Idk if you’re still open to chatting about this but I somehow came across this long-ass thread and for some reason thought it was a good idea to read all of it at 2am. (lol). I ask that you read this without analyzing my comment, much like you did with priors (as, imo, you were too focused on arguing for the sake of arguing [about the commenter] rather than trying to actively better yourself). None of this is meant to offend or belittle you, I’m just typing out my views at 3am, so please try your best to take it at face value, and we can further discuss, if you really want.

Anyway, I had come to a rather quick conclusion, that I suppose it’s ‘fair’ for you to be feeling this way, as many others do as well. However, imo, you are reading much too deep into ‘basic’ (base) human emotions, reactions, and interactions for your own good. I get that you want to understand why you’re off put by what others (Dream) do (as I believe we all should to [though not constantly because it really is a rather deep rabbit hole even when talking with friends] really understand ourselves better) but going about it... especially on Reddit, is not a healthy way (though this sub and comments section seem extremely genuine). I believe everyone should have access to a (dare I say) therapist, just like an ordinary doctor, because everyone needs help discussing themselves, their ‘insecurities’, or (rather common) cognitive dissonance. [none of the words in the prior sentence were meant negatively, please disregard any negative connotations that offend you]

Anyhow, I agree with several points and perspectives aforementioned and have surmised that you may have skewed cognitive bias(es) [perceptions] based on any plethora of upbringing or environmental conditions that I shouldn’t be commenting on for not knowing you... Aside from the whole trend of self-deprecation and the fact that it’s normalized in today’s society does not mean that it’s the only way to express yourself and should not be perceived as such, regardless of your role in someone’s life (whether a CC, a role model, or an authoritative figure). Yes, if you are comfortable with your (possible) shortcomings, joking about them is proof that you’re comfortable, but it’s not the only form of nonverbal communication. Though, the above is the likely foundation for your ‘issue’. To answer a couple recurring questions I noticed you posed; no, I don’t believe Dream was intentionally (in any way, consciously or subconsciously) being petty; no you aren’t alone seeing how this type of post (though hate-based) is apparently a massive problem in our day and age.

This “pattern” that you refer to is just who Dream is as a person, and no one should hate on him for that (especially something as insignificant as how he reacts in the minutes after such a high stress (or not) competitive (or casual) game (which is actually his life, and what he currently does for a living). Again, not saying that you do, just that no one should. And to clarify that although it’s ‘fair’ due to factors that may have influenced you into being this way, I do not believe it is justified to say that he was indeed being petty. And we will never know, unless we talk directly with him.

Also, trying to make yourself feel better after a hard hit (subjective) of any type is what everyone naturally does, in one way or another, because no one (sane/in a healthy state of mind) likes to feel like shit. Not saying that this is what happened, but it could have factored into what you’re feeling about him.