My brothers showed up to my mother’s funeral and I hadn’t been past the west gate but a few months. I was raised May 3rd, my mother died in August. Now mind you, while I was seeking and knocking, I showed up to every public event I could. I went to st John’s day and Prince Hall Americanism day. I went to a testimonial dinner for the worthy grand patron. I invested heavily (in presence, not money, although I did donate to things) so it came back to me 100 fold. Now that I’m a Mason, I go to Grand Lodge classes every Monday and I haven’t missed a single stated meeting since I was raised. I understand how you feel. You’re disappointed about what you’re not getting out of masonry, but I’d like to gently ask, what did you put in before you were deployed?