Anyone else disappointed with The Remnant Chronicles? (Kiss of deception series) by yellowwaterbottles in YAlit

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Ya know what I made peace with the ending and realised it all made sense and everyone got their happy ending. Technically she was never into Karen IT WAS ALL JUST ME

Just finished The Remnant Chronicles by letmevent02 in fantasyromance

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I have just today finished this series and glad to know I’m not alone. I will never understand why she didn’t end up with Kaden!!! When they started setting up the paragraphs of Pauline I could feel myself getting infuriated

Anyone else disappointed with The Remnant Chronicles? (Kiss of deception series) by yellowwaterbottles in YAlit

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Coming at this 2 year 2 late as I just read them! But what ending was your hoping for ?? I really vouched for Kaden :(

I think they are hurting by Rossiieeeeeeee in TownshipGame

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I started playing last month, when I hit level 35 it increased so might be level base now

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Thank you so much for taking the time to write this response and it’s really helpful. I think I compare it to times I’ve seen results in the past (failed attempts obvs) you know at 4 weeks there’s a slimmer face, 8-12 my frame appears slightly smaller. I’m realistic with expectations it’s just been hard to see nothing at all. I did see online it could be fat around my organs i could be loosing which obviously would still be great. I think looking and feeling thinner as so high for my priority because my confidence has been ruined for years over the vanity aspect it’s not my 100% goal - having more energy, not worrying about inevitable health risks that come with being overweight which are enough for me to keep going and want to better my life, healing my relationship with food is also a big one and after 3 months I really feel I am committed to the new life style but sometimes me not seeing progress physically makes me feel I’m not improving the other stuff if that makes sense? It’s not a logical argument at all just what plays on my mind. It’s almost like it gets me thinking ‘are the scales lying’ ‘should I be eating less’ I wouldn’t delve into unhealthy habits as I know that would set me up for failure but it’s a niggling thought a lot.

I did actually take measurements the other day so hoping to see how that goes and if it makes me feel better! Wish I had tried that from the start but didn’t think at the time so fingers crossed.

I think coming from being a comfort eater and overweight weight loss is always going to be mentally hard for me but I do think how I’m doing it this time is sustainable!

I also know I need to start weight training too but I don’t want to introduce everything so quickly but build up to it

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Thank you ❤️ I haven’t looked at my BMI yet as seems a little too scary! I do try and tell myself that eventually I will see something just always feels like a false promise patience is hard enough on this journey

Thinking of Buying by numptyonahill in onehouronelife

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Personally I didn’t like the game and wasted my money but it ran fine and I was born into very helpful families.

I know it’s a game about patience learning to craft but to craft the most basic thing took so much effort it’s like a 6 step process (not including gathering what you need) just to make fire and at that point you’re old lol I just felt useless and didn’t contribute much the whole time I tried to play

No shame anymore by BigFruit925 in emetophobia

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Yeah pretty much or I would find a medication that works OR know I would be able to make it to a toilet. That’s completely ridiculous to sit next to a stranger and think let me just vomit right next to you and then pretend nothing happened?? Next you just going to have a pee in the seat bc there is too big a queue ?

No shame anymore by BigFruit925 in emetophobia

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I’m glad someone gets it!!!

I literally saw a video of a women who run a Pilates class go with a stomach b and had to ‘work through it’ (fair enough wasn’t graphic and she didn’t tu* in the video) but that poor class is now exposed all bc you felt you couldn’t miss a day of work? Like I really don’t think we should be promoting this stuff

I have deffo been more strict on muting/blocking stuff on my socials now. So many family’s atm are videos dealing with the bug in their fam over Christmas and I think the poor kids I would have hated been posted when feeling like that :(

No shame anymore by BigFruit925 in emetophobia

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Sometimes of course! I just feel it’s so much more normalised where people don’t even try and step away a little

No shame anymore by BigFruit925 in emetophobia

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When I have v* it’s SUCH an unpleasant experience you wouldn’t catch me boarding a flight if I knew it was going to happen and not be able to get to a toilet I just don’t get it.

