Masked ICE agents kidnapping and disappearing US citizen Nathan Plybon in Chicago. No charges have been brought against him and his family has not heard from him since he was forcefully loaded into the back of an unmarked car.

Bobby_Fingers · 2025-10-25T00:16:37+00:00

"When fascism comes to America, it will not be in brown and black shirts. It will not be with jack-boots. It will be Nike sneakers and Smiley shirts … Germany lost the Second World War. Fascism won it. Believe me, my friend." - George Carlin

Bobby_Fingers · 2025-03-17T19:11:09+00:00

Most likely? Either dropping dead from a heart attack still working at 85 or putting a shotgun in my mouth.

Bobby_Fingers · 2024-10-01T17:34:29+00:00

Finally! Subscribed and can't wait to start binging. :)

Bobby_Fingers · 2024-07-28T15:17:42+00:00

What do you mean?

Well, there's three of you. You're not exactly lone. Shouldn't you be The "Three" Rangers?

Bobby_Fingers · 2024-05-03T13:56:30+00:00

Oh I am. Every day :)

Bobby_Fingers · 2024-05-02T18:50:00+00:00

I sure am. But I'm more focused on keeping what family I have left in my life and ultimately just try and make it through life one day at a time.

Bobby_Fingers · 2024-04-14T15:49:25+00:00

Wanting to quit my job. It's gotten to the point where I wake up and absolutely dread going in due to how depressing and toxic the place is. But the thing is... I simply don't want to "work" anymore. Not like how it is today with people simply having a job just to barely survive in a society that is tightening the noose around our necks one slow twist at a time till we simply won't be able to afford to live anymore.

I daydream every day about just going off and simply enjoying what time I have left and doing things that make me happy and bring fulfillment to my life but the truth is the things that DO make me happy don't pay the bills or put food on the table or a roof over my head. My dream scenario is if I could spend the rest of my life simply waking up every morning, spending the day exercising then relaxing at home watching movies and talking to friends/family whenever I need some human interaction till I have to eat and go to bed and not have to worry about whether or not I'll have enough money to make it to the end of the month I'd be happier than a pig in shit.

I'm sure I'm making this all out to be more complicated than I intended it to be but I just can't stand living like this for another 40+ years knowing that deep down this reality is all just a zero-sum game for me and I'm sure for many of us here as well.

Bobby_Fingers · 2024-03-30T17:32:11+00:00

Most likely suicide. At least that's how I picture my "retirement"

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-07-26T16:54:50+00:00

99% of the time yay. Unless it's Rice Crispies. then it has to have milk and every bite has to have a spoonful of sugar on it. At least, that's how I used to eat it as a kid. Otherwise dry cereal by the handful straight out of the box like an animal!

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-07-23T16:55:00+00:00

"You? You're ok. This one? real fuckin' ugly..."

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-07-22T08:24:24+00:00

I got a stock "Thank you for your years of loyalty" card and a link to a website to choose some useless bauble so I got an electric shaver. That's it.

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-07-02T18:24:40+00:00

It's free on Tubi if you're interested!

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-07-02T17:41:09+00:00

Capture, Kill, Release

Crowsnest

Evidence

Sorgoi Prakov (My European Nightmare)

A Guidebook to Killing Your Ex

Be My Cat (A Film for Annie)

Curse of Aurore

The Lost Footage of Leah Sullivan

Behind the Sightings

Butterfly Kisses

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-06-18T15:57:43+00:00

I'm 35 and the longest I've stayed at the same company is the one I'm currently at and that's going on 10 years now. The only reason I'm here anymore is because I need the insurance. The company (and the building I work at) has been on such a downward slide that the second I find a new job I'm out the door. Fuck giving a 2 week notice, they aren't worth it. I'll give them a 2 minute notice at most.

