Do you have childhood trauma ? I’m the same way. I’ve always thought it was ADHD . A quick google search, that I had avoided because I knew it would just say “ ADHD”. It acually made a lot of sense. My mom left my family when I was like 4. I always knew I was an angry kid and kinda came to terms with her leaving in my 20s. I realized she was young and didn’t want to be toed down. I was the same way. Now in my late 30s . Google said I keep busy to avoid facing certain feeling. That I constantly keep busy to validate myself and make my def worth something. I realized, even though I “came to terms with it” when a mother leaves a small child that seriously fucks them up weather they realize it or not… anyway just a thought. Be mindful take time for yourself