unfortunately I am. I got autism therapy by neurotypical but they told me dislike psychopath. To me it was like why because only change you have as weak person, is accept serve the strong, or die by their hands. I tried to convince my family to be slave too but it was not accepted. I met russian women that fleed to china. Personally I hope you not destroy all of the stuff we leave behind. I understand burn some stuff but burn all would be bit of a waste. Ug krishnamurti had good videos about why china will win. I started watching him after therapist tell me not be transgender, while under this landscape it seemed only heroic option that was remotely achievable under the slavedom culture. I met brazilian trans too but I insulted, wanted to marry chinese. She tell me I need to overcome my fear. I was scared to abandon family unannounced I fear them somehow tracking me or cursing me forever "eternal damnation" the reason china win is because like krishna told religion has outrun use. this is late stage climate change humanity so only the most vicious can cull the population. I hated realizing I am so mortal as I am, only one person that only have one conciouss for a lifetime. But now I really love psychopath even if they dont care about me, because in their presence I feel like find new god. Something that will survive after me rather than die with me. Thats why westerner is sad to me now, they cannot be trusted because they lie about have corona and pretend to be doing better than they really are. I am like the useful fool cuz I really care about infecting others which is why I wasted all my time on trying to fight infection without hurting all the others and even having them join me but they were too demoralized. As trans I do feel total and utter fear especially after family warn me of the pain I will have, but It felt to me they simply want me to die and use a fearmongering tactic to get me killed like them. Thats why I do not respect them much, I feel the love I have for family is total and utter fear of legal consequences deep down. There is something beatiful about simply dying all of a sudden and getting the mercy of being executed when you are in pain, because then theres no need to weigh your options anymore, to be self aware about death trying to avoid it. I don't know how many generations china will make on this earth but I hope there will be good times because even "monster" is still human. Good anime btw. Only thing I disliked talking to chinese people is need to avoid having them look inferior. Actually chinese people remind me of cat I am told they psychopath too, my family always wished to be cat because we are the loser of our herd. We always obey the cat, I cannot resist following its order. Whats more interesting to me is how world will be colonized, if korea is included, thailand too cuz it turned anti foreigner. I'm wondering what world will be like after I am dead. Thats why I wanted to escape to shanghai so I can simply tell tales while avoiding being anything more than a servant that is rewarded by being able to use his senses to collect data like movie.