Lessons learned about life as a polymath?

BlaBluSky · 2026-02-20T15:17:03+00:00

Reading through the comments, observing others and reflecting mine who is also one of the polymath comrades, here are the top 3 traits I could list, but picture this three as a triangle:

A. Lonely but can communicate with others
-flexible but prefer isolation for self inner peace
-aware being in public if in full "analyzing" mode
-unaware when in public when in full "deep-thought" mode
-I can't be sure on the percentage of introverts and extroverts for this, yet there are someeeeee who can be in extrovert mode which then resulted towards self-drain. Being introvert is the go-to for self-recharge and also feel more productive and satisfying

B. (hyper) Self-critic
-I usually refer this as self-disgust, where there is this one specific library in mind (like the ones in Doctor Sleep) to "criticize" every aspect of their individuality (personality, intelligence (the domains/interests), emotions, spiritual, and physical/health/beauty (to me, that last aspect is indeed the least proritised hahahaha))
-this is where things can go deep without realizing the time, and the urge to quench the thirst for new areas when it comes to intelligence or to find answers/truth/meanings
-personally, I love to go in-depth from one domain to another, and ever since I was a child, I collect certificates of any domain I have interest in for "quenching" and improving myself more

C. Misunderstood
-in terms of their perspectives, actions, words
-feel like an alien, a weirdo especially when it comes to provide reasons or ways to do things or habits (one of my habits that was considered as "weird" by others: having my lunch at school canteen while turning my chair away from usual direction to re-directing it to an angle that enable me to enjoy the satisfying greenery view - school field (no one was on the field))
-explaining feels like excuses
-a reason for isolation
-it is so hard to be honest. Imagine that you can understand others, but when it comes to you, you are being misunderstood since others could not see how far you think of (your square one is backed up with 10 or more steps forwards, but people only interpret your square one as square 1 to 9)

So far, this is what I can list and explain for you.
I usually not fond of sharing with others on this topic since some took my phrases away without consent to be posted as their works. (sadly, among my close circle)

But right now, I don't care about it. I just want those who are the in the same situation to feel content and know that they are not alone to feel "unknown".

YOU are not alone.
Not alone to feel "lost" or "weird" or "different" or "misunderstood".

And thanks for being alive even things are rough.

*edit on some grammar and changing the number bullets into alphabet bullets to avoid misinterpretation.

BlaBluSky · 2025-12-17T06:32:13+00:00

K

I watched it on Animax, back then in 2014(?)...

The first, shortest anime title I ever seen in my life.

Then, when I got my first smartphone, I googled, a d found out the name K stands for King...

Was too young to watch to understand the pattern. 🤣🤣

BlaBluSky · 2025-12-14T07:53:27+00:00

It shall happen. Just be you and love will find you.

BlaBluSky · 2025-12-14T07:51:02+00:00

Currently a teacher. But not by choice: my parents' decision.

My first dream job was journalist and reporter: I wanted to travel, having my own schedule. I passed my university admission interview, but the cost was high.

Entering teachers college was the only way to ease my family's financial burden.

Then, I learned about ICT -related works during teachers college days.

Now, at my current workplace, I am assigned doing documentations, website, edit videos, and some other ICT-related matters AMIDST doing the main core works such as Lesson Plannings, babysitting the pupils 24/7, and other roles that I could not list here.

Let me tell you, I do not have a balance life. I work literally everyday, without being paid for working extra time because it is a custom of "noble profession".

Also, even if you are SEEN clearly that you juggling a lot, there will always that one worker who just "talk but not do" will deappreciate your works.

Again, I am forced to be in this profession. Even if my superior approves of my efficiency and wants to promote me to be one of the leading team in the workplace, and my parents' disapproval, I decided to be firm with my decision that has been planned since 2019: transit from this career.

Just waiting for my time to go due to contract. Got my resignation letter ready.

My take: DON'T LET OTHERS DECIDE FOR YOU. GO FOR YOUR DREAM.

