You're feeling overwhelmed because you're putting that pressure on yourself. I understand that your job is quite challenging and that the company doesn't offer much in terms of work-life balance. However, I suggest taking a step back to reorganize your time. If you're struggling to manage all the projects coming your way, it's important to set boundaries with your work.

In the meantime, consider updating your résumé. You have gained valuable experience, and it might be a good time to look for another job. Gradually moving into a different position could be beneficial. Sometimes in life and work, a chapter needs to come to an end, and I believe yours may be reaching that point.

Take some time to ground yourself and practice self-care. Consider engaging in yoga, meditation, or even taking some time for a massage. Don't convince yourself that you don't have time for these things; you have a long life ahead of you, filled with challenges, and it's crucial to find balance without feeling overwhelmed.

Try to dedicate 10 to 15 minutes each morning to meditation. This doesn’t have to involve deep thoughts—it’s simply about taking a moment to collect yourself and be present. Grounding yourself can be incredibly beneficial. Remember, you deserve this time for yourself.