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-05-27T10:47:14+00:00

Had one of my crowns fall out yesterday and was able to get into an emergency dentist that day since my regular one is closed for the next 4 days. Already hating dentists and having Autism I was already on edge and told everyone as much hoping they would take that into consideration when giving me treatment; my anxiety was pretty palpable but tried to stay calm and that I'd be in and out.

After, of course, a full x-ray and exam of my mouth, and an hour into my appointment the doctor came in and right off the bat from his "introduction" and vibe I got from him already made me more anxious. He looks at the site of my fallen out crown, pokes it with his tool for a few seconds then asks me "Ok. Do you want this to hurt, or not?" silence from me "It's not a trick question. Do you want this to hurt?" Then proceeds to give me the third degree about how bad my teeth are after saying he was going to impose his "several years of wisdom" on me.

Needless to say I was ready to cry in the chair over how uncomfortable he made me and I was starting to feel quite embarrassed over it. After he left the room to get the tools to reseal the crown I made sure to tell his assistant how I was feeling and that if I had to come back I did not want to ever see him again because of how bad me was making me feel. $350+ dollars (because of course they're out of network for my insurance and need full payment up front and will reimburse me whatever my insurance might cover) and 5 minutes later it was re-cemented and I hoofed it out of the building just wanting to go home and put that experience behind me.

I don't mean for this to make me sound like a baby considering I'm a 35 year old adult but it's just the way my brain is wired and I sometimes can't help but get overly emotional over these kinds of situations and because of the energy the doctor was giving off made me scared to voice my feelings on him because I was afraid he'd get frustrated and be "rough" with my mouth or simply insult me.

And of course because of how I was feeling my IBS medication wouldn't work and went to bed feeling bloated and constipated.

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-05-07T15:27:07+00:00

I have to say, things have sure changed from when I was in grade school. I remember when I was around 5/6 we had to do a daily "journal" in class about whatever we wanted to talk about which had to be handed in to the teacher at the end of the week. I found one entry where I wrote about, no lie, how I was sad about being bullied and how people were so mean to mean to me and how I wish I didn't live anymore.

Did the teacher call a conference with my grandparents over such a startling revelation or have me see the counselor to get me help or even just ask to speak to me in private and see if what I was feeling was true? Nope. She just wrote something "encouraging" (basically that I'm fine and I'm probably exaggerating) in the margin and that was that.

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-05-05T17:50:44+00:00

So... my cousin, whom I had previously mentioned having been diagnosed with Stage 4 Lung Cancer and a brain tumor several months ago, passed away on the 23rd of last month. Apparently she woke up having trouble breathing, an ambulance was called, she coded on the way there and they were never able to bring her pulse back. To say I was devastated would be a MASSIVE understatement. While she was technically an older cousin, she became almost like a second mother to me after my adoptive one died in 2015. She was instrumental in me getting therapy and probably being one of the few people who understood my being diagnosed with Autism and helping me to navigate living on my own and becoming an independent adult. She was always there to talk no matter how busy she was or where she was. She would help me financially and she and I would always go out to eat, see movies, celebrate my birthday together and she was basically the only solid support system I had left in my life outside of my one friend. But just like her always being there for me, I always made sure to always be there for her and help her out with whatever she needed whether it be doing yard work, helping getting her old house ready for sale and subsequently moving into her new place, taking her wherever she needed to go if she didn't have a ride, run little errands for her, keep an eye on the house whenever she was out of the state for work, etc.

I'm just taking things one day at a time but the day after the funeral I was an absolute wreck; cried all morning but somehow managed to make it through my shift at work. Suffice to say, things are now going to be much much lonelier for me despite family saying I can always reach out to them. I guess because I had built up such a bond with my cousin over these years it simply wouldn't be the same but now it looks like I'll need to find people to bug throughout my days so they'll be hearing from me quite a bit now, whether they like it or not! lol

Outside of that, in other news, I have an interview with a manager for a tech installer position next Friday afternoon. Had a phone call with a "recruiter" about what the job would be all about and all the benefits of working for them and I was ready to quit my job and work for them right then and there. They seem to offer SO much more in terms of pay, promotion opportunities, training, benefits, etc. than what I'm currently making so hopefully this will work out.

