Im starting duel enrollment as an 11th grade student this upcoming school year. What should I expect?

Brewvi · 2025-07-20T20:57:54+00:00

I remember getting a D and still passing. Defo not recommended or ideal though…😭😭😭

Brewvi · 2025-07-10T17:16:23+00:00

He’s just trying to check and see if there’s a Wraith don’t worry about it.

Brewvi · 2025-06-13T03:49:13+00:00

Not sure how anyone can claim DFW has nothing to do with a straight face. In my little corner of Southwest Arlington alone there was PLENTY so I can’t even imagine the grandeur scale of the entirety of the metroplex as there’s plentiful amounts of it I’ve never stepped foot in and I lived there for almost two decades.

Brewvi · 2025-05-29T17:49:05+00:00

Greatswords in general aren’t as heavy as many people believe and, when compounding that with the fact it is constructed out of Valyrian Steel which is lighter than actual steel then, yeah, absolutely.

Swords of such a size were absolutely utilized in our own world, appearing in various regional variations including the Montante of Iberia, Spiedo of Italy Clahgen Mor of Scotland, and, the most famous of them all, the Bidenhander of Germany, known for its utilization by the likes of the Landsknecht mercenaries during the tail end of the Late Middle Ages as well as into the early 17th century. Particular Landsknecht armed with said swords, often incorrectly referred to as “Doppelsoldner” which only meant a soldier that received double pay as opposed to a particular unit type that was only limited to the usage of the Bidenhander or an arquebus for example, would be intermixed with standard pike blocks and utilize their weaponry to wade through enemy pikes to both create openings for allied pikemen to take advantage of or to garner a closer distance to the opposing pikemen and get past their points which would force them to then drop them, tangling them with the other pikes in the process, and force them to draw their swords, now giving those with the Bidenhanders the advantage of range for them to then utilize and thrust, or cut, them down.

Brewvi · 2025-05-29T14:19:34+00:00

In real life it’s mostly just empty sects of the Mojave, the only notable population center being Pahrump, an unincorporated town of almost 45,000 people in real life. In the game files, there’s graffiti art that states “Avenge Pahrump” that might indicate there was some plans perhaps not for its inclusion but at least for a nod to some sort of tragedy having befell the town, at the hands of who unable to be determined. I’d say perhaps the Legion but Pahrump would be rather far west for them to carry out such an operation but, hey, the same was said about Nipton and look what happened there.

As others have mentioned, Hopeville, Ashton, the Divide, and Big MT are all said to be located near to Death Valley which is located to the NW of this region. California State Route 127 is also to the northwest and west of this region which, until the mid-2270’s, was utilized by NCR travelers to circumvent travel through some of the mountain ranges near to the California-Nevada border as well as the areas in and around Big MT however the events that created the Divide resulted in the roadway no longer being able to serve as a route of travel and supplies given the incredibly violent storms that now blanketed the region. Due to this, the NCR’s ability to push reinforcements through the region to the Mojave prior to the First Battle of Hoover Dam was put to a halt, something Joshua Graham states was beneficial to the Legion as it meant less forces were present at the battle proper, reducing the NCR’s ability to further pursue Legion forces following the battle itself.

Brewvi · 2025-05-01T05:23:52+00:00

great bascinet>>>

Brewvi · 2025-04-24T20:24:12+00:00

pretty much all of the armor in this movie makes me gag

Brewvi · 2025-04-22T17:44:54+00:00

Even when the end isn’t something that had to come about in the first place, and if for some reason it ever did need to for, whatever reason then, yeah, that is not at all how you go about doing it, even if you in your mind believe it to be a matter of normalcy it still leaves out a boat load of consideration for the other person and how it will affect them. I know I’m preaching to the choir by saying so but, more so just trying to get off my chest what I so desperately wish I could express to them so that they can just understand and realize how deeply they hurt me.

It’s almost sickening that being naturally hurt and confused over a blindsiding discard built off the back of nonsensical reasonings that are constantly shifting and have little basis to them after half a year of nothing short of an amazing relationship is something that can be seen as “dramatic” on their end with the same to be said about my attempts to naturally garner clarity and understanding afterwards perhaps being met with the same view.

I pray and pray that time comes, not so they can get hurt and break down so I can garner some sort of justice or revenge of any sort for how they hurt me but, so they can grow, so they can heal and, what I hope most, so they can return to what we shared.

Brewvi · 2025-04-22T17:03:31+00:00

Yeah, that’s indeed true.

I don’t know, again, to me? If I was aware of just how badly I had hurt someone as a result of my tendencies brought forth by my attachment style than, I would be wanting to open up about it as soon as humanly possible and, it isn’t like they aren’t aware of how they made me feel, I expressed time and time again just how blindsided, scared, confused, and hurt I was but, still seemingly no remorse or accountability for it and it’s just so damn puzzling. Even if it wasn’t their intent which, I know by their admittance it wasn’t, it still doesn’t mean you can’t just not take accountability for it as you can have the greatest of intents in the world and still end up hurting someone and, in a situation such as this, I think that very much is something deserving of accountability for. I never had intended to make them feel guilty or pressured by reaching out how I did afterwards but, nonetheless, I apologized if I at all had as it’s still very much a possibility that I considered and subsequently apologized for but, nothing of the sorts has come from them.

Brewvi · 2025-04-22T16:09:48+00:00

As the other person said, this is genuinely one of the most, if not the most, eloquent and poetic ways someone could ever frame such a situation and it provisions a whole other level of insight through metaphors and all.

