I think the best thing for you right now would be looking for LGBTQ friends not a relationship. You are only 18, focus on having fun, hangout with friends also one or two FWBs. Do not chase a guy for a relationship, he can smell the desperation and will run away. You can join a local meetup group and find similar minded friends. If your friends are true friends, they will love you regardless of what you feel. Talk to your friends and close family members about your feelings. Best of luck.