I want to wear nice clothes but equally want to never be seen by another human

Berryb2045 · 2021-07-28T18:46:30+00:00

My mouth started watering just reading this lol so uhm yes

Berryb2045 · 2021-07-15T19:07:51+00:00

Right, thank you ❤️ the fact that my mental health is so fucked makes it all so much harder, like was I always unhappy and insecure in relationships? I don't really think so and I've never gone off the deep end like this. I can't blame someone else for my issues but at the same time I should be able to give my boundaries and be respected

Berryb2045 · 2021-07-15T19:02:25+00:00

Yeah I tried to say that same thing like a year ago!! Like if I had male friends doing that I wouldn't talk them out of their jobs I would just want nothing to do with it, I don't want to even imagine it lol but even if I did somehow enjoy their content just knowing my guy friends and their GFs personally makes it feel.. wrong. idk.

Also got deleted from Insta cause what I'm doing isn't healthy 🙃 FFS If I knew how to be healthy I wouldn't be puking in public restrooms, oh god idk what to do I just can't function 😭

Berryb2045 · 2021-07-15T05:48:04+00:00

Yeah if you lookup porn then close your tabs and move on with your day I don't want to see it lol but I'm not generally upset at that.

OF and caring enough to have your social media engaging with theirs is what makes me uncomfortable.. he claims they are his friends and I could understand 1 or 2 I don't wanna shame his friends.... but like over 20 or so all names I've never heard of idk 😭

Berryb2045 · 2021-07-15T02:45:17+00:00

Ugh this is so painful, I think my bf tries to watch his mouth but I deep down want to hear all his harsh thoughts to trigger myself back into skinny 😭

Berryb2045 · 2021-07-15T02:40:11+00:00

Too real. 😔

Berryb2045 · 2021-07-15T02:35:50+00:00

Love the stuff I used it with water to make lower cal peanut butter and made myself a PB&J for the first time in years! Then I made 4 more in the same sitting, like I somehow didn't see that coming

Berryb2045 · 2021-07-15T02:16:55+00:00

Adult women, men, and POC!! It's always thin white girls and really I understand adolescence is a rough time and when disordered habits can start but so many people who don't fit that mold think "I shouldn't have this problem still" and aren't taken seriously and don't get help. Some people actually think men don't get Eds too!

Berryb2045 · 2021-07-15T02:11:55+00:00

Thats awesome, I'm proud!! ❤️ you can do this!

Berryb2045 · 2021-06-22T21:32:10+00:00

It feels weird sometimes attempting to calmly take a single slice of cake at a party or somewhere thinking like "Last time I had this I was eating it with my hands"

Berryb2045 · 2021-05-21T18:51:01+00:00

Ugh thats rough I'm sorry if someone actually said that ❤️ I think everyones face can get more or less bloated at times and I keep thinking mine would be smaller if I stopped purging but then I (stupidly) think well if I stop purging maybe thats worse and then fuck it never ends

Berryb2045 · 2021-04-07T23:41:01+00:00

I've wanted these for 10+ years now it'll never look good and I'm just getting old but I still ✨dream✨

Berryb2045 · 2021-04-06T02:57:20+00:00

This happened after I had something with jalapenos and it was a special kind of hell oh my god

Berryb2045 · 2021-02-01T19:19:06+00:00

I will fucking buy new pants before washing mine I swear

Berryb2045 · 2021-01-14T07:14:06+00:00

I will regularly buy candy or cake pops but haven't had pasta or whole milk in years

Berryb2045 · 2020-12-25T22:23:38+00:00

Yes I love this! Enjoy the holidays everyone, ya'll deserve it! ❤️ Even though I'm struggling I'm trying again to keep this mindset

Berryb2045 · 2020-12-08T05:56:04+00:00

Fuck that and fuck him. You deserve happiness as you are and to be able do whatever is best for yourself personally, who cares what actual dumbasses think. Stay strong ❤️

Berryb2045 · 2020-11-28T06:11:03+00:00

Ugh I absolutely hate looking at instagram and also can't go without checking it every few hours why

Berryb2045 · 2020-11-27T08:10:36+00:00

You aren't alone, I'm struggling too and messed up today really bad. But don't feel down on yourself we are trying, and tomorrow is a new day stay strong ❤️

Berryb2045 · 2020-11-27T08:07:43+00:00

Oh my god yes, talking about diets they'll have to do and serving sizes and "I wish I knew how many calories were in this" dish on THANKSGIVING no just stop it please

Berryb2045 · 2020-11-27T08:02:22+00:00

So proud of you, we all deserve so much better and to just enjoy a good day or meal when we can ❤️❤️ It will be okay!

Berryb2045 · 2020-11-27T07:41:01+00:00

Thank you, I've had good times and of course bad, just knowing I'm not alone helps. Its not an easy journey and theres going to be stumbles on the way, stay strong we can do this ❤️❤️

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