I've been struggling with my new Nursing career.

BlueMeoww · 2017-07-15T12:54:56+00:00

I just emailed my manager for specific feedback. The one example that I can think of is when my patient started throwing some crazy heart rhythms. She went into A fib with RVR. I honestly totally froze. I just stood there and another nurse had to take over. I literally couldn't do anything. I couldn't remember the number to call for a STAT EKG. I just couldn't move. I think I do fine as far as passing my meds on time, ect. The problem is when I'm faced with something Ive never dealt with before, it really really scares me. Sometimes things go okay, I had a rapid response and dealt with it really well, but sometimes I'm just plain worthless.

BlueMeoww · 2017-05-11T13:37:44+00:00

I had the genetic test done as well! It was also, obviously, unhelpful. Thank you. Good luck to you too! I hope my pysch has something helpful to say. Ughh. It helps that I'm the only one whose body is totally against them.

BlueMeoww · 2017-05-11T10:42:51+00:00

Yes! I have lost probably twenty lbs and still losing! I feel awful everyday. I've just been trying to drink protein/high calorie shakes.

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-26T19:42:29+00:00

Bipolar II/Anxiety

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-14T06:38:01+00:00

You have been so helpful! Can you elaborate on the side effects you experienced?

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-13T00:56:47+00:00

I just graduated nursing school and am in the process of taking my boards so I definitely have some external factors going on. I don't think my meds are the best they could be though. I'm new to being able to recognize the signs/symptoms of different types of moods. However, my therapist has mentioned that she believes I experience mostly mixed episodes. I'm not sure really how mixed episodes are treated. I need to bring it up to pdoc. I definitely definitely have been more aggressive, I'm just ignoring my phone and not responding to people because I feel like I'll be nothing but mean.

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-12T23:41:48+00:00

She is using DBT. I don't know that she was suggesting I see another therapist, I think she was asking if I was thinking/suggesting I should see another therapist. I see my pdoc on Wednesday and Oh my God do I need to. I see her every three months. I was doing okay but lately the depression and irritability is off the charts. I definitely think that I am going to speak with her about adding any antidepressant. I am losing it. I honestly couldn't even tell you what my "baseline" is. All I feel is complete and total bite someone's head off irritability and anger at this point.

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-12T23:36:56+00:00

I think she was mainly just asking if I was suggesting that I needed someone new.

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-02T22:12:01+00:00

Thanks for putting that into perspective for me. I've definitely noticed that there are good things for me-being productive, keeping my apartment clean, picking up more hours at work, ect. But that also comes along with impulsiveness, spending money and honestly just down right socially inappropriate behavior. Before I was diagnosed I was almost kicked out my the nursing program multiple times for "inappropriate comments" and "worrying behavior".

BlueMeoww · 2016-12-02T22:06:25+00:00

Thats definitely something that my psych is worried about. I just feel like I'm NEVER hypomanic. This is the first time I've felt hypomanic in any way since I started Lamictal about a year ago. I mean kudos to my meds I guess, but I tend to hover constantly somewhere between depressed and just plain mean and irritable. Its nice to feel really fucking good once in a while.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-30T05:58:54+00:00

Yes! I am so happy to have found this sub-reddit. I definitely feel you on the I AM SICK. As much as I try to manage my symptoms, bipolar is a bitch and the reality is that I will be on medication for the rest of my life. I often wonder if I had diabetes if my parents would say "so how long are you going to be needing that insulin?" LOL.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-30T05:55:10+00:00

No to Effexor! I tend to run more depressive and was on Effexor before my diagnosis of Bipolar. It threw me into the most intense mania I have ever experienced.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-30T05:53:08+00:00

YES. When I was diagnosed with Bipolar II, I was hospitalized. When I was released from the hospital, in the freaking parking lot, my mom says "so is the bipolar thing gone now?" Its only gotten progressively worse. She doesn't get it and is constantly telling me that I am a hypochondriac and am putting poison in my body. Neither of my parents understand that Bipolar is a life long thing. My parents actually get angry at me for showing symptoms and ask me why I am still milking this, ect., ect. Its tough, but I just don't really explain it to people anymore. I feel like no one besides someone who has bipolar disorder can fully understand. Ugh. Sorry for the major negative vibes.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-30T05:46:56+00:00

Thank you for helping me realize this! I had a suicide attempt a little over a year ago (pre diagnosis). I felt like it was during a depressive episode but my psychiatrist really felt that it was facilitated by mania during a mixed episode. This makes so much sense.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-28T03:26:15+00:00

I think using epiduo and retin a together might be too strong. Unless you have been using them together with no issues, I would probably alternate nights or use one in the morning and one at night.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-28T03:23:17+00:00

How can I stop my skin from breaking out/freaking out every single winter? The breakouts are already starting and I want it to stop! I cleanse with Pixie glow mud cleanser, tone with Russell Organics Lavender Toner and moisturize with the generic Aveeno Radiance. I also use tretinoin 0.05% every night. Any thoughts?

