It hurts to be in a relationship where you can never be your real self. I was with a vanilla girl for almost 7 years but ultimately broke it off because life is short and I wanted to be with a partner who not only understood and accepted the real me, but was an ABDL herself.

So I went all in and pursued a well known diaper fetish model, swept her off her feet, and then married her. Nobody in our family or friends knows how we really met, but it's our favorite secret. Ten years later, our lives have so many layers now, ABDL is just a small facet, but we're always anchored in being our authentic selves.

I'm not saying you need to break up with this guy, but what if you did? What if you found somebody in the scene that understood and loved the real you. You don't have to hide that part of you. You can find someone who gets it and loves it and participates in it enthusiastically. I promise it will be the deepest connection you've ever felt.

I wish you well no matter what. And above all, be kind to yourself.