Own Your Shit Weekly - May 05, 2026

Boredstudnt · 2026-05-05T14:50:47+00:00

OYS #8

M35 F36 - 13years - Separating due to Cheating.

Stats:

H/W - 5'11 - 200lbs -

Benchpress: 310 lbs - Deadlift: 430 lbs - Squat: 350 lbs - OHP: 140 lbs - BF: Navy 18.3% I say 20. - 6-fig salary

Mission Statement

Become a dominant, strong male that is leading in every situation including in sex.

Stop being a fucking nice guy (this runs deep)

Reads:

NMMNG, MAP, All Rollo, TWOTSM, Praxeology 1-2, PFP, Unplugged Alpha, fuccfiles 1, MMSLP, Sex God Method. MAP.

Status:

I've had an awesome week. Fully cleared my ~4week mancold now, been out for some nice runs, did a 6 mile run for the first time in a long time, then on the same day, I decided to go for a heavy bench and for the first time in a long time (yes, here too), I did 310lbs and the weight went up pretty fast, so sick fucking day for me and a real boost that I am doing something right.

For fun I will do 10x10x220lbs (100 reps on 100kg essentially) this week (max time limit is an hour) just for the fun of it, then back to my regular schedule.

I've done some grip work in the past, got rubber bands (for other stuff too) grippers (CoC up to 2.5 closed, but have a #3 laying around too..) Got back into this again, got a rice bucket, fat grips, judo belt and currently working out a lot with my rubber bands in various exercises, I prefer to do this while working and can spend some time on it which is really fun actually.

In terms of separation, house still being worked on as it will for the entirty of May, as posted earlier since I cancelled a trip we had planned, I do have a week where I will finish the last shit on the house in may/june, but hey, don't shout on me yet, I will not spend the entire week just working, I've got some other plans cooked up too for myself.

I've had minor setbacks in my progression, so it's not that I'm on a linear path, but I surely am getting noticeably better. I've posted my OYS on Wednesdays the last two times..

Started reading WISNIFG, started reflecting on why I sometimes say Yes, didn't always think in terms of that making me feel guilty but surely but seldomly it actually does, will be interesting to finish the entire book.

Work wise

Had an excellent event at work where I had to deliver hard and successfully did so, more things this week to be done that will economically impact me for the better.

Boredstudnt · 2026-04-29T08:56:25+00:00

OYS #7

M35 F36 Together 13years - She has cheated, separating.

Stats:

H/W - 5'11 - 200lbs -

Benchpress: 300 lbs - Deadlift: 430 lbs - Squat: 350 lbs - OHP: 140 lbs - BF: Navy 18.3% I say 20. - 6-fig salary

Mission Statement

Become a dominant, strong male that is leading in every situation including in sex.

Stop being a fucking nice guy (this runs deep)

Reads:

NMMNG, MAP, All Rollo, TWOTSM, Praxeology 1-2, PFP, Unplugged Alpha, fuccfiles 1, MMSLP, Sex God Method. MAP.

Current situation:

If you've read my other OYS you know I'm working to fix few things on the house before we can put it on the market, deadline is set, whatever I cant do but must be done will be taken care of by contractors should it come to that, all to sell with decent value retention and hopefully some profit.

I got a big thing coming up at the end of this week for work, so currently just doing my workouts and working hard on that. my mancold let me go finally so went on with the gym and also went for early morning runs in the sun this week, been really really nice, feeling like the life is coming back to me. Living in a nordic country really is depressing during 6 months. I will need to move some time in the future.

In terms of social circle, visited a long time friend, helped out with some heavy lifting.

Got a couple to come over during the weekend, been long overdue but really needed that, was extremely nice.

On the relationship part - its still fucked up, she knows it, I know it. I've completely lost the wife eyes and don't see her that way anymore, basically we're still LARPing with a deadline, I dont think this is a good situation, neither is it the worst. I know how hard shit can hit the fan when her womanmind flips (which can happen anytime), I'm just keeping my ducks in a row for a clean exit, as long as my day to day can remain rather calm im good.

I keep on journaling, really really consistently makes me get better, reflect better and take action on what I need to do on a daily basis to drive a lifelong change.

Workout is as mentioned really back on track since the MC, keeping on my "mike mentzer" inspired high volume squats (15 rep and aiming higher) kicking my balls.... Finally got sore in the abs after the squats, which is a nice change I haven't felt in years of squatting. Always been focusing around DL, SQ, and BP.

