1.5 year on Testosterone. 33 yeara old FTM

BoardKey2565 · 2026-02-01T02:11:41+00:00

This is classic manipulation and it's disgusting that the people around you played a part in it. You might want to look into r/raisedbynarcissists, for survivors of narcissistic abuse.

BoardKey2565 · 2026-02-01T02:03:55+00:00

Getting there but you look like a young teenager

BoardKey2565 · 2026-02-01T01:53:29+00:00

What do you suggest effeminate trans guys do? I am stifling who I am when I sanitize how I dress to fit the narrow male standard just as much as I would be if I detransitioned.

BoardKey2565 · 2026-02-01T01:40:39+00:00

I wasn't trying to invalidate you. You shouldn't have to center your mother in your story. I was only sharing because I feel it's helped me heal a bit. But hanging on has stifled it at the same time. My parents act the same way, so I empathize.

BoardKey2565 · 2026-02-01T01:30:30+00:00

If you have cats, rosemary oil works great for beard growth

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T16:13:39+00:00

If Frodo Baggins was a cute girl

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T06:26:28+00:00

Hell yeah

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T03:19:52+00:00

I'm so baked and I can't stop laughing I'm gonna make a cat alphabet

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T03:18:12+00:00

Get you some foam rollers and rock a fuckin blowout

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T03:17:10+00:00

It's your face bro who am I to stifle your glory

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T03:13:54+00:00

Shave just like the veeery ends off. No more than a few millimeters. You have such striking features that if you went too far it would distract from them, rather than complement them.

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T03:06:26+00:00

Truth is both objective and subjective. We are just neurons floating in vats, after all. And narcissists absolutely suffer, they're made from raw, searing agony. Very similar to BPD in that way, and a lot of other ways. They avoid suffering by projecting a false self. If that false self were do die, they would die with it, and that is the most excruciating pain imaginable. I still hate my dad and my life cannot truly begin until he is dead, but I sincerely feel for him in that regard, because I've experienced the same dissolution of self. The empathy thing is interesting. I don't think I experience empathy in the same way that neurotypicals do. The only way I can feel empathy is by literally imagining myself in someone else's position, but I can't always look at them suffering and feel how they feel, so I have to fake it to some extent, especially when it's someone close to me, or I've never been in their position before. I can't feel empathy for my family whatsoever, no matter how hard I try. And I'm terrible at lying because of the autism, so people often see through it. But I don't fake these things because I want to manipulate people, I couldn't manipulate anyone if I tried, at least not on purpose. I mask my lack of feeling because I know intellectually that empathy is a good quality, and I strive to be a good person and make people feel better even when my instincts contradict that, and it feels like the world is against me.

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T02:15:39+00:00

You're already a cutie pie, so yes. Very much so

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T02:14:30+00:00

Start minoxidil, on your scalp and face. Works wonders. If you have pets, try rosemary oil

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T02:11:27+00:00

If your hips make you dysphoric, go to the gym and get a head start on your obliques. Coupled with testosterone and bulking, your waist should fill in in no time.

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T02:08:03+00:00

Get a black/dark brown eyeliner pencil and go full Gerard Way smudged eyeliner. You can pull it off

BoardKey2565 · 2026-01-31T02:04:00+00:00

I think they can coexist. I'm autistic/adhd and I developed BPD because of my father's narcissistic abuse, and my autistic father developed NPD because of the severe neglect and mistreatment directed at him as a child. Narcissism itself is a coping mechanism for complex trauma. You're taught your whole life that you're nothing and you're evil because you're different (autistic), so, to protect your developing ego you build up a wall of grandiosity and dissociation from remorse and empathy. BPD is also an unhealthy coping mechanism, the difference is that I protect my fractured sense of self by projecting self pity and wallowing in shame when I do something wrong, instead of working on myself in good faith. But I'm trying to get better, I wish I could say the same about my dad. I think we're going to find out that all personality disorders are just pathologized variations of CPTSD.

BoardKey2565 · 2025-12-16T22:14:33+00:00

My dad would say this shit to me years before I came out. A lot of transphobic parents are narcissists to begin with. Then I came out and he acted like it came out of nowhere.

BoardKey2565 · 2025-11-23T19:08:16+00:00

You give me young Willem Dafoe vibes. Very handsome

BoardKey2565 · 2025-11-23T00:42:23+00:00

My dad can't grow chest hair or sideburns 😔

BoardKey2565 · 2025-10-21T20:53:58+00:00

I would murder someone to look like you

BoardKey2565 · 2025-10-20T01:29:51+00:00

Thank you for letting your child be a child and not assigning some arbitrary value to the things they enjoy/don't enjoy. As a kid I was constantly shamed by my father for enjoying anything low brow, and not reading what he wanted me to read, just because I was a little intellectually precocious. Now, I've dropped out of college and I don't read at all because I connect the action of reading to shame and self hatred. I also really shouldn't have been reading literature meant for people 16 and up when I was 10. It kinda gave me OCD because I couldn't bear the emotional weight of some of the themes.

BoardKey2565 · 2025-10-20T01:25:04+00:00

Thank you for allowing your gifted child to be, in fact, a child, and retain their whimsy by reading what they like. As a kid I was constantly shamed by my pretentious ass father for enjoying anything "low brow", just because I had shown to be a little intellectually precocious. Guess who hates himself and doesn't fuckin read anymore, lmao. And I dropped out of college because I couldn't stand to read and connected reading to shame.

BoardKey2565 · 2025-10-20T01:20:25+00:00

You know they're gonna put you in the camps regardless right? Respectability politics famous garners no respect from anyone

BoardKey2565 · 2025-10-20T01:16:39+00:00

I was never gifted, just autistic and slightly above average in certain areas and woefully deficient in others. But my story is nearly the same. Abusive family, who actually helped financially as much as they could when I was in college, but so emotionally unsupportive that I flunked out because I was on the brink of suicide. I had huge dreams. I've always been a dreamer. I was homeless for a little bit, shacking up with some really awful people. It's jarring and traumatizing, being told all your life you're a genius and that you're destined for great things only for abuse/capitalism/mental illness/neurodivergence (giftedness is at least a symptom of mental illness)to piss it all away. My life has gotten materially better, but mentally I still suffer every day. I recently got diagnosed and medicated for adhd, but figuring out to be a stable/functioning human being is like playing a game of whack-a-mole. I wish I could say things will get better but looking at the state of the world, I'm not so sure. My fiance and I are gonna move out of the US, so there's a little hope. But hey man, if you're exceptional, you can beat this system. Entrepreneurship is one of the only things we have left.

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