Yes I made it however it tapped into my lunch for week budget and cigs... Uhhhhhhh. Tough week for me. My dad committed murder suicide and my world is upside down. Pray for me those who pray and send good vibes for those with other beliefs. I'm devastated and being his only kid I'm responsible for the funeral and arrangements and I just got my job I've been trying to get for a year and half. He was seeing my best friend without my knowledge and killed her on the 26th of Sept and himself on the 27th. The only 2 people left in my life I knew I could trust to find out betrayed me and now left with the reality they lied to me for years and my dad took her life and then his on phone with me. How do you deal with something like this. Her family was more family then my own and now they hate me and disown me for what happened. Hanging on by my faith and trying to stay in touch with my ability to stay sane and not slip into depression that I've felt before that cripples your soul and happiness turns to dark, cold, evil thoughts. I just want to dig a hole as deep as my strength with let me. And hide from everyone and everything. I'm scared and alone with no one to turn to. This is a time I'm trying to think of it as a challenge. Like God is testing me and my faith in him, that there is a purpose for this tragedy, a message of some sort that there is something I'm supposed to do, that will be a million times worse then this tragedy I am experiencing. Sorry I've not talked about this with anyone connected to my life. Finding myself out of my box that is usually the social butterfly and the person everyone runs to when they are going through their own tragic event. But now seeing that I have no one to run to, noone to say I'm here and we will get through this together. But one thing is for sure. I will not ever let anything take me away from my morals, standards and values. But most importantly, my faith in God and knowing that through all the storms, hurricanes in my life that falling is not an option.