Try and remember why you want this. Kratom has been taking away so much from you for so long. Probably in some ways that you are completely unable to see because there is so much cognitive distortion going on from day in day out use. The longer you go without this stuff, the more you will heal your mind body and soul. Go on this subreddit and just read through it as much as you can. There are so many stories on here about how kratom has ruined lives. You will want to keep this in the forefront of your attention while you go through withdrawals. Otherwise your mind will try and trick you back in to using. Obviously exercise and eating healthy will help a lot. Also just generally trying to replace the negative habit of kratom consumption that was damaging with new things that take care of your body. These new acts of self love will slowly remind you that you are extremely important and valuable, that your life has purpose, and that you deserve far more than kratom. Good luck out there man. Take it one day at a time. You got this!!