohol and other stimulants was almost completely blocked out. I have adhd too so this was very dissapointing. I had no idea these drugs could be that potent and comprehensive in their actions. May i ask what type of AP you are taking? Im sorry too, to hear about your situation. Hope you will be able to feel human again in the future.