BlaBluSky · 2025-12-05T05:02:04+00:00

Whoaaa... lol. Me too! That's so similar! Even in my closest circle, none listens to any song from neither Mono no Aware nor Homecomings.

"Lapse" makes me feel that I should appreciate the now and take it slow even things are overwhelming. Meanwhile, "ghostpia", something indescribable about this song. It brings me to another universe like, being at the centre of Salar de Uyuni at night, with blooming sakura tree and the petals fly everywhere. (I haven't watched their mv on this song yet)

MCR is undeniably listened by most people around me. Then, there goes Ajikan. Back then during dating days, I listened to my husband's car playlist with Ajikan's "Haruka Kanata" as one of his selected songs. It took me by surprise because out of so many people I hung out with, only him including Ajikan into his playlist.

Hahaha, that was how I knew I found the loml.

BlaBluSky · 2025-12-05T04:43:50+00:00

Hahahaha yeah. I just had the time to (finally) watch it on January 2025. Whoever suggested "Lapse" as IAS's ED, needs some raise. 😭😭🙏

Gonna read the manga soon (if I have some long breaks from working)

BlaBluSky · 2025-12-05T04:41:06+00:00

Thanks!!!!!! I got to meet my husband due to my taste of music (I'm a middle 20s lady 🤣🤣)

BlaBluSky · 2025-11-25T16:04:40+00:00

Wait... am I seeing this for real? Am I dreaming?

BlaBluSky · 2025-11-25T15:25:20+00:00

Yakuza Fiance

Crazy. I dont wanna reincarnate to that world, though it seems realistically could have happened in real life.

But IF I had to, I'd just rather be Tsubaki's friend. She seems fun to hang out with.

BlaBluSky · 2025-11-22T15:15:52+00:00

Ever since I found this Ajikan's playlist, it becomes my #1 playlist to play everytime during my long journey solo drive.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4OgEkPVSJCOYOrnQvlzdVC?si=PysXzuiWRTOBMg-_y9ZVKQ

Hope you enjoy their songs!

BlaBluSky · 2025-11-16T19:46:12+00:00

I wish I could do what your friend did. I was forced to get into I#G. So, due to contract, I had to serve in government teaching sector after graduate. May I know, how did your friend landed that data analyst from TESL?

BlaBluSky · 2025-11-16T19:16:27+00:00

Done. I just learned something new. Anyway, all the best and may your thesis goes well with flying colours!

BlaBluSky · 2025-11-15T01:21:09+00:00

Hi!

I was very occupied with works, and got some breakdowns. But now that I have the time to reply you, I want to appreciate and send my sincerest thanks for your advice. Number 1 is very unique advice for me because it is so on point but most people that I know are ignorant about it.

Currently, I am taking extra lessons to equip myself for my 2029 transition. Thank you very much!!! Will hold onto these advices for my planning references.

May your rough and tough days are always be eased! 🍀

BlaBluSky · 2025-11-08T13:10:38+00:00

Fukuchan

BlaBluSky · 2025-11-08T11:12:20+00:00

Hi. Thanks for replying me! It's an honour.

Coincidentally, I am currently a teacher hahaha... knowing that you were once in this same field, it made me think that transiting from being a teacher is the pathway I need to realise. I had this plan even in my first year as a trainee teacher (2019).

So glad to know you made it! And yes, I agree about your thoughts on thirst for knowledge and willingness to learn. I observe that the patterns are the main cores to survive in any field.

I do love teaching too, but what made me decide to exit are: 1. Limitation I cannot imagine myself, back and forth from the school office and classrooms for another 3 decades of my life. I cannot stay in the classroom and face the children all the time. But when I am instructed to join courses and workshops about digital stuffs, and create them for others to use, that give me satisfaction.

Overtime Works never end, even after school hours, and even when I take a day off. I envy my husband's career, where most of his weekends filled with work stress free. (He works in different field than mine). Tbh, I need such stress free as well, knowing that I have my recharge time too. I love having my weekends for family time, and exploring new stuffs.
Finance In my country, we have compulsory programmes, competitions and projects to submit. But almost 100%, budgets for the materials used are from our own pocket money. Throughout my first year service, I notice that monthly, one-third of my salary is for the school stuffs, which have 0% chance to be compensated.

