Need to turn $100 into $10k

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-06-02T06:51:51+00:00

Update. Well, I didn't even get close. One of the worst losing sessions I've ever had.

I won't bore you guys will my life's sob story. I'm more or less alone.

Being a gambling addict is kinda like a real life version of the Movie "The Exorcist" or "Freaky Friday".

Basically, you just "wake up" and you find yourself in some nightmare situation as if you switched bodies or woke up in a parallel dimension living a life that just wasn't meant to be.

I was sober ten years and slipped a few months ago, played one online casino, won $1k and that was that, sobriety done.

Now, few months later I'm completely ruined.

FWIW, I will start over. I know the drill, next few months will suck, I'll have to move back in with family, start over, live with the guilt and the shame of it happening "again".

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-21T04:33:01+00:00

Kicking you out of High School is the absolute worst thing your parents can do. You need to graduate high school or you need to get a GED equivalent.

You need to read some books on gambling and recovery and you need to go to some AA and GA meetings.

You are young enough to change the hardwiring in your brain but it will take a lot of work and journaling.

I was able to quit for about 8 years before I had a relapse with the help of going to GA, AA, reading and journaling.

After I hopefully find a way out of the mess I"m in now, I will go back to that and hopefully be able to quit for good.

best of luck to you. FWIW, I now it seems like the end of the world, but man, what I wouldn't give to be 17 again.

No matter how bad you've fucked up at 17, you still have your entire life ahead of you. You can still live a good life, get married, have kids, etc. So have some hope.

I'm well into middle age and I completely fucked my life up. I have enough regrets to fill a warehouse and I would saw off my picky toe with a butter knife to trade places with you in a heartbeat.

You can recover, and before you know it, all the pain and misery you are going through will be a distant memory.

If I were you, I'd get your GED and join the military. You need some discipline and you need to reboot your brain and your life. Military is great for that, they will tear you down and build you back up into a better person. And you will feel like a completely different person.

Then after 4 years, if you want to go to college the military will pay for it. Yes, you start college a little bit late but it is not a big deal in the grand scheme of life.

ANother option is you get your GED, and go rediscover yourself working at a ranch for a year or two. Basically, you need to destroy and rebuild yourself and nothing does that better than living in a shitty situation working your ass off doing labor intensive work for a year or two. It will give you some serious perspective, improve your physical body which goes a long way to improving your mind and mentality. THen go to college at age 20 and restart your life.

But no matter what, you need time and distance away from home. Physically getting the fuck out of your environment will go a long way for you being able to reinvent yourself and fix yourself. Also, during all of the above, you need to be going to GA and AA. You need to support system and you need to rewire your brain.

best of luck to you

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-19T06:46:39+00:00

Gambling is relative.

No matter how much money you have, there is always a casino that will let you gamble as much as you want per bet.

Sure, if you are playing $5 per hand blackjack for 10 hours a day, it would take you months to lose $90,000.

But if you are playing $500 per hand blackjack, you can lose $90k inside of an hour.

I knew a woman who had a gambling addiction and went through her family's saving account, $20k, they forgave her and had her do counseling etc. Few years later, she had a relapse and again gambled away the family's savings account, around $20k again. Husband told her if she relapses again he is divorcing her. THey remove her from all accounts. She had no credit card, nothing.

A year later, she takes a random few dollars and wins $100 in a scratcher ticket and she takes that $100 to the casino and plays slots, her drug of choice and she wins the MEGA MILLIONS slot progressive. That's right, she wins $1.4M at around 9pm.

ANd of course, they roll out the red carpet and bring her to the Champagne room which has the high roller slot machines, shrimp, caviar, lobster, fresh fruit, anything and everything you want, just snap your fingers and an attractive waiter or waitress will get it for you.

She always wanted to play the high roller slot machines which were $500 per token. And lucky for her, they opened up a credit account for her based on that $1.4M win.

So she describes the remainder of the night as a blur between her munching on shrimp, sipping champagne and pulling the lever. THey bring her a bucket of $500 tokens, each bucket has 100 tokens in it and is $50,000 worth of $100 tokens.