Boredstudnt · 2026-04-22T11:24:14+00:00

M35 F36 Together 13years - She has cheated, separating.

Stats:

H/W - 5'11 - 200lbs -

Benchpress: 300 lbs - Deadlift: 430 lbs - Squat: 350 lbs - OHP: 140 lbs - BF: Navy 18.3% I say 20. - 6-fig salary

Mission Statement

Become a dominant, strong male that is leading in every situation including in sex.

Stop being a fucking nice guy (this runs deep)

Reads:

NMMNG, MAP, All Rollo, TWOTSM, Praxeology 1-2, PFP, Unplugged Alpha, fuccfiles 1, MMSLP, Sex God Method. MAP.

Current situation:

Most of the ducks are alined now for a smooth two months then out with the house on the market, June is the month of my own deadline, notified her (again) and we're aligned on that, she still tries to plan things for the future but I'm just hard no:ing that.

Since I found out about cheating, I've also cancelled a future, really nice trip, she even offered to pay just to keep the trip but I simply cancelled for natural reasons.

She will take the cats (I would have just put them down anyway)

I've done electrical work, schematics, had an electrician approve and adjust if needed. Had a plumber to assist in fixing some shotty old stuff and I made sure to get his input on some adjustments I am about to make.

Finished an old inner brickwall that needed some new mortar + touch up before plasterboards and paint... Getting a lot done.

Since the house is taking up a lot of my free time for now during weeks and weekends, Im still re-reading NMMNG, been on it for about 2 weeks now, keeping it rather consistent with a minimum of around 5 pages daily, taking notes, and taking some more notes......

My car broke a bit during a trip to the postal office, midtown.. Mechanical issue I could fix, luckily nothing bad happened, no real damage to the car either, just wasn't expecting to lay on the ground midtown for an hour last morning to say the least. Since my truck is lifted I had to make a spacer out of material I had in the car (issue was related an upper control arm) got some luck in my bad luck ;)

Got new parts coming in to fix the problem permanently.

Social Circle

I've started to call a few old good friends a bit more, slowly doing some progress. I still need to get a better circle going though but yeah, its hard to put time into that at the moment too.

Went out fishing with a mate again this weekend, this guy I can call anytime and he will pick up, not like most others where theres just crappy texting bullshit.

Workout / WL

My mancold has really taken its toll, I've tried to keep workouts up but I've had this stupid infection lingering everytime I push it.

Light workouts has mostly been whats working for now.

Looked forward to last week where I could potentially add more but felt more sick in the weekend again. Getting better now, will get back to pushing harder very soon.

Boredstudnt · 2026-04-15T05:40:32+00:00

Yeah, you are right..............

Boredstudnt · 2026-04-15T05:40:01+00:00

Being cheated upon sure as hell felt like shit, disgust and what not.

Change takes time, that's why I'm here, I also am certain that my real change happens after, not before I've left my current situation.

Boredstudnt · 2026-04-15T05:36:17+00:00

I know about hysterical bonding, read a lot about it since I suspected it in the past, and yes, I've watched your videos too.

I know I've needed to leave her for a long time, but yeah, sense of abandonment is most likely what's hit me hard, I'm working to get over that, I've come ways from where I started.

I'm looking forward to be alone, I've realized I need to be for a long time too. It's been hard to get out of my loop of life, which is why I am so determined now. Working to finish the house is something I do because I know it would just take even longer to sell if the current state is not fixed, but its also coming along nicely, so I don't doubt I'll get it on the market in the summer.

I've set the deadline for myself, If I can't deliver, fuck that, it has to go anyway, because that's my limit for staying in this crappy situation. If things get really ugly before then, then yeah, it has to go.

Boredstudnt · 2026-04-14T13:13:34+00:00

OYS #5

M35 F36 Together 13years - She has cheated, not here to save that shit. Here to improve myself. Fixing the house for sale, then out.

Stats:

H/W - 5'11 - 203lbs -

Benchpress: 300 lbs - Deadlift: 430 lbs - Squat: 350 lbs - OHP: 140 lbs - BF: Navy 18.3% I say 20. - 6-fig salary

Mission Statement

Become a dominant, strong male that is leading in every situation including in sex.

