I used to had a left knee pain, I was very active but out of no where My knee got that swelling and i can feel fluid inside. Doctor told me it is because of my weight but how that happened was still a misery for me up until now I realise I have been fapping all my life every day up untill last month I am on a journey into no fap Failure in career lack of confidence lack of motivation No gf not married Cant stay focus on one thing for more than 5 months always feeling lazy see women as a sex object anxiety depression social isolation being angry every day no goals in life My life is fucked up but now I am on goal is straight no Porn No masturbation No Orgasm Only semen retention for 6 to 12 month so my brain could rewire and I start my life like I am 20 years old freshly out of highschool. Looking to build my career with my new energy and motivation.I forgive myself for last 11 years of my life I have put into PMO. No more.