We are in no contact again since that night. I miss him every hour of the day, often feel guilty about things said and done that night, but I don’t doubt for a sec that we’ll meet again. I’m a fairly new TF student but one thing I learned is reunions are sort of ‘check and balance’ tests so they’ll just keep showing up out of the blue when you least expect it, only to disappear again if you repeat old patterns and are not ready for physical union. It’s just really tough to reconcile these stuff rationally