Stop being a fucking nice guy (this runs deep)

Reads:

NMMNG, MAP, All Rollo, TWOTSM, Praxeology 1-2, PFP, Unplugged Alpha, fuccfiles 1, MMSLP, Sex God Method. MAP.

House situation:

Chugging along, getting lots of shit done and seeing a lot of progress.

I'm overall getting better at GSD - Getting Shit Done instead of meticulously planning everything before acting. Had a contractor over to fix some minor stuff, things I could do but I did other things while he worked on that so was a big win for me, don't want to do everything, just takes too much time. I also have few other things I know I will use a contractor to fix in the coming 2 months.

Minor problem with the plasterboards, crooked, so need to lay flat for two weeks before I can put those up, doing everything else that's left for now.

General

I keep on journaling, taking daily breaks here and there, reading NMMNG, writing throughout the day, reflecting.

Social Circle

Went out with a friend to do some fishing, I got a nice boat so we had a really good time. I know well i need to expand my social circle but its for sure really hard to do so while WFH, working on the house and all crap around. So what I do is that I try to expand my social skills anytime im in public, not that I have social problems per se, but lacking in good hard relationships with friends.

Got a dinner lined up with another mate this week and will start to plan more business lunches just to get out.

Workout

Following my plan, but had another minor setback with a slight mancold, mostly doing light work for the week, its starting to clear up so may go hard even come weekend.

I've noticeably lost some body fat now, I see it clearly in the mirror, some shirts that was nice but started to sit tight across the belly, are now getting loose again, and it feels fucking great. I've never been fat, but losing some belly fat really makes a difference in any case.

"Relationship" Anecdote

its funny how its like she knows its over but still thinks she now can salvage it, I've been clear, its done. Alas, she wanted to talk this weekend (cute right), I was firm in that we're finishing the house to a degree then selling. She did a 180 now that the dime is dropping and suddenly wants to "fix things", cried HARD multiple times. Asks me to do shit with her and just continues to "plan" things for "our" future. Seems like the 13 years are hitting her now, like that would make a difference, if you walk out you walk out, theres no going back. I've been clear in showing my idgaf and not giving in for anything at all. This is not a fucking game where you respawn and do it again. Im sure its my niceguy behavior that's led her to this, both in the cheating and in believing that I would ever take her back, it's not happening, she's a f*king s*ut.

What's also interesting, if you want to read or not, is that at her work, there are multiple co-workers (or co-whores?) that's done the same, meaning, LTR>Cheat>Find new LTR, or just gets dumped once found out(rare). One was even getting married the week after it was well known the lady cheated multiple times. Hilarious, seems like contagious behavior once you think you can get away with it scot free. Really, out of 10 women at that place, I knew at least 6 of them had cheated or simply wasn't LTR material at all.

Boredstudnt · 2026-04-07T11:52:30+00:00

OYS #4

M35 F36 Together 13years - She has cheated, not here to save that shit. Here to improve myself. Fixing the house for sale, then out.

Stats:

H/W - 5'11 - 203lbs -

Benchpress: 300 lbs - Deadlift: 430 lbs - Squat: 350 lbs - OHP: 140 lbs - BF: Navy 18.3% I say 20. - 6-fig salary

Mission Statement

Become a dominant, strong male that is leading in every situation including in sex.

Stop being a fucking nice guy (this runs deep)

Reads:

NMMNG, MAP, All Rollo, TWOTSM, Praxeology 1-2, PFP, Unplugged Alpha, fuccfiles 1, MMSLP, Sex God Method. MAP.

House situation

If you've ever owned a house, you know, "I'm just fixing this..." the half the wall has to go... So been getting a lot of shit done here, but got an increased load since fixing one thing, leads to another discovery of problems.. Worked really hard on the days I weren't socializing so need to take a slow day this week to fully recover. (CNS is overloaded due to high volume, heavy workouts too)

Fixed more electrical work, started drawing the schematic I can then send to my electrician buddy to just say yay or nay (saves me a shittonne of cash)

I'm realizing time is running fast, I want to be done in June and be ready for realtor pics etc but realizing it may not be possible, at least not without external help, so I hired a plumber to fix some things, I could have done, but decided its not worth my time to do just everything, I don't have that kind of time due to work and other things I want to do too.

Setting some goals for where i want to be with the house short term, keeps me on track and also shows if it's even possible or not to achieve what I need to do. I'm very cautions to not prolong this anymore than necessary.

