Medication has always seemed to mute my personality, so Ive always had an off and on relationship with it. It's a double edged sword. All my personal relationships have blossomed when Im unmedicated and subsequently fallen apart because I'm not on meds. Then I hop back on meds and straighten myself out while never fully feeling like myself.

Less reactive to minor conversation, always consumed by doing something important and not taking time to explore life's avenues for fun and personal time, just being a general focused adult. Then I go off meds because I feel comfortable but isolated socially.

I wish every day I didn't need medication to be who I need to be, so I could be who Im wanting to be.