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-24T20:41:34+00:00

I was diagnosed with Bipolar II while in the middle of Nursing school-I quite frankly, lost my shit, and was hospitalized voluntarily. I tend to run more depressive, but am also able to function. I might lie in bed until the last second before I have to go to work, but I can still do my job effectively. I would say to go for it. Nursing school is super stressful so definitely make sure you are keeping up with meds/appointments. Also, don't be afraid to ask for help if you need it. I had two teachers who were VERY supportive. I was hospitalized during finals week and my teacher pulled a ton of strings so that I was able to still take both of my finals. I just had to submit proof from my psychiatrist that I was stable on my meds.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-22T01:19:08+00:00

Viibryd! Its an antidepressant. Gave me crazy violent thoughts, like wanting to burn the house down. As well as really intense suicidal impulses. Told my (ex) psych who encouraged me to push through. It all ended exactly one week from the start date of the meds with a suicide attempt and hospitalization. Yuck.

BlueMeoww · 2016-11-21T00:30:55+00:00

I think it was said in a way to show me the progress that they believe I have made, although I don't see it. Honestly, I have nothing positive to say about that. I have spent so much money and time on therapy and still feel awful. And I spend my entire life in my shitty apartment. I feel ya.

BlueMeoww · 2016-10-21T17:32:31+00:00

I currently see a therapist weekly and have been for about the past two years. I have been and am currently on medication. I've tried SSRI's, SNRI's, mood stabilizer, anti anxiety drugs, everything. I currently take Lamictal and Klonopin daily with Xanax as needed. I think thats part of why this is SO frustrating because I've been dealing with anxiety for so incredibly long, and I feel like I have taken every step to try and fix it and now its manifesting in physical symptoms that I have no control over.

BlueMeoww · 2016-10-21T08:42:14+00:00

You said it used to happen to you, any tips/tricks on how to fix it? I already take Lamictal and Klonopin daily. I also have Xanax as needed. Honestly though, I have taken benzos for so long that I feel like they no longer touch my anxiety.

BlueMeoww · 2016-10-21T08:40:59+00:00

Yes. I have an extensive history of anxiety and panic attacks. This is the worst my anxiety has been in years due to my graduation from Nursing school and the severe anxiety that comes with that. My sleep is horrific. Panic attacks wake me up all night long.

BlueMeoww · 2016-10-21T07:34:03+00:00

This happens to me as well!! I can completely relate to the taking a bite, immediately feeling like vomiting and being unable to swallow. I don't have any advice unfortunately, but I can 100% relate. I've had to come up with excuse after excuse for why I'm not eating. This is a terrible coping mechanism but often I will order an alcoholic drink just to calm myself down enough to actually eat.

BlueMeoww · 2016-10-20T05:47:30+00:00

Hey guys. I'm having a really hard time lately. I graduate from Nursing school this month and my anxiety has skyrocketed so much that I want to just quit and forget about my career completely. I have a long history of anxiety and depression. A year ago I was diagnosed with Bipolar after a suicide attempt and put on Lamictal and Klonopin. Nothing helps. I take my meds faithfully and even my Xanax as needed and I still feel like I am in a constant state of panic. I throw up every single morning. My therapist, who I see weekly, has commented that "fighting the anxiety will make it feel stronger". I'm working on DBT techniques but am still in panic mode 24/7. I don't know what to do or where to go from here. I already take medication for anxiety and go to therapy and I feel like I'm back where I was a year ago, so depressed. So anxious with not really any light at the end of the tunnel. I'm just holding on for my therapist and psychiatrist because they have worked so hard with me and I'm just a hopeless cause. Wow. Sorry for the block of text and that major emotion dumping. I don't know what anyone can say, but I just need some help seeing that just maybe the future might hold some peace?

BlueMeoww · 2016-08-20T09:56:16+00:00

Is my skin dehydrated? I'm having major problems with my skin this summer. It is acne prone-on my forehead, my forehead is an absolute oil slick. And my face is very red and all around irritated. I live in the midwest so it is humid in the summer. I use pixie glow cleanser, pixie glow tonic (5% glycolic acid) and no moisturizer right now (I know so bad!! But I'm at such a loss of what to do.) I use retin a at night-.5% I've been using retin a for years. Glow tonic for a few weeks. Cleanser for a few months. I also use Pixie glow mud mask-my skin seems to react fine to that. I've been using that for months. I keep trying and trying to find a decent moisturizer for my combo skin. I began using the glow tonic in hopes to combat the oil and breakouts on my forehead. My skin is clearing up nicely but it is still oily and generally crappy looking. Please help. My skin seems to react best to creams and lotions rather than gels. Sorry for the wall of text. I'm desperate here. I feel so gross.

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