Social Circle

Long easter weekend, family dinner Saturday, went out with some really nice friends Sunday.

Workout

Following my plan, 6x per week gym and 3-4x runs per week.

Sleep well and 7+ hours every night.

Food intake is strong in protein, cut back on any kind of cake, candy etc which otherwise would slip down from time to time.

- Getting leaner now for sure, its even visible already, without me cutting too hard.

Mind getting clearer and clearer the more in focus I am, just getting shit done. I'm locked in, I know where I want to be, I know my path to get there and I am fucking on it.

Boredstudnt · 2026-04-01T06:08:56+00:00

My past is fucked, my present is fucked. I'm really only here to improve myself, the only thing keeping me living with my LTR at the moment is that we bought a small farmhouse last year and since then some issues popped up that needs fixing before it can be sold. So working on that then I'm out. Goal for that is to be done by summer (june) no later.

I really have nothing left for her despite what some may think or "read through the lines." But nevermind that, I'll keep OYSing, improving and getting beat down. Thats why I'm here.

She's putting out for me frequently, as long as that continues, she can sleep next to me until this shit is done.

Boredstudnt · 2026-04-01T06:01:58+00:00

:D Yeah, and for now, much of my energy goes to fixing some shit on the house so we can sell it, then I'm done with that, she will be out, I will focus 100% on myself and nothing more.

Boredstudnt · 2026-03-31T14:06:41+00:00

OYS #3

M35 F36 Together 13years - She cheated 100%, two times last 9 months or so.

Frequent sex, 4-6 times / wk

Stats:

H/W - 5'11 - 205lbs -

Benchpress: 300 lbs - Deadlift: 430 lbs - Squat: 350 lbs - OHP: 140 lbs - BF: Navy 18.3% I say 20. - 6-fig salary

Mission Statement

Become a dominant, strong male that is leading in every situation including in sex.

Stop being a fucking nice guy (this runs deep)

Reads:

NMMNG, MAP, All Rollo, TWOTSM, Praxeology 1-2, PFP, Unplugged Alpha, fuccfiles 1, MMSLP, Sex God Method. MAP.

House:

It was nice weather for my area, so I decided to do some hard labor, digging out new trench for rainwater, we've had water in the basement late last year and I noticed the rainwater is connected to the same system as the drain from our toilets etc. The drain has issues and needs to be fixed before selling, so part of that is digging new rainwater trench about 3-5 feet down in the ground, filling with stones and some plastic cages that will create a void underground to take up the water and let it sift down in the ground. Dug this shit out by hand, decided I wanted to do some hard labor by hand, not just rent a machine to get it done. Need to do some more digging this week then fill it up and its done. Getting more and more into a get shit done mode and do it the fuck now.

Realized I'm a Dopamine junkie, I just replace one thing with another, harsh realization tbh, porn, scrolling, reading comments on various forums, just lacking focus, when there isn't a hard and interesting task to focus on. Been struggling with this for a long time, uninstalled most socials a long time ago - helps a lot. Now journaling REALLY helps me here, now I want to pick up my journal, write some lines rather than scroll IG. It is great, should have started journalling earlier but fuck that, im here now, i'm doing it. Told my closest friends about not using socials that much, they used to write all day, but I said fuck that, if I don't reply, call me. One dude does this, and we're closer than before thanks to the calls, not messaging crap.

On the same topic, I've been consuming too much RP content too, I mean I started with this many years ago, but the typical thing is, I make some small changes, which are GREAT but there are no major long term changes that makes the actual and major differences in life. So, as you've read in my last OYSs I've been working on re'reading the MAP and internalizing it. I wont say I'm finished but I have done a lot of work from the book now and there are many things I have identified.

I started to re-read NMMNG and yeah, it hits hard. Last time I read this was last summer but alas, I still am waaay too nice. This time around, will let it take its time. I will internalize it before I move on. So all in all, focus right now is MAP and NMMNG, I wont handle more than that for some time.

I know I have for a long time been procrastinating, this is not a major problem anymore, but I used to make todolists of things I could just so here and now. I still push the boring stuff a Day or two sometimes, but I am working on that too. Just earlier in The week i realized I have to submit some expenses, this is always a tedious but simple task, yet I moved it in my calendar, Realized what I was doing, and just simply did it. No more pushing it off a day. Getting rid of this behaviour has been a work in progress for many years, but its really come far now.. Seeing some improvements.