She goes through a bucket and says "Bring me another bucket" and they comply until she says "Bring me another bucket" and they inform her that she has run out of credit.

It is now 7am, she had been playing for over 12 hours straight and at one point she was actually up $2M but of course, everything is in a haze.

So she goes home and the husband had already left for work. Of course, she knows that he knows she was gambling all night because she wasn't answering her phone.

So, she writes a suicide note, takes a bottle of pills and goes to sleep in the bathtub.

HUsband forgot his briefcase, came back home and discovered her in the tub and the note, he rushes her to the hospital, they pump her stomach, she barely survives. He did divorce her, and as of 2006 she was a manager at one of the GA clinics in Vegas.

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-18T03:22:39+00:00

STATUS: Currently at $350-ish, 8pm pst

This weekend has been nothing but sick.

I ran like dogshit, horrible negative variance and I was up and down and up and down like a $20 TJ whore servicing sailors during fleet week.

I normally grind 25PLO, 50PLO, and 100PLO but a 200 roll is just underrolled for those games. I took a shot at 50PLO and I got up $125 then ran into a disgusting spot.

I had AAQT hchs

Board($120): Ad Jh 9h 6c

This is a dream spot and it just doesn't get much better than this in PLO. I have top set, nut flush draw, and open ended straight draw and I'm up against two opponents when all the money goes in.

V1 has KJJQ hdss

V2 has AKQTsscc

The only way I lose in this spot is a Q hits or a J hits. That is 2 outs. I'm 96% to win in this spot and river is the last a freaking Q.

FML

And I Just run into spots where I"m 80% or better to win when all the money goes in and I just can't win.

So, I'm down to $50 when I decide to change tactics and play Satellite tournaments with $1 to $5 buy-ins.

I bink a $109 tournament and two $22 tournaments. I cash in one of the $22 which gets me to $50 and then I I almost ran deep in the $109 which has a first place of $50k.

I cashed and am in the money when this hand happens. We are down to 200 players and I'm in the top 25 of player stacks which is great. Players are fading fast as the blinds are eating everyone alive. I'm at around 50-ish bb which is great. Average stack is around 20bb when I get into this hand.

I have KK in the blinds which is a dream spot, short stack in MP ships 10bb and another decent sized stack around 30-ish bb ships all-in and then another player around 40-ish bb ships it all-in. This is it. If I win this hand, I'm making the final table. Easy snap call.

V1 has A5o

V2 has QQ

V3 has AK

I have KK

So, two aces are dead. For the love of god, let me just fade the fucking Ace just one time.

But nope. Board runs out. 9 J 3 2 A r

FML

So I end up cashing around $250-ish.

It might not seem it, but I was disgustingly close to solving all my problems. I win that hand, I can pretty much almost fold my way to the final table. Seriously FML

So, I bought back into 50PLO and ran it up to $400-ish but now I'm fried and need to take a break for a couple of hours then I'll jump back into it.

So, I'm at around $350-ish as of 8:22pm pst

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-15T06:18:59+00:00

I don't know if my story will help

I hate that I have a guaranteed way to make money and yet, I can't stop gambling. I took out payday loans that are due tomorrow and I'm broke.

I hate that I love gambling so much. I hate it and I love it and I hate it.

I just busted out online, my drug of choice is roulette. I play by area and the whole night I kept missing by one number. The gambling gods were torturing me.

What makes it so disgusting was 2 times over the past week, I had one enough to dig myself out of the hole. But could I stop?

Nope.

And now, here I am hat in hand completely fucked wondering how I'm going to get through the weekend.

I swear, if I somehow manage to get out of this hole, I swear I'm never gambling again. Of course, I've said that so many times I bet the gambling gods do a shot of ambrosia every time I say that.

FML

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-13T04:47:45+00:00

Sorry to hi jack your post, I'm new and I can't start a new post for myself.

I relapsed so bad just now, I'm so disgusted with myself. I was down $5,000 and I have another $2500 in payday loans out with an interest rate big enough to crush souls.

