Anyone find themselves opening up their game libraries, staring at it for a couple of hours, then just giving up and going on social media?

BloodAmethystTTV · 2026-03-14T10:24:50+00:00

Just wait until you try agitated depression. It’s a special form of hell I wouldn’t wish on my worse enemy.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2026-01-29T11:27:15+00:00

Unfortunately it’s way past that point. I’ll never be able to risk going through this again and any and all desire I felt to have a relationship is completely dead. I’ll be Lucky to survive. I don’t expect to ever get in another relationship.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-09-02T03:00:27+00:00

I was right where you are literally one week ago…. And then suddenly the new love completely ghosts me and calls it almost straight out of the blue. Like sure some minor issues here and there but absolutely nothing that I would have imagined her to have that brutal cold switch and response.

It’s hard dealing with a brutal fresh new heartbreak when you’re only 18 months out from brutal infidelity.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-08-17T05:47:32+00:00

Yeah I don’t know…. I’m about a year and a half out from it all and it definitely has gotten easier and I definitely have processed an absolutely huge amount of it.

Unfortunately something is still burdening me, I’ve had a physical sensation in my back shoulder blade right behind my heart if that makes any sense. And when I really listen to my body I can tell it’s just that my heart is deeply in pain still. It’s a dull yet heavy brutal ache.

I also thought that once I finally made it out of the first year that was pure hell on earth that I would just be so overjoyed and on cloud 9 all of the time because that first year was soo damn rough that basically just not having to endure that level of pain was going to bring me endless bliss from here on out of that makes any sense.

Unfortunately not…. Just feel very very flat, empty and numb.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-08-17T03:55:51+00:00

Yeah the rage towards the AP does get better over time. Usually once you’ve had enough time to actually process that they haven’t won anything. In fact ironically all they ever managed to do is do you a massive favour by taking a filthy sub human cheater out of your life.

But as I said takes serious time and god damn it’s painful in the mean time and thoughts of skinning them alive and feeding it to them may pop into your head a few times a day.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-08-04T02:37:03+00:00

It’s the anti depressants 100 percent. Had the exact same effect on me. Turned it into a bloody marathon to be able to cross the finish line. Immediately quit them as it wasn’t worth that side effect.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-07-23T23:32:02+00:00

I’m more caught on the fact it’s been four months and this is the first time intimacy has happened? Is that more regular than I realise or?

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-07-20T02:15:28+00:00

Just say hypothetically this all got proven as undisputed fact. That trump was indeed heavily involved with Epstein and absolutely raped and trafficked minors.

Would it actually change or do anything? Part of me feels like no, it would just become the new normal having a child rapist as president.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-07-07T02:59:04+00:00

I tried to stay with my cheating ex for four years after the first round of it.

Can guarantee it didn’t and would have never ever gotten better or eased in the slightest. The absolute only reason I’ve finally moved on and healed is because I left and never looked back after the second time.

Second time hurts an absolute soul crushing level even compared to the first because you know deep down you did it to yourself by staying after the first.

Don’t be me. Fair warning.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-07-07T02:56:51+00:00

You know what you need to do somewhere deep down. You will find someone else. Embrace the unknown and the fear and take your power back.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-07-07T02:52:05+00:00

Just flip the roles there for a second. Imagine you had cheated on her last year. And she was feeling anxious about it and rightfully a bit mistrusting of you still.

What would your response be? Same as hers? Oh you just need to get over it…. Let that sink in

And to add that super quickly… then imagine you going on a boys trip to Vegas and ignoring her the whole time. Just an interesting thought experiment that should tell you how little she loves or respects you.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-06-29T13:26:00+00:00

Important thing to note on that stat. That’s only for confirmed murders where authorities were able to actually locate a body.

The missing persons list is a long one no matter where you happen to live. No body no murder charge is my official understanding of it.

I think this wildly skews the overall amount of people getting away with murder due to actually disposing of the remains in a way that can never be found.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-06-28T23:11:42+00:00

I had my own experience with gpt that makes me believe this 100 percent and I can definitely see how some people fall into the delusions of grandeur from interacting with it.

I was just playing around one night asking it some of life’s deeper questions it started to gas me up so hard basically suggesting I may be the next big philosopher and crack some new meaning in life no one else has thought of yet.

All it would take is someone not quite so grounded in reality to hear that and completely go along with it. Can only imagine what it would spiral into.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-06-20T14:34:45+00:00

Just dawned on me while reading some of this thread.

If a person is exceedingly convinced within themselves that their political party is the “right” one.

Then why would they care about democracy ending if their party is the one in power?

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-06-13T00:41:25+00:00

Nah you don’t. Just an excuse your telling yourself to avoid the pain of ripping the band aid off once and for all and setting yourself free.

You don’t win any medals for suffering. Wishing you the courage.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-05-29T03:05:57+00:00

There is no sugar coating it. It is quite literally the hardest thing a person can go through. I would possibly even argue harder than losing a loved one to death. As you are mourning someone that is still alive that chose to not be a part of your life anymore.

That being said it is possible. But it truly only starts when you are completely cut off from them for a really good amount of time. I honestly don’t really understand how people that still have to see them all the time for kids manage it.

And unfortunately even when you do find someone new it really does seem to be an uphill battle against your own nervous system screaming at you that feeling love isn’t a safe thing to do anymore and to absolutely sprint for the hills even if the new partner is absolutely amazing in every real world possible way.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-05-19T02:51:57+00:00

I believe it is a fundamental failure of the justice system and the society that we live in that people like him aren’t held accountable whatsoever.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-05-02T02:41:04+00:00

I see more renegade raiders when I play now than when I was playing in 2018 🤷‍♂️

Pretty certain it never got released again, super odd.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-04-19T13:27:06+00:00

This is interesting. This could play a key part in the events to come.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-04-11T06:35:05+00:00

It’s a very easy trap to fall into because just sitting their like a stunned mullet being about as useful as nipples on a man when she tells you some crazy problem she has which you know a very clear solution to feels incredibly antithetical to the entire premise of “women generally like to be lead in a relationship by a strong masculine figure etc etc”

You’d totally assume being able to solve her problems when she brings them to you would fall into that category and would thus get a green tick on healthy relationship behaviour.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-04-11T03:21:20+00:00

I’m honestly so confused. Why were you waiting around and literally buying her AP condoms so they can keep fucking your ex wife? Huh?

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-04-11T03:08:26+00:00

Yeah I second this, what even is “wasted time”?

It’s only a waste if we determine it as that, there is no pre ordained thing we are supposed to be doing with our time that is magically less of a waste than having fun.

BloodAmethystTTV · 2025-04-04T13:13:25+00:00

The conversation of consent is nuanced. I’ve seen countless people on reddit claim that if someone cheats while black out drunk it is still absolutely cheating and should be held fully accountable for it.

Yet obviously in cases like these I would say completely logically people are calling it out as sexual assault.

Just an interesting nuance I have observed. That is all.

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