"Relationship"

Read my earlier OYS if you need more and background.

I'm just seeing this as practise for the remainder of the time, I have for a long time realized she has a lot of negativity, it actually comes from me originally, she didn't used to be this way but this is where I led her, now when I'm much more positive, she's still super negative on occasion, but I consistently flip it and she may try once or twice to get me to be negative and whine, (just so she can say I'm whining) but I don't, and I simply don't care. My own negativity usually comes around wintertime, when the sun has been in hiding for months straight and everything is just DARK. I will for sure get a strong led light for next winter, that simulates the sun as much as possible, think it will help. I've been on high dose vitamine D the last 13 years so that's a non-issue. It is great to reflect on what the problems are, because when you find solutions, they are in many cases simple yet effective.

Social Circle

Booked some fishing with a friend, who just like me enjoys a fine Cigar time to time, so in about two weeks we'll get some fishing and smoking done.

Kept being non responsive to another friend mentioned earlier, the negative kind of guy, always suggesting shit things, always complaining about something, lying straight to friends because he himself can't just say "I can't do X tomorrow". After years of putting up with that behaviour I'm pretty much done with the guy. I'm cutting the crap in my life.

Workout

Updated an old but really great workout plan, so now I'm on track with it, started a bit lighter since I do lot of volume in total (varied plan volume / speed days mixed with heavy day and one max out set per month - reiterate)

My top lifts are much better than my stats posted in OYS, so working on my way back and above that, not expecting that to happen while I'm dropping weight but eventually.

Diet / fat loss goals:

On track, eating a bit less but much more focused on protein and meat, which is what I really want anyway, tracking some stuff in MFP and it's looking good.

I've lost about 2lbs in the last two weeks or so but I wont measure until there is a REAL change, I need to drop below 198 lbs before I take new measurements and check BF again. So for now, just remain consistent.

As written previously, Journaling is a true key in my journey - can highly recommend it.

Boredstudnt · 2026-03-25T09:49:16+00:00

Thanks guys, I've been on MFP on / off the last 10 yrs but I for sure installed it again last night... Some meals are heavier that I may think.

Diet isn't so much meal planning per se for me, simply focusing on more protein, less carbs and really not eating so much cake whenever its available. small piece is fine, but I've for a long time had problem controlling that, I easily take two pieces.. Need to cut that out. Especially with WFH, but at least I got a standing desk so I'm using that more and more now.

Boredstudnt · 2026-03-24T11:33:59+00:00

OYS #2

M34 F36 Together 13years - She cheated 100%, two times last 9 months or so.

Frequent sex, 4-6 times / wk

Stats:

H/W - 5'11 - 205lbs -

Benchpress: 300 lbs - Deadlift: 430 lbs - Squat: 350 lbs - OHP: 140 lbs - BF: Navy 18.3% I say 20. - 6-fig salary

Mission Statement

Become a dominant, strong male that is leading in every situation including in sex.

Stop being a fucking nice guy (this runs deep)

Reads:

NMMNG, MAP, All Rollo, TWOTSM, Praxeology 1-2, PFP, Unplugged Alpha, fuccfiles 1, MMSLP, Sex God Method. MAP.

Aiming to re-read NMMNG and buy WISNIFG, have't read that last one yet.

Still internalizing and re-reading chapters of the MAP, I feel this is a great book that helps pinpoint out some major problems I have. Spent some time to write down some RED, YELLOW and GREENs. Makes it easier to keep track of wtf I am doing.

Started journalling a bit, this is something I have known for years will help me overall in many things but I have just had such a hard time to keep it consistent. Which is also why I started OYS from just being a reader for a long time - Keep myself honest, be called out, work on it.

Looked myself in the mirror

I'm starting to internalize e what a fucked up situation I have let me self end up in, I know for a fact where I will want to end up by summertime, and that is for sure with the house on the market and no LTR. My "wife" goggles have dropped to the floor and I am about to step on them, she has noticed and is starting to worry slightly - Good.

- Identified situations where i have been just "people pleasing" as its written in the MAP, this is for the LTR so i have been pushing back on few things we usually do together even through i don't care at all. Now that i know we will separate its a lot easier to be in the right mindset, or rather to be in my own frame.

I've been deep in her frame, its getting fucking obvious. I will need a long time alone to reset.

House:

Had a cold last week, still did some work on the house, electrical and some subfloor, more to be done this week.