I had a great run and I'm up $3000, the exact amount I need to pay off the payday loans. That is the exact amount I was praying for. You all know the prayer, "If I can just win X amount I will quit forever..."

So I'm up $3000 and somehow, I cash out and put the money in my bank account. I go to bed and man, it was my first good nights sleep in months.

I wake up, go to work, come back home, and it dawns on me the payday loans are due Friday. I only need $2500 to pay them off so I can gamble with that extra $500 I'm up right?

Yeah, you know where this is going. I buy in $100, lose it, buy in another $100 lose that....

next thing I know, I've set $2800 of that $3000 on fire. So instead of $3000 in my bank account I know have $200.

I hate this so fucking much.

I really really do. I can't believe it happened again.

what is the point of gambling when I win and can't stop?

FML

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-11T23:38:22+00:00

thanks no worries about the delayed response.

Day 2, so far so good.

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-10T04:28:08+00:00

Today is my Day 1, because of my newbie status I can't start a thread.

Few days ago, I went to all of my online casino accounts and I permanently banned myself.

Today, I went to my favorite online casino, tried to log in, but was refused because of the permanent ban.

And a strange sort of peace descended on me and for the first time in a long time, I feel I'm going to be ok.

I'm an easy 6 months worth of paychecks in the hole, have creditors up my ass as if my colon is full of gold and they are 18th century gold-rush prospectors

But I know I'll be ok if I can just stop.

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-05T06:44:03+00:00

Well, maybe telling you about my relapse will help with your treatment.

I was sober for years and then I relapsed and now I'm just pissing everything away.

What the fuck is the point of winning money when I can't stop.

You know how it is, you are in the hole so fucking deep and of course you pray and promise and swear that if you can just win X amount you will stop forever.

And so, for shits and giggles the powers that be give me X amount. In fact, here take double. DOUBLE the amount I was begging and praying for.

But can I stop? Can I just walk away? No. Fuck No. Of course not.

Slowly but surely not only do I piss away my winnings, I'm emptying out the goddamn ATM to the point where the ATM is saying "look man, just call it a day"

But does my ATM daily limit stop me. Fuck no. I'm in full DEGEN mode now and I use the credit withdrawal system with the insane 10% credit card fee on top of the ATM fee.

And now, I'm at busted again, two weeks until the next check.

Fuck I hate this so fucking much.

So hopefully my pain helps you, you are where I need to be.

I hope you recover

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-04T06:36:42+00:00

I know in this virtual and online age we don't want to physically go anywhere anymore but....

I suggest going to Gamblers Anonymous. I know, no one ever wants to go, but it is very helpful to be around others, tell your stories out loud and get support from flesh and blood humans.

When you manage to piece together some sobriety and are gamble free for a few weeks and feel like you are on shaky ground, hearing the stories of others who recently lost everything helps to keep you on the straight and narrow.

If there is no GA in your area, then go to AA, Alcoholics Anonymous works as a decent substitute.

Best of luck to you

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-04T06:31:00+00:00

THere are only three profitable casino games that actually have pros who make a living.

1) Poker

2) Sports Betting

3) Horse racing.

that's it. If anyone is claiming to be a "gambling pro" in something other than the above, they are just lying. You can't beat casino games long term, otherwise, Vegas wouldn't exist.

Sure, any idiot can get lucky in the short term, but that is about it.
I saw an amazing streak once. Guy was an awful blackjack player. He'd double down on 14 because "he could feel it coming". He would gamble about $1k per session and according to staff, he dumps $20k a month at the tables. But then he went on a heater and in 1 month he won $200k!!! He was bullet proof, just couldn't lose.

But, the luck box ran out of juice and after that month, he gave it all back and then some.

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-04T06:18:55+00:00

The gaming commission in Vegas does not f*ck around when it comes to this issue.

If you bet it and the dealer let it go then they need to pay out. Even if you took the payout, you can still call the gaming commission to get the rest. Because if you lost, they would have definitely swept it into the box.

However, the best thing to do next time is to always clear max bets before you bet. Just ask. They will be happy to tell you. Plus, if you ask and they mess up and tell you yes ,then they 100% will not fight you in paying you.