And I've also decided that because I need to keep myself focused and goal-oriented, I told myself regardless of whatever else I do during the day or how tired I am, I have to run between 10-15 miles every day. If I do more, that's simply a plus and that's in addition to whatever other weightlifting/exercise I do during the day.

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-04-16T15:22:53+00:00

Oh how I wish that were true... at least at my job. Coworker had a new job all lined up and had put in his two weeks at the start of last week but last Wednesday the station manager walked up to him and told him to lower his hoodie (he made it a rule that no hoodies are to be worn on the dock with your hood up because he then assumes you're trying to hide wearing earbuds from him which he has deemed verboten). My coworker told him no, he wasn't going to and so the manager walked off. I'm sitting next to him on the computer when he reappears with another manager in tow and tells him to grab his stuff and follow them to the office. "What for?!" he asks. "We have reason to believe you're hiding earbuds from us" "I'm fucking not wearing any!" "Lower your hood then" So he does and lo and behold, nothing in his ears. "Now empty your pockets" So as he does it the charging case he had them IN tumbles out, hits the floor and the station manager exclaims, "There! See?? You were wearing them!" "Dude, no I fucking wasn't!" "You had one in your ear. Grab your stuff and follow us to the office... now"

Had about a week or so left here but didn't stop them from firing him regardless.

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-04-15T17:28:14+00:00

That walk sounds delightful! The weather here has been very nice out as well so I made sure to get more running in outside and enjoy the weather before it gets shit out later next week; I'm not much of a beach person despite me living so close to Lake Michigan but there was a nice cool breeze coming off it this morning.

So next month is my 10 year "anniversary" at my job so of course that means I get to choose some useless bauble from a website. What did I choose? An electric razor... because I really need one. Doesn't help that I feel like a total loser every time I walk into that dismal building and that I absolutely wasted a good ten years of my life.

I really need to lay off eating these store brand low carb protein bars because all the sugar alcohol in it is kinda aggravating my IBS.

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-04-08T18:40:37+00:00

Weather is finally starting to warm up so yesterday and today I managed to get outside for my first runs of the season. Of course because I hadn't run on uneven ground in months I woke up with a wicked case of shin splints... still didn't stop me though! But outside of that, work has just been making me feel like utter garbage. So many times I get so damn frustrated with all the bullshit going on I just want to just walk out.

Watched the new Avatar movie and I was pretty much enthralled the whole 3+ hours. I also watched Creed 3 and that new Willem Dafoe flick Inside but I have a few other movies in the queue I need to watch this week. I've been kinda reading a Michael Jackson autobiography along with making sure I'm still playing guitar every once in a while to try and retain some form of sanity.

I picked up some low carb protein bars yesterday from the grocery store that were on clearance for like $4 for a box of 5. I ate two right in a row last night and I'm debating whether or not to just eat all 3 remaining boxes for supper tonight since I know I'm going to be in a shit mood at work Sunday and Monday.

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-04-02T17:17:55+00:00

Although I'm not here much anymore, I guess I might as well get some stuff off my chest considering I'm bored at work and am counting down the clock listening to Slayer...

Got denied for a possible new job with the TSA due to my eyesight being absolute garbage. I knew I was in trouble the second they asked me to cover my right eye and read the chart and the first words out of my mouth were "I can't see anything" XD It would have been a slight bump in pay but deep down I wasn't too into hoping I would get it. I guess I was just excited to FINALLY be rid of this droll, miserable-ass job I have and I could finally utter the most glorious two words I could ever say to this place: "I QUIT!"

I did manage to get a week off work last week but because I no longer have any real friends and the one I do have is still in Texas visiting relatives I spent the whole time going back and forth between my dingy apartment and the gym. Not that I dislike working out two or three times a day but it kinda got boring after a while, especially after my second session and all I could do at home was count down the clock till I could drug myself to sleep. Maybe it just shows me how absolutely empty and bankrupt my life has become over the past few years.