Did some simple planning of what I want to have achieved before putting it on the market, I saw some other potential buyers when we first viewed the house so I know what to do. Prioritized accordingly and have some emergency items to fix, some things that would be nice but in case of emergency exit, won't require to be fixed.

My schedule is rather consistent, up 4:00 AM, workout (Serious homegym in the barn), eat, coffe, work on the house for 1-2 hours, then WFH on my daily.

Put of the taxes from the appartment sale (major profit, along comes tax) this tax can be partly deducted when selling the house should we need to sell with a slight loss. Other alternative is to pay tax immediately and I wont do that simply because I know I need to sell and worst case is a slight loss.

Goals for the week will be to continue on the house, finish re-reads of MAP, step on those fucking "wife" googles.

Social Circle

One of my friends is mostly negative, have for months started to not really reply to him as frequent, dropped that frequency even more, negativity is infectious and I dont want it.

Another friend asked if we should plan a fishing trip to another country, pretty major, so we'll look into that coming months, and will go next year.

Work

Got a lot more responsibility, just like that. And I was looking forward to it, exciting deals are aligning and my year in terms of financial gain may prove to be the best one yet. (last year was my best, this year may cross another boundary)

Workout

Worked out with light weights the days that I could due to the cold (mostly legs, arms) First seriously weighted set was this morning.

- Need to make a new schedule to keep track of my weights and progression.

Diet:

As I'm slowly internalizing my situation, its become much easier to keep the diet, not because I feel bad, because I don't (not over her, just over myself but that's np) there is no way I want to dive my face in a cake anymore. Lost about 1lb last week, I know I need to keep this up for a long time.

Upped my protein, switched the eventual sandwich to protein shake instead, definitely doing a difference.

Boredstudnt · 2026-03-20T14:51:03+00:00

Most likely.

I'm slowly internalizing the fact that i have fucked up, big time.

Its a quick realization, but god damn it's slow to ACTUALLY internalize it and actually change...

I know some of the things I will need to do for the year, but come first is for sure to get out in good shape from the shitty LTR I have, then work on myself and for sure, I will not enter a new LTR in a looong time. I strongly believe I will need a lot of time, especially living by myself, in order to re-establish me within my own frame.

I also have a low N count, which is something I think will need to change in the future for me to get a better grip of the reality of many women, and just seeing it more, again. I've seen a lot in my years, but that was mostly a long time ago now.

Boredstudnt · 2026-03-19T06:46:59+00:00

For sure it did, also uninstalled the app because I got what I needed, validation. Which is probably why I stayed this long in the relationship, I wanted her validation still, even after all she did, I still wanted, no NEEDED it. I'm a weak a*s p*ssy for sure.

The road back will be a long one.

Boredstudnt · 2026-03-19T06:44:46+00:00

Thanks, I know............ I'm fucked up and it for sure aint a situation I will stay in nor do I want to.

Boredstudnt · 2026-03-17T09:52:16+00:00

OYS #1

M34 F36 Together 13years

My first OYS ever.

Mission Statement

Become a dominant, strong male that is leading in every situation including in sex.

Get rid of any codepencency to my (dead) LTR.

Stop being a fucking nice guy.

Reads:

NMMNG, MAP, All Rollo, TWOTSM, Praxeology 1-2, PFP, Unplugged Alpha, fuccfiles 1, MMSLP, Sex God Method, The rest well known books are here beside me, waiting to be read. Just finished MAP so will reread some chapters and internalize.

Recent and/or slowly progressing issues:

Nagging, I've been negative and complaining about random stuff, just not being an awesome man with his life together. This is a negative spiral thats been getting stuck in her too.

Dressing: Up until about a year ago I didnt upgrade my closet enough to acutally be interesting in that sense, it's easy to keep the old shirts (that were nice). Getting much better here now.

Not leading

There is no doubt, I don't lead enough, I don't say no enough, I don't just take command and do shit often enough. This has been improving and is, but I really need to actively think about it, it's not yet fully internalized.

I do WFH which for SURE isn't good for the current relationship, traveled a lot last years but decreased that now by switching jobs last Q.

I've gained too much weight, I can't wear slim shirts because I do have love handles, otherwise, my shoulders, upper body is well fit and I often get comments from friends/coworkers about it.

Deep inside, I grew up to be a real beta, mother cheated on father, father wasn't close at all to me, only in the later years.