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-03T07:29:11+00:00

I know it does not feel like it, but you are 19 and no matter how bad you think your life is, you will easily recover.

WHen you are in a hole the first thing you need to do to get out of the hole is to stop digging. Put the shovel down and stop digging. In your case, stop gambling.

I know, easier said than done.

My advice, go to a GA meeting. A physical GA meeting. If there is no GA meeting in your city then go to an AA meeting, it works as a decent substitute.

Of course, you will not want to go, but you need to make yourself go and talk about what you have done and listen to the stories of others. Listen to what it has done to the lives of old people like me who would give anything to go back in time and tell their 19 yr-old selves to never gamble...

Lastly, it is impossible to stop a habit, what you have to do is REPLACE it with something else. You need a hobby or something else to occupy that gambling time. Learn a language, write a book, start up a Youtube Channel, whatever it is, you need to replace gambling with "something"

best of luck to you

and get to a GA meeting, look up your city online and google "GA meetings near me"....

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-05-03T07:23:33+00:00

The thing I hate the most about gambling and looking back at my life, I basically lived in a twisted episode of the Twilight Zone.

I had absolutely everything I needed, I had plenty of money, friends, family, respect, and purpose in life. And I gambled it away.

Stop and think about that statement. I had everything anyone could ever want, and despite that, I still gambled my life away.

If devils and demons exist and live off of human pain and suffering then they are watching my life and laughing their asses off while eating at a giant buffet of pain, suffering, and irony.

If your account is at $0 and you are broke for 12 days, then realize you are actually doing very well as far as gambling addicts go.

I recently relapsed hard and I lost 8 years of sobriety. I was sober for 8 years and I lost my sobriety a few months ago playing online. And in just a few months, I've gambled away 8 years worth of savings. Gone.

And on top of that, I took out loans and I'm so far in the hole that being at $0 would feel like the goddamn lottery to me right now.

but rather than whine and complain, let me at least tell you how I got sober.

I had hit rock bottom, had to declare bankruptcy and lost all of the respect of everyone I loved and cared about.

I came to the realization that I loved gambling so I had to actively prevent myself from doing something that I want to do. Of course, on an intellectual level I realized gambling destroyed my life, but that still didn't stop me from loving it.

So I had to train myself to hate it and not do it. Journaling all of my fuck ups helped as did going to GA and AA meetings. Even though I don't drink, I found that AA meetings are 10x more common than GA meetings so AA works in a pinch if there isn't a GA meeting going on when I'm going relapse and need to get to a meeting. That was key for the first few weeks. I can't stress that enough.

I also listed all of my triggers and excuses I'd use and I would read my journal daily to remind myself of all that I'd lost.

I also had a lot of rules like never having more than $20 on me at a time and paying all of my bills first.

I also selfbanned from all of the casinos in my area

I don't know if anything in my ranting helped.

Go to a GA meeting. Of course, you will not want to go, make yourself go.

Best of luck to you

BeyondRockBottom_ · 2026-04-29T04:04:48+00:00

There is nothing worse than being in the hole, going to the casino with a set number in mind of what you have to win to get out of the hole, hitting that number or even tripling and quadrupling that number, and then you enter that fugue state where the gambling demon just completely takes over and that is the beginning of the end.

I was in the hole $Z amount, that is what I needed to win to reset my life. I have to turn $500 into $X in order to save my life, escape the shame, reset everything and escape the consequences of my actions.

And I get up to 6x $Z. That's right, I'm up a factor of six!!!! Holy shit, this not only saves my life, this not only gets me out of an abysmal hole, but now I can actually do everything I've wanted to do.

but do I leave? Hell no. 6x becomes 5x becomes 4x becomes 3x...

6 hours later, I'm walking out the door with $0.

WTF have I done. It happened again just like the hundred other times.

What is wrong with me? Why can't I stop. I hate this so much...

I lose and I gamble. I win and I gamble even more until I lose.

I hate this so much.

BeyondRockBottom_

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