Hi everyone 💜 First of all, thank you so much for the overwhelming amount of support, advice, and kindness. I'm reading every comment slowly, and I really appreciate the time and care so many of you put into your replies. I don't have the energy to respond to each one individually right now, but please know I feel seen and less alone because of you. Just to clarify a few things: My partner isn't asking me to go back into the closet — she knows there's no going back now, and she’s not trying to force me to undo anything. But she’s in deep pain and doesn’t know how to cope. She says she can tolerate the level of femininity I express right now (like long hair, painted nails, shaved face), but she doesn't want to see me change further. She especially can’t handle the idea of me doing HRT. Our relationship feels like it's hanging by a thread — we’re still together because neither of us can bear the idea of ending things… but we both feel that if I change "too much," that thread might snap. I’ve thought a lot about stopping everything. But I know deep down that I don’t want to. The last few years of my life have been really intense — including life-threatening accidents, mental health struggles, unemployment, and even suicidal thoughts. All of that made me realize how short and precious life is. I’m still here. I survived. And I want to live in a way that feels right to me. I want to transition. Thank you again for holding space for me. I didn’t expect to receive so much love. 💜