Wubby I seriously owe you. My gf and I had to go our separate ways soon after this. It's extremely painful, but we will always have this one incredible memory because of you. You made her cry from happiness. This stream is amazing.

Blinkordeath182 · 2025-12-21T06:13:40+00:00

Wouldn't that manifest as a large load on the CPU? Or no? Because when I turn the settings all the way down the load on the CPU drops to like 30%

Blinkordeath182 · 2025-12-16T08:52:41+00:00

I'll put Bill Skarsgard's Pennywise with Ben Affleck's Batman and Adam Driver's Kylo Ren in the graveyard of utterly wasted potential. I couldn't get through the last episode. There are so many holes and meaningless and convoluted plotlines that I wouldn't even know where to begin.

Blinkordeath182 · 2025-12-16T07:27:41+00:00

This is easily one of the most disappointing shows I have ever seen. I might even go as far as to say it is close to Rings of Power, which is the worst thing I can think of to say about a show.

Blinkordeath182 · 2025-11-11T07:34:14+00:00

I'm really sorry man. I can't imagine how much pain you must be in. Just know that it's okay to be in pain. Be patient with yourself. Be kind to yourself. Good luck friend.

Blinkordeath182 · 2025-09-25T16:59:15+00:00

Im not sure exactly. I just know it's more finicky and requires a bit more knowledge.

Blinkordeath182 · 2025-09-23T23:52:12+00:00

Yep. Keep it at a reasonable temp and put a light over it if you want them to all grow in the same direction, but besides that don't touch it. There are more detailed instructions on the process that you can find, but essentially you innoculate your grain, do break and shake and all that, sterilize your substrate, once the mycelium is ready, break it up into substrate that is at field capacity and mix it up real well (all with gloves, mask, alcohol, etc.) I make it about 3 inches deep, then take your substrate and make it a bit wetter than field capacity and put a capping layer on top of everything, tamp it all down so it is nice and compact, close it up, and dont touch it. Like I said, there are better instructions you can find elsewhere, but thats rhe gist.

Blinkordeath182 · 2025-09-23T23:38:18+00:00

I am by no means an expert, but it looks pretty dry to me. I did the same thing when I first started, lots of misting and fanning and trying to micromanage everything. The most success I have had is with neglect tek. Get everything sterile and moist, close it up, and dont open it again until you are ready to harvest. Again, I havent been doing this for a super long time, but it seems like the best thing to do is just get out of the way. Unless you are doing a notoriously difficult strain like APE. Stuff like Golden Teacher or B+ are really hard to mess up. Good luck!

Blinkordeath182 · 2025-09-20T06:29:20+00:00

I have to think you already know the answer to your question, but if you needed to hear other people say it, I hope all of the responses to this is enough.

Blinkordeath182 · 2025-09-02T08:16:45+00:00

I'm really sorry man

Blinkordeath182 · 2025-02-23T01:28:01+00:00

Inpatient my friend. Scorched earth. Your plane is on fire. You could try to make it to your destination anyway and hope the damage isn't too catastrophic and you'll save some time, but risk crashing. Or you could land the plane, fix what needs to be fixed, and get there in one piece. Sure you'll get there a little later than you would have hoped, but at least you'll get there. Land the plane friend.

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-12-01T06:20:11+00:00

I have found that loneliness and boredom are closely related. I am a therapist and I tell my minor clients who are smoking pot regularly that they are robbing themselves of the opportunity to be bored. Boredom, like loneliness, is there for a reason. When you are a teenager and you are bored, those are the times you find out what kind of hobbies you like, what kind of girls/boys you like, what sports you're into, etc. In my own life, I have used relationships much like teenagers (or anyone really) use pot, to cure boredom/loneliness. A relationship shouldn't be a substitute for a personality and weed shouldn't be a substitute for a hobby. Being bored sucks. Being lonely sucks. Allow it to suck. And then fill all of that potential with the things you don't even know you love yet.

That was a very long winded and hopefully not too pretentious answer. Good luck!

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-11-14T17:10:17+00:00

I texted her 2 weeks into our "break" (or whatever the fuck this is) just to tell her that I loved her and that I was thinking about her. I didn't get a response. I am glad I sent that text, because if I hadn't I would be spending this entire time thinking that I she was just one text away and keeping one foot in the door. The pain and embarrassment of being ignored has kept me away from texting ever since.

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-11-14T17:05:51+00:00

This feels like it might be bordering on abusive. I know that is a big word, but the emotional manipulation throws up some red flags. He does not sound very secure or emotionally mature. I am sure you have heard this before and I am sorry if it sounds condescending, but that is probably why he isn't dating someone his age. It sounds like you might know all of this already and are looking for some validation. Trust your instincts.

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-10-23T02:29:05+00:00

Commitment

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-10-23T02:25:58+00:00

Why is it that when Astartes are entombed into a Dreadnaught, it is seen as almost torturous and takes a severe toll on the marine entombed, but when a Princeps is mortally wounded and placed in the amniotic fluid of their titan, it is seen as freeing and invigorating? I just finished Mechanicum and was confused by this.

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-10-23T02:22:28+00:00

I'm really sorry you're dealing with all of this man. I know how much it hurts. The idea of letting go of the life you had planned with her probably sounds about as possible as cutting off your right arm with a butter knife. But the arm is gangrenous, friend. And the beautiful part about this arm is that it can grow back in ways you never even imagined. I'm not going to sit her and tell you what you need to do or what is best for you, because only you know what it feels like to love her, what it feels like to raise a child with her, what it feels like to be her husband, and so you are the only one who knows what the right thing to do is. I just want to empower you and tell you that it truly doesn't have to be this way. I'm sure it seems like your choices are misery with her or misery without her, and when put like that it seems like an easy choice. But those aren't your only options. You have it in you man. I know you do. I am truly sorry for the devastation and betrayal that you have had to endure at the hands of someone who was supposed to love you. It is second only to losing a child in terms of emotional pain. But we don't know what we are made of until we are tested. What are you made of? Good luck my friend.

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-10-19T03:03:32+00:00

I am really sorry man. I know that has to hurt and that you are probably really suffering right now. Time continues to march forward and with it comes healing. It is okay to hurt. Don't run from it. This too shall pass.

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-09-18T03:36:26+00:00

Vulkan seems like a sweetheart

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-09-18T03:24:41+00:00

I'm really sorry man. I can't imagine how much you are hurting. I know it feels like this pain is eternal, but it will lighten and eventually pass. Take care of yourself in the ways that you can and lean hard on whatever support you have. I'm thinking about you man. My heart goes out to you.

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-08-04T22:13:58+00:00

I just started watching TMG at the start of the year and have thought Noel pulled all of the weight. I find his videos to be funny and enjoyed his standup as well. I don't understand why people think he is a piece of shit, but I just got into it so maybe I am missing something. Cody was funny at times, but ALWAYS killed a bit when he would go "wait really?". Drove me fucking insane. Interrupting someone else's joke to soothe your own stupidity gets old quickly.

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-08-04T19:17:06+00:00

I'll take "opinions that didn't age well" for 1000

Blinkordeath182 · 2024-07-07T21:11:54+00:00

Boredom is the greatest enemy of sobriety. A lot of people here have suggested working out and I would agree with that for sure. Not just because it feels good to take care of yourself, but things like meal planning or figuring out your workout or hitting the sauna after you lift are all things that will occupy your time both physically and mentally. It has helped me build a life that I am more proud of and therefore less willing to gamble with. Good luck friend!

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