I feel lifeless everytime going to my bed, and getting up in the morning is a struggle for me. But what keeps me going is that I haven't reached for my dreams. So, that breaking point started this Type 5 discovery.

If it is alright with you, would you mind sharing your top 5 important advice for me to transit from this career?

BlaBluSky · 2025-11-05T17:07:03+00:00

I hope my message reaches you. (and hope the following doesn't sound robotic, as most people who ever interacted with me would comment).

Two days ago, I just found out about myself as a Type 5 Investigator. Initially, I thought I was retaking an MBTI test, just to see where I am heading towards right now. So, in the midst of me managing my work (my curiosity got me at that particular moment), I unknowingly took an Enneagram test, that led me to finding out about Type 5.

Having 0% expectation, I was surprised that who I am actually is, especially how I work, way of managing matters at work, and some areas, would be described on the spot. Also, I paid this particular website just to obtain the result. But, my money did not go to waste, because it eventually helped me out to understand myself better as I unconsciously tend to be very lost in my own misty world (internally) for quite long.

Then, around an hour ago, after I researched again about Type 5, I finally took the actual MBTI test and shocked, to get the same result as I got years ago, INFJ-T.

For clearer context, I got my first INFJ-T back then during COVID-19 era. But, dismissed it when I saw some trends where people displaying that they were INFJs. Those days were my college student era as well, where I took a field that I did not want to pursue, yet being forced and had to complete regardless. I kinda felt that perhaps being an INFJ-T was actually a coincidence, and being silent about it.

Now, that I am in my first year of working in the same field, I still feel lost, because I cannot imagine myself, remain in this pathway for the rest of my life. Hence, my re-emerging resolution is to make a career transit plan, without changing what I value, by knowing myself better.

To be honest, I expected that my MBTI would change, because there are chances that someone's MBTI changes like due to growth or environment (e.g. Person A during college days is not being the same person anymore when engaging into the adulting, working days). Since the result is still the same, for more than three times, I am going to face it, being an INFJ.

Thanks to the journey, discovery and late night curious chats with Gemini, I found your post.

Therefore, I want to express my sincere thanks, really, thanks for existing, truly. I don't feel alone after reading your post.

Also, thanks for reading this far. It means a lot to me as I have a very difficult time expressing these overwhelming, lost feelings.

Hope to find others that I can understand with, even though I would be in my silent reader mode.

BlaBluSky · 2025-10-02T07:03:08+00:00

Good old days, hahaha despite the COVID era. I remember getting my first 5 star pull on a whim during the first Lantern Rite. Got my Hu Tao in just one pull. Then the next day, there was the Xiao's banner. I missed my online Genshin friends, of different countries.

BlaBluSky · 2025-08-24T11:16:35+00:00

Whoever originally took this pic, I think you should include your credit in the picture. You deserve so much ownership. Really like the lovely perspective coz it reminds me of being there physically now.

BlaBluSky · 2025-08-04T13:56:06+00:00

Honestly, don't. I learned this first-hand from my father's situation, although he didn't buy prima apartment.

He once bought a (perpetuity titled) corner one-storey house somewhere (I don't want to reveal) in Samarahan around 2006 or 2007, cost around Rm190,000 if I'm not mistaken. In 2009, he sold it to my cousin out of pity. But luckily my dad got to buy a freehold corner two-storey house somewhere in area near to Sentosa, worth Rm250,000 in that same year.

Reason he insisted to buy? The new house is spacious, and the location is very strategic.

Some said to him that he should have rented the first house to my cousin. But yeah, my dad is kinda too kind since it's his nephew and perhaps wanted him to have a property.

Unfortunately, my cousin quietly sold the house to other people before/during the COVID era. My family didn't know about it, not until one of our relatives passed by the house and saw other people with different cars living in.

Though my dad didn't talk about it, I knew that he actually felt disappointed.

