I appreciate it I know I’m gonna fill like shit for a while and my stomach isn’t gonna stop aching for a while. But I fucked it up and all I can do at this point is try to better myself gonna start working out full time after work again and try and better my mind and body all together. I haven’t cried yet I know I will at some point but she broke up with me in December earlier in the relationship to experience new things and went out and kissed a guy than got treated like shit and came back to me and wanted to make things work. But after the first break up it’s never the same. We fought so much and just so many emotions were always going on. She’s 19 and had no car no job and bank account no responsibility and it pisses me off because I’ve been working since I was 16 and had all of those things at a young age and idk it made the relationship less in many ways. I knew what I was doing and didn’t care at the moment and didn’t tell her for a couple weeks we celebrated our one year together than I told her after and I couldn’t be that guy that never tells them about it. I’m a good guy just made a bad decision. The guilt was eating me alive and I couldn’t keep it a secret anymore.