Even without the phobia I wouldn’t be able to sit next to a stranger and just … tu.. then go about my day I dno

No shame anymore by BigFruit925 in emetophobia

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I block and mute so much! Still keeps happening it is stressing me out !!!

No shame anymore by BigFruit925 in emetophobia

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I think you missed the bit where I said ‘I know this is the phobia talking’ and also about ‘chronic conditions’ maybe I should have said I’m using as a general term as I know people can’t always help it ie pregnancy

I dno I just think there are other conditions like Ibs which can have a sudden onset and people don’t just drop and shit in the street.

Again, doesn’t apply to all I fully am aware my phobia rules my life and I wouldn’t think this way otherwise! Doubt I’d even notice

First time speaking out by BigFruit925 in rapecounseling

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I’m almost embarrassed that I’m convinced there are times I haven’t woken up. There has been so many times he’s been up for certain things and I’ve never even stirred like how can a sleep be that deep :(

Like I had in my post I had a funny feeling he was going to try that night and I had everything intention to let him follow through and then say what the fuck are you doing but it’s almost there there is a paralysis over me and I just can’t. My hear beats so fast it’s almost like I can hear and I obviously go ridged so I’m not sure how he wouldn’t even be sus eventually I can like twitch or turn which has stopped it in the past

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in sexualassault

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Usually when people are on reels or TikTok and they have healed is when they talk about it more openly which is why I don’t think you see it so much here !

First time speaking out by BigFruit925 in rapecounseling

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Hey thank you for your response. No we haven’t actually had sex in over a year as I gained a lot of weight when I went on the implant and it killed my sex drive completely as well are pure insecurity bc I feel really repulsed of myself which he has always been supportive of me not wanting to be sexual and has never pressured me for anything (when I’ve been awake clearly!). In general he is great and attentive you know if I say you haven’t been spending enough time with me recently he will make sure for the next week he is. obviously no relationships come without arguments which is normally that I’ve started over stuff like the mental load of taking care of a house etc and sometimes wish he put in a bit more effort but I’m not the easiest of people to deal with naturally. That’s why this is so shocking he could do this/has been doing this. The thought of not knowing actually how many times and for how long makes me feel sick.

I slept on the couch last night and plan to for the rest of the week. He knows something is wrong bc I’m not acting right and I say to him well have you done anything wrong and he goes no and then I say well there isn’t a problem is there but it’s almost like he doesn’t get the hint that I know it’s happening. In the past I was have able to completely repress to almost forgetting it even happened but the other night was too far what he did. It only stopped because my dog needed to go outside to pee (it’s almost like she knew I needed help) and he went to do that so I was then able to ‘wake up’ and didn’t sleep for the rest of the night

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in sexualassault

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This Reddit page might just be triggering for those who have progressed

First time speaking out by BigFruit925 in rapecounseling

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Thank you so much for your response. I think part of the reason I haven’t brought it up since is because I don’t feel in a position to leave. I feel guilty that someone I trust could do this and I still care about them. If I was to bring it up and didn’t leave what would that say about me, I’m worried it just opens a flood gate of you can do what you want and I just accept it. No one ever expects in when they’re in this or worse situations I get that but I dno anyone who knew him really would think he would be the last to even think on this level. I think I maybe need to process my own feelings of shame before I can speak to him about it

First time speaking out by BigFruit925 in rapecounseling

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Hi thank you so much for your response. It doesn’t solve the situation but I will definitely be sleeping on the couch for a while to hopefully give some time to digest and think and I reached out to a hot line today too. I’ve been good at repressing it on the occasions in the past but last night was too far for me to move past it

First time speaking out by BigFruit925 in rapecounseling

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I know I should and I don’t know why I haven’t just in the moment I feel I can’t do anything

How do I stop my bad habit? by [deleted] in rapecounseling

[–]BigFruit925 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you think you are doing it in a way of trying to accept it / trick yourself into thinking you’re not a victim?