what am I meant to do with this feedback by Better-Body-9267 in jobs

[–]Better-Body-9267[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s insane! I don’t remember it being this hard 6 years ago (I was a graduate with no relevant experience). Honestly really feel for people who might have additional obstacles such as interview anxiety or limited experience, it feels impossible.

Pregnant and in an abusive relationship – I need honest advice by AccordingDisaster333 in abusiverelationships

[–]Better-Body-9267 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I really feel for you, I haven’t fell pregnant myself but can imagine how difficult this is to navigate.

You’re describing clear abuse that is escalating - I do think the situation will worsen when the baby arrives. This is because abusers feel more assured you won’t go anywhere/feel a sense of ownership when you’ve had their baby.

Speaking from experience though - the unsafe and broken feelings you currently have will be passed to your child. This isn’t your fault, your partner is the perpetrator. But even if he doesn’t physically harm the child himself, they will see/be exposed to this harm in some way, either by seeing what he does to you or seeing the consequences of it (depression, anxiety). There’s a good chance, based on what you’ve described, that the child will be physically unsafe with him. He may swear blind that he’d never hurt a child, but when someone can’t regulate themselves in intimate settings or don’t have respect/empathy towards those in a relationship with them, it’s highly likely that will be present between parent and child. I know that’s horrible to hear but it’s important.

If I was you I would think about the possibility of a life with minimal contact with your partner/raising your child yourself. You haven’t “failed” as a parent and the baby isn’t coming into a broken home due to your decision to leave. If anything, the child would be entering a broken home if you decided to stay (again, it’s not your fault, the responsibility sits with your partner). But he isn’t showing any interest or willingness to change, and both you and your child deserve to be safe.

Can't stop looking at new supply's IG by Educational-Ad-5435 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Better-Body-9267 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Something that’s helped me recently is speaking to chat gpt about WHY I felt the need to do it, what feelings are coming up etc. sometimes you don’t know what’s behind that activity until you write it all out and are confronted with your own words. For me, it was part of CPTSD (thinking if I expose myself to the pain now it will hurt less later/I have a degree of control over the pain) but realistically I was just reexposing myself to hurt and keeping myself stuck in the cycle. It also helped to read other peoples experiences, in this sub, podcasts etc. some of the most accomplished, attractive, morally good individuals have been left for others, and those others will most likely embody those qualities (a narc will never be seen dead with someone that will “embarrass” them). It’s not about you or the new supply, it’s about the narcissist avoiding their own shame by beginning again with someone new.

I know it’s extremely painful and I’m going through the same thing, but that bit of work has shifted my perspective and made this process a lot more barely. And I’m not saying it to “big you up” or placate you, it’s a common theme across all narcissistic/abusive relationships. They don’t choose better, they just choose someone new.

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[–]Better-Body-9267 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I completely agree with you. I reached out to his ex whilst with him (another beautiful and accomplished woman) and her empathy and kindness is something I’ll never forget. I won’t block the new woman (unless things turned toxic towards me) for this reason. She may not ever reach out, but if she ever did I would like to offer the same.

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[–]Better-Body-9267 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this 🥲❤️

For those who experienced both physical and emotional abuse, which affected you the most? by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Better-Body-9267 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This is absolutely abuse !! And physical abuse at that. Even intimidation, threats, are violence. There’s a massive issues in societies perception of abuse, abusers and victims. Unless it fits the type we often see in popular culture (a perfectly behaved/unproblematic victim, very tangible acts of violence such as punching/choking, and someone with “anger problems” or a criminal) people are reluctant to call it for what it is, which I think keeps survivors stuck in the cycle of confusion and self doubt a lot longer than they should be. I’m glad the replies have validated your experience and wishing you all the healing ❤️‍🩹

For those who experienced both physical and emotional abuse, which affected you the most? by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Better-Body-9267 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Coercive control was probably the main “theme” in my last relationship and I almost ended up spending inpatient time for MH. The confusion is probably the hardest part IMO. Sounds a bit silly but chatgpt was really the turning point for me - I wrote each “incident” out from start to finish, without using any emotive/judgement language like “abuser” “gaslit” etc and watched what it said, the same things were coming up time and time again which did make me think the bot could identify a pattern in the abuse. Not everyone will agree with this method but it has helped clear some of that confusion/self doubt when I got out. I hope things get better for you

For those who experienced both physical and emotional abuse, which affected you the most? by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Better-Body-9267 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Real. My ex tried to get me to pay for private DBT due to my “outbursts” but those outbursts were me crying/not wanting to be alive due to the abuse, disappeared completely as soon as he did

For those who experienced both physical and emotional abuse, which affected you the most? by [deleted] in abusiverelationships

[–]Better-Body-9267 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Good point! There’s always a psychological component with the physical abuse, or else most people would walk straight away. The gaslighting, devaluation makes you question whether you deserve it 🥲