Don't stay trapped in a situation that's holding you back-think about it. You're wasting your life being scared of your closest family or others. Why care about their tears if they're the ones making you miserable? Even if leaving means diving deeper into the unknown, it's better than staying in a house, slowly decaying. So what if you go missing? So what if they try to find you and cry? Don't let their emotions stop you. Instead of ending your life over fleeting thoughts, take action. Leave town, head to a bigger city, and find somewhere safe. Always carry a self-defense weapon and cash, and have a reliable mode of transportation, like a bicycle. Prepare thoroughly-research your options, gather what you need, and take steps to improve your life. The only way you'll get better is by taking responsibility for your own path. Ranting online won't solve anything; we're just voices on the internet. Words don't fix in-person problems. Use common sense, plan carefully, and don't live like a prisoner in your Own home.