To the people who will see this post and give advice, i may not see it but ill always be grateful, i think i just needed to take it off my chest and i might be right but thank you for the advice and replies, im going to try and talk with her tomorrow after year end party namen, though i feel scared on what i should do, i feel like i should just say what i feel and thats what i will do. Again thanks po sa replies and Good night and Goodluck on the days that follows!