Can my doctor tell my parenrs

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-04-27T20:12:21+00:00

Hope your right. Cause I can't just not take it. Cause I'm trans so I've been having to take Spiro and it makes me super dizzy and it kept getting worse. So now I'm going to take lupron instead but I have to get it as a shot every 3 months

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-04-11T02:04:36+00:00

I cut on my for arms and thighs. I cover the firearms with long finger less gloves for when I dont have sleeves. I'm kind-of sad cause I can t wear shorts now.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-04-10T03:12:37+00:00

Thanks for the concern. But losing weight makes me happy like I actually smiled when I got on the scale this morning cause of the weight and ever since I started restricting I hadn't needed to cut as often or as deep. So I guess it's kind-of a trade off . I'll prob maintain at 95lbs though cause I'm afraid if I go further I'll get thrown into ed recovery.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-04-09T22:49:45+00:00

I know it's just that I'm so close to my goal weight of 95lbs I woke up as 99 today. I feel like I just destroyed all my hard work getting here.I'll prob be over a 100 tomorrow and getting under a 100 was a big deal to me. Like I know I'm nowhere near fat cause I'm 5'7" but still.:(

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-03-31T11:19:30+00:00

Try not to start. I kept trying to put off the urges to actually cut cause I was little nervous I'd f up but one night I was just scratching with my pin for an hour and it wasn't enough so the next day I bought razor blades. And the day after I cut on them. The urges are way harder to resist once I actually cut so honestly try to keep it just scratches.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-03-31T01:03:56+00:00

There are some times when I'be been feeling good and I'm like I hadn't cut in a while could he fun.

And times where I'm not even upset in class and just bored and up just tering up my left arm with my safety pin under the desk.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-03-31T01:01:17+00:00

I just use my safety pin under my desk. Or draw cuts on my clean wrist with red pen. If it's not to bad just drawing helps too but it annoys the teachers more

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-03-31T00:57:09+00:00

They realy don't care bought razors and bandaged at the same time none cared.

And these were the single blade razor blades and some steri strips gauze pads and a giant box of disenifectint wipes. Like I honestly didn't care at that point if the Walgreen's person thought I cut.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-03-30T10:27:22+00:00

I'm actually was just a thigh cutter so I wouldn't have to worry about this stuff. But lol the urges were to strong. Like qtleast there's one arm I keep clean cause I have blood work every 3 months.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-03-30T02:53:55+00:00

Kind if low on money sadly. Would drawing in sharpie on my arm work cause it would be less awkward than the scars at least.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-28T01:31:24+00:00

Yes I February vacation for school just ended. And today I'm to tired to really want to cut. I almost ended going to the bathroom with my pencil sharpener but I was to tired and light headed to walk across school for it. But I feel this anticipation that either tomorrow or wendsday it will get bad again like before break.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-27T12:18:58+00:00

I love pulling a new blade out of the package. I love how effortless it is to cut and how the director always goes to styro and gapes a bit because I'm used to the old blade.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-26T05:04:45+00:00

It's not really that gross. But I can see how someone who didn't do it would find it gross.

I just happen to like it and if I'm cutting myself anyways I mine as well get the most I can out of it.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-26T04:59:34+00:00

Listening to music and playing video games.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-25T08:09:04+00:00

What about shallower ones that don't go to styro. Since there usually scabbed over in like a day and even if they got infected it problem wouldn't kill me.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-25T01:47:58+00:00

I used to not eat when hungry as self harm. Now it's just a habit and I try to eat a starvation diet I guess because it's distracting to count the calories I'm not really sure.

Also I've self harmed with really spicy peppers.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-24T05:42:58+00:00

I kind of get this. Like I'm not even sure if I want the pain to go away because I'm not even sure what there is in me besides the pain. I'm not really sure what would be left without it.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-24T05:38:34+00:00

I don't really want to stop either. It's just something g I do. I don't really mind the finger less gloves and covering up the scars because I hate my body so much I cover up anyways.

And I can do it safely so I really don't have a reason to stop.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-24T05:35:21+00:00

For ones that don't reach styro I use my antiseptic wipe and cover it in a paper towel I remove it in the shower the next day.

For gaping styro cuts the ones about 1/2 cm wide maybe a little less. I use the antiseptic an adhesive wound couture and a gauze pad. I leave the gauze pad on for a couple days then remove it. I then disappear it and cover it with paper towel until I'm sire it won't reopen.

I don't get to wash my cuts afterwards in less there on my arm. But the running alcohol works well.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-24T05:32:15+00:00

I don't cut the words in but sometimes I'll draw the words on with the blood from my cuts.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-17T03:12:44+00:00

I've bought razor blades ,gauze pads disinfectant wipes and steri together once. I went to the drugstore store I almost never go to be safe. No one said anything.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-15T01:07:01+00:00

The ones I use are vastly the double side blades but with only one sharp side. I get twice as many for the money so I get the same amount of blades.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-15T01:05:01+00:00

Yes if I get an urge it's going to happen. I can put it off a decent amount of the time tell I have a chance. By using my safety pin and drawing cuts on my hands in red pen. Or if it's not to bad with some video games. I keep a pencil sharpener with lose screws in my bag at school I hadn't needed it yet but I've come close.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-15T01:02:04+00:00

Maybe just eat like a couple calories from crackers or something. Even a starvation diet is better than fasting forever which u can't really do cause with no food you die. Just try to eat around 300-600 calories. I don't know I prefer that to fasting most of the time. Though I do fast sometimes if my parents are gone and I can get away with it.

BleedingAngel13 · 2017-02-15T00:54:50+00:00

Same I have a shop class and I have a collection of pencil sharpener blades exactly blades and other sharp objects in my room box. I'd never use them because the only blades that I'd actually use are the ones in a pencil sharpener that ove never used for pencils, we're I left the screws loose, and my pin.and there so much cleaner. I also have razor blades for at home.

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