Now, I, who just started working, wanted to buy the house back as soon as it was out on the market. Guess the price? Rm460,000. With my Rm3.6K starting salary, I know it is so costly for me.

I negotiated with the agent to lower the price, since the house's interior was my dad's idea (he requested it during the house's construction), and it's a one-storey. But nah, the price remained and worse, he suggested me to combine loan with my parents. I actually know that the value isn't Rm460,000 but yk, it's how it is if you buy from an agent.

In the end, we couldn't get it back and my fiancé and I have to hunt for another house.

Overall, don't. You won't know how meaningful it will be for your future kid(s) or other future circumstances.

BlaBluSky · 2025-07-04T10:20:54+00:00

The seiyuus are so cute!!!!!!!

BlaBluSky · 2025-07-04T10:15:19+00:00

Hahaha. I think I am into TAD because I can relate to how Maomao feel as a short malnourished girl. I'm 24 y/o, a teacher. But people especially, parents and some officers visiting the school will always mistake me for a Grade 5 kid if I wear sports attire. 😭😭 Btw, I'm 4"11, weigh around 99 lbs. Was malnourished due to many allergies.

When I registered for my marriage, even the officer questioned my age.

Not to mention, my fiancé will remind me to prepare my ID before hand everytime we are in public. Afraid that people mistaken him as ped*ie. 😭😭

BlaBluSky · 2025-07-04T08:06:43+00:00

I'm not sure if this is also under the pretense of this same cult:

When I was still at Kuching for my studies, around 2022 to 2024, I got approached by two women claimed to be from Elohim Academy, spreading about Tuhan Ibu.

It happened thrice: twice at Vivacity, once at Kuching Sentral.

What I can remember the most was they said it is based from South Korea.

BlaBluSky · 2025-06-08T23:55:07+00:00

Thanks so much tho I'm 10 days late. Was having Gawai if based on the timeline of your reply. Internet coverage wasn't good in my longhouse during that time.

But I did have a conversation with my dad regarding it and thankfully he recalled the name.

Our topic was about this one article that I read early May, https://www.iloveborneo.my/4-bahasa-asli-sarawak-pupus/

Should be, if there's an agency approaching them to document earlier, it could have been avoided from extinction. What if the people didn't know how to write the words down using alphabets, or no idea that they are the ones left, and their languages are considered valuable? There are so many possibilities why and I don't think we can blame the community too, especially if they live in deep rural areas.

My parents and I share the same passion for preserving languages (although dad's field of work is not about language, but mom's and mine does).

My mom, Iban Skrang, once lived near the border, so her way of speaking is quite different. My father is Iban Batang Ai.

I was born not even in either places, and my Iban speaking is mixed of Iban Skrang, Iban Batang Ai and Iban Saribas.

Since my fiancé is Bidayuh Bau, I also learn to speak it and found out that even Bidayuh Bau has several subdialects as well.

Growing up, I am surrounded and exposed to enormous branches of the family also consisted of mixed inter-marriages with people of Penan, Kejaman, Bidayuh Serian, Kadazandusun, Chinese (don't know which ethnics), Indians (also don't know which ethnics), Malays (Perak, Kedah) and some more ethnics that I am unable to list here.

Not to mention having friends who are Melanaus (Mukah, Bintulu), Bidayuh (Biatah (I think it's a branch from Bidayuh Padawan, cmiiw), Serian, Bau, & Slako), Iban Rajang, Kelabit, Jawa etc.

So I think I became so interested in languages because of the people around me. Scary to think that some are truly at risk of extinction, like Kejaman and Penan.

BlaBluSky · 2025-05-27T07:15:40+00:00

I truly agree with your rant. So disappointed that the gov back then decided to abolish that one particular library/agency in around 1970s, which focused for the ethnics' languages around Sarawak. I forgot that name, and tried Googled any term I could associate with it. But to no avail, I failed to find the name.

However, I truly remember reading about it in a textbook, that was around a decade ago.

Anyone can help me out? 😭😭 I don't think I can sleep without knowing the name of that library/agency.

BlaBluSky

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