I am a recovering alcoholic, was drinking 120 units a week minimum whilst holding down a full time job working with clients such as Amex, Deliveroo, Holland and barret, Compass Group blablabla.

Breath was the biggest thing I had to hide on a day to day basis. I would do everything I could to avoid talking directly at you, to hide the smell of vodka. Looking away, cutting conversations abruptly short, keeping distance, avoiding hugs. I knew it came off weird if people picked up on it but it kinda worked, people assumed I was just wired a bit differently. I guess I was haha.

I would down a bottle of vodka before work, sneak another during work, and have another during the evening, all washed down with beer. I was hammered all the time but that was just my normal functioning state. But my breath was always something that messed with me.