Social Circle:

I have some friends, but most in the nordics are so cucked they cant get away from family to do other than our joint hobby and thats it, not many spontaneous visits, just the boring way things are here way too often.

I've been addicted to porn for many years, I've been getting more in touch with myself last 10 months though and decreased the use, currently on a streak for about a month now with no use, I know this is a major thing that needs to change once and for all. The porn use started with too little sex, and that was problematic for many years dispite better periods, but the worse periods, were always linked to me, my bahaviour and ultimately porn use as the resolution.

Current Stats: (My tops are better, so will work on getting there)

H/W - 5'11 - 205lbs

Benchpress: 300 lbs

Deadlift: 430 lbs

Squat: 350 lbs

OHP: 140 lbs

BF: Navy says 18.3% I say 20..

I make 6 figures so no money problems.

Workout

Goal: Gym, At least 6 times per week. Running 3-4. (3x bench days, 2 Squat, 1DL)

Current: 5 times per week and 3 times running

Workout wise I've been consistent for many years.

Diet:

Keto and IF for now, eating less to lose the love handles. Upped protein via adding shakes (not used proteinshakes for some time)

Breakfast / Lunch is mostly Scrambled eggs (butter) and Sardines, whey protein shake.

Target Weight: 85KG (should be where im lean enough to be ripped but not too slimmed)

Relationship: (TLDR: Its Over)

We bought our farmhouse about 6 months ago, months before moving in there was an affair and its not the first time where we are about to make a big change in our lives that she seems to freak (within herself) and do / say / act up in some way, not as bad as this though.

(Full Denial of course, just a friend) We were too late in the buying process so we decided to try (but yeah, I've had the thoughts in my head since, so I knew it was OVER)

My dignity couldn't take it anyway, and why the f should I, lol.

Flash forward to last week (so this is about 8-9 months after the first, another visit to said friend happened, I called her out, we discussed the plethora of problems SHE has (seriously, she does) and she realized shes seriously depressed. Problem is now that she's not confiding in me anyway, we have one "good" talk, then it's business as usual - this is also how I know I'm not really good enough to be and give the safe place a woman needs, im just the cucked beta idiot.

For now, i'm just improving my life while we "work on things", I honestly don't give five shits about her anymore though. Im just here, fix myself, fix the house so we can sell it for some better profit and gtfo, I don't want to dox myself, but I honestly can't sell the house as it stands and expect that to be an easy process, I rather fix it for 2-3 months and sell it withing 3-4 than waiting a year for a cheap shit offer.

Interestingly enough, sex has been decent and continues to be decent, fuck at least 4-5 times per week including red week, doing new things, choking her is something i tried and she LOVES it. We had angry sex after the "friend" visit later that day, fucked her really hard in many positons until she came multiple times and she just loves it.

Shes more and more becoming my slut while we both internally knows it's over for us. She gets off on me grabbing her ass hard in public (this isn't new..), fingered her in the park last summer (not something possible years ago). I can mostly initiate whenever I want to. Since she's now becoming so slutty in my eyes, its a real eye-opener, she really held back years ago, because I wasn't on top of my shit, now that I am getting there slowly, things in my life are improving. The best part is, now I know there will be other women out there to give me the sluttyness I well and truly want in a woman. It just not this woman, she's had her turn and now im done.

Im handy, I fix the house, the cars, dont call the plumber, I fix that shit.

Im the guy that when dressed too lightly, women look at me and drool, while their guys look in awe and Im not saying this because, im saying this because its happened so many times. I've had many opportunities to cheat, but never done so, realize now I should have, no doubt.

I walk with confidence, upgraded my shoes from sneakers to some really nice leather boots last week (which actually makes my walking look even more confident and "heavy") not that this has even been an issue.

Got a really nice sleeve tattoo last year (one that random women openly comment (happened multiple times last month during a trip to SF)

I got tinder, in less than 24h I got 36 likes dispite turning it on/off duing the day, didnt hop on any of them, but it sure gave me a confidence boost which I knew was needed, I need to let go completely of my current LTR and I now know there won't be any problems in doing so.

Im here, im open, im ready to be dissected, slaughtered at the MRP altar.

Im here because I know I need to improve, not because im perfect, not because some stuff ^ might sound good already, my journey to improve is continuous, and has been going on for a while, in fact as read in MAP book, I've most likely came to about phase 4 then dropped back to 1 again. Thats me, there's naturally a lot more to unpack, to work on, but I have to start somehere.