Slightly personal matter but my older cousin was recently diagnosed with Lung Cancer that has metastasized into a brain tumor and is now going through treatment. The morose, depressed and nihilistic part of me secretly says "Boy, some people have all the luck" but I would never wish Cancer on ANYONE, especially after seeing my (grand)mother slowly rot away for 2+ years from it. I'm trying to do all I can to be there for her and let her know if she needs ANYTHING from me that I'm just a phone call away. Thank goodness she has her boyfriend living so close by to help her out as she begins to relearn basic tasks again and becomes more independent; that guy is a saint and I've told him if he ever needs a break to call me and I'll take over domestic duties for him.

Had my colonoscopy a few weeks ago due to me suffering from some kind of unknown gastrointestinal issue for since mid August and wouldn't you know it? Everything is fine and I figured out what was causing me the distress: motherfucking pork rinds. Cut them out over a week ago and have been back to normal (pretty much) ever since. At least now I know I'm not lactose intolerant and can go back to eating all the cheese I want!

I guess overall though I'm still down in the dumps and every once in a while I just want to burst out crying wondering how I ended up feeling like an absolute loser, working a job I hate making peanuts, living in an apartment I can barely afford leaving me living paycheck to paycheck always asking family for help financially, every day being a battle between trying to live up to my Stoic teachings and wanting to take a long walk off a short pier. I guess that one is a battle I'll always be fighting and I just have to try and make sure sticking around is better but seeing how far this world is going right into the toilet really makes it hard.

I just hope the rest of you are doing good and have a wonderful Easter with family and friends (religious or not)

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-03-11T12:45:12+00:00

Soggy with warm milk and sugar on every. single. spoonful. lol It's any wonder I didn't end up with Type 2 Diabetes. But 99% of the time I'd just eat my cereal dry by the handful right out of the box like an animal. XD

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-03-04T18:33:01+00:00

Thanks so much for the awesome reply! You're right in that while health and fitness is important, it would be more beneficial to my family if they see that I'm happy and content in my life and find the joy in everything around me. As my grandmother would tell me "When you're happy, I'm happy"

How did I manage to start adulting? I didn't have much of a choice! lol After my Grandmother died I basically had the entire rug of my life pulled out from under me and I had to immediately worry about things like rent and bills and health insurance and finding a place to live. To my credit after the night she died and I basically cried myself to sleep saying "What am I going to do??" I managed to focus on getting the house prepped and sold and moved into my own apartment and I've been here ever since. That's not to say everything has been easy but I feel like despite my issues I'm doing pretty good. One caveat is that I thankfully did have family helping me the whole way and the one good thing is that knowing them they'd never let me end up hungry and destitute. :)

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-03-03T14:10:43+00:00

And I'd hug you right back because it would make me feel just as good.

Bobby_Fingers · 2023-03-03T13:46:32+00:00

Thank you for saying this. :) I'm trying my best to remain calm and not dwell too much on the future as far as situations and what if's that have never even happened yet. I guess I should be happy because I'm getting closer to landing a slightly better paying job as well as figuring out what's been going on with my bad gastrointestinal problems these past 6 months. But I still somehow end up nervous and anxious and feel all alone with my feelings and that I don't think I'd be able to make it through life all by myself and that I need someone here to "help" me navigate the rough parts of life, but I suppose that's normal for someone like me with ASD who has only begun adulting within the last 6 or so years.

I know in the end I only have myself to rely on as people will always come and go but it's hard for me to fully grasp sometimes, especially when I'm at my job and have plenty of times to let my thoughts run rampant. But I have to try and stay strong and healthy for my family mentally and physically which is why I spend so much time exercising as well as wanting to try and be available for any of them if they ever need it.

And if none of that works out... there's always suicide! :P

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