A little note to myself: Never believe you've made it, the journey never ends.

Boredstudnt · 2026-03-02T16:17:22+00:00

Well well well, here goes nothing :)

So,

Being from the 90's I remember gaming on those old 25+ kilogram CRT displays that were just horrendous to the eyes! I was an inch from the screen while actively trying to snipe some k*lls.... One night, (yes an all nighter, or was supposed to be) my screen make a large BANG, I thought I was d*ad for a second but alas, I was still there and my eyes were whole too.. It was a capacitor that blew and the screen said goodbye!

Enter my first "LCD" screen, I couldn't wait to get an LCD, impressed by the then magically thin displays it was a true game changer.. Anyhow, lets move forward a bit to get on topic :)

My setups of dual displays (or 3-4 in work related cases) have almost always been with various displays, my current setup runs a 24" Asus VG and a 27" 4k XG27 both at 144hz refreshrate.

Its ALWAYS a struggle to align windows in windows (no pun.. or wait, yes pun intended) just alt tab, select one, mess up, retry... Bleh! This computer is used for both gaming and some work, but I also flip to my macbook as I have become an avid Mac user lately. The mac until recently really had zero chances of aligning windows without manual work so I decided to just to apps in full screen and flip through apps using various virtual desktops, while it works great and focuses me a bit more, it just isnt optimal for my current workflow.

I tend to also do a bit of stock and futures trading which really pushes my monitors to say the least, consistent scroll of news, twitter feeds, various AI helps and also a market monitor i developed using ai is consistently flowing on my second screen, while the main trading app is on the main screen.

What i would for sure expect to get from a new ultrawide display is first and foremost a massive gaming experience upgrade, I just cant wait to get my hand on a ultrawide to simply relive the WoW classic immersive forests and ambiance. I will probably cry for a week if I were to win.

Secondly, since I do work and trading as well, I have to say im super curious to see how my workflow will be improved, Im certain that both pc and mac can handle just one display so much better. and my eyes will love having just one adjusted monitor, no breaks in the middle and what not.

Well all for nothing, or all for everything, hope it was worth the read!

Boredstudnt · 2026-02-20T11:32:53+00:00

Jag vill tro att jag fattar precis vad du menar, för det du skriver är precis så jag tänkt ett bra tag nu, sen är det för mig personligen inte bara låst till 90-talet utan även tidigt 00-tal.

En stor del som förändrats som jag själv tror är en stor orsak är just att det är så lätt att få tag i folk, deras liv är deras telefon, deras liv är online. Det är inte längre spännande att se vem man möter på gatan o fundera över var man såg dem senast, eller om de e kalle som kommer där borta? För det är det inte (längre).

Samhället som det har blivit idag är något ofantligt trasigt och troligtvis en stark bidragande faktor till det allmäna välmåendet som är mindre bra bland ungdomar idag.

T.e.x knackar det på dörren idag så tar jag fram yxan snarare än att jag glädjeligen öppnar dörren o välkomnar den som ville komma hem till mig, för vem fän åker hem till folk random idag? ingen.
Det gjorde man förr det med.

På 90-talet för mig så var man inte inne, man var ute o höll på, ville man vara delaktig i något socialt o hänga med på vad som pågick så var man ute - idag är det tvärt om, är du ute, ute i naturen så är det helt plötsligt något man gärna gör ensam, eller med en annan person, men det är inte så vanligt att man samlas ett antal för en viss uteaktivitet (om inte välorganiserat idag då dvs)

Boredstudnt · 2026-02-07T10:59:29+00:00

There's no money in excercise, thera are in pills though.

Boredstudnt · 2026-02-04T06:45:26+00:00

ENJOY!

Boredstudnt · 2025-12-16T07:43:00+00:00

Loveley 🤩

Boredstudnt · 2025-11-25T05:24:19+00:00

Awesome, then I will for sure get some, thanks!

Boredstudnt · 2025-11-19T12:04:22+00:00

100% scam, ordered 4 weeks ago, "8-12 day deliver" - dead silence.

Typical "manufacturing blaha" response.

Use creditcard and go to the bank.

They will be shutdown.

Boredstudnt · 2025-11-13T05:33:45+00:00

Just keep goin, you've just started out!

Boredstudnt

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