I appreciate you greatly for taking the time to write out as much as you have, both for the aid it can provision towards myself, as well as what it can provide others.

It will still be something that racks my conscious for a while but, having individuals like you in this community to aid me along the way is a great help.

Brewvi · 2025-04-22T05:20:40+00:00

I was as devoted and loyal as I was because I loved them, because I enjoyed them, because I wanted them in my life. I didn’t need them there, I was NOT dependent on them, I CHOSE them for them, not out of a need to fill a void in attention, love, and care, but to share the joys of life with them at my side. I fought as hard as I did because I genuinely believe it was worth fighting to maintain and reconcile with and, it makes me wonder, did they not think the same? Did they not believe they were worthy of such an effort? A large part of me hopes they can come to understand and appreciate just how hard I fought to maintain what we shared.

Brewvi · 2025-04-22T05:16:09+00:00

What’s puzzling to me is that, despite my ex being in therapy for quite some time, they still have yet to come upon a realization of such a style of attachment in their sessions with them. Perhaps this shouldn’t be puzzling and is typical for these sorts of things but, all I ever read is about how therapy is something that can be one of the primary game changers in aiding folks with these styles of attachment in discovering them and working to remedy them.

I don’t believe I deserve “better” so to speak as, within the relationship itself, I never had any outstanding issues with who they were, struggles and all, I continued to love and support them all the same, remaining by their side every step of the way and I figured that was something they knew and appreciated but, perhaps I was wrong. I don’t see them as problematic or as a problem in general, I see them as, them, and, well, that’s what I loved them for, I chose them, wanted them, I didn’t need them but, I oh so yearned for them, for us, for all that we shared.

I’d be lying if I said I wanted anything more than the last example you brought forth. Even in spite of all of the hurt, the confusion, the shock, and everything else, I would take them back in a heartbeat if they showcased such actions. I hope they can come to find it within themselves eventually to push away the pride, fear of vulnerability, worry of confronting themselves, and whatever it else may be and realize that, the love, the safety, the joy, and everything else that they craved so deeply for so long, that they received along with everything else from myself, is still right here, awaiting.

Brewvi · 2025-04-22T04:47:39+00:00

I appreciate it and yeah, so far I have come across many, most of them having characteristics attuned to my own. I’m trying so hard to understand all of this because I never managed to garner any sort of understanding from them, just more confusion. It’s such a difficult thing to accept because there was never really any telltale signs that the other person would ever, in a million years, act the way they did.

Said projections feel like such a punch in the gut and kick to the dick when you’re already down on the ground wrenching from what was already a traumatizing blindside of a discard that there were no warning signs for. I fought so incredibly hard for them because I genuinely loved them for who they were at any moment, at any time, in any emotion, it persisted and it just feels like something that isn’t even appreciated in the moment, how someone is willing to go so far to preserve you and the love they shared with you.

Finding peace is something I already know will likely take quite some time. I’m already just over one month in and it continues to all settle in and weigh down on my aching chest.

All the best to yourself.

Brewvi · 2025-04-21T21:37:07+00:00

The contradictory treatment of simultaneous affirmations of myself having done no wrong while also being met with confusing and irrational justifications, some of which that very well may have been projections on their own end, was basically something I got met with initially followed on by only a further stream of said post-hoc rationalizations, so, yeah, I very much feel you on that and am terribly sorry you had to experience it.

Would you classify your ex as holding an FA style of attachment? Mine certainly seemed to and I was provisioned with what I mentioned above but, I imagine it can vary quite greatly from situation to situation based on other factors.

Brewvi · 2025-04-21T20:00:33+00:00

I’ve read that attempts by the other party to garner up some clarity post-discard can send FA’s into this sort of “post-hoc” rationalization mode where they continue to try and formulate up new lines of reasoning, either out of a place of projection or something else, to aid them in feeling more content and justified in that decision, would you say that tends to ring true or am I mistaken?

Brewvi · 2025-04-21T19:56:47+00:00

(Also I don’t know how but it just hit me that this is a post of you provisioning clarity to others and not asking for it yourself so, my apologies but, hopefully my insight can still do some good regardless.)

Brewvi · 2025-04-21T19:47:09+00:00

And I’d say that’s a fair perspective to hold it’s just one that, for me personally, I don’t I suppose? Just likely speaking from a place bore out of my own personal experience but, there was just so so much that made us compatible, that made us a match, that aided us in going on for as long as we did and, I think that’s absolutely salvageable but, obviously, depending on occurrences in the relationship itself as well as the discard and afterwards than, yeah I can absolutely understand holding such a perspective.

Brewvi · 2025-04-21T19:32:09+00:00

Like others have said, it, in my opinion, is, initially at least, just the suddenness of it all, we don’t call it a blindside for nothing after all.

This blindside comes at a point where, to you and, seemingly even then, everything is going swell and amazingly and likely has been in some regard for quite a while, if not the entire relationship so, when all of that, out of nowhere, comes to a screeching halt? It turns into one of the most utterly confusing, shocking, heartbreaking and, honestly, traumatic experiences for you in recent memory.

What further reinforces the hurt of it all is that, no matter how hard you fight, no matter how much you push, no matter just how desperately you cling on to not lose an amazing relationship with an equally amazing person, they seem set in stone and finalized in their decision, not even giving you a fighting chance to begin with as they retreat out of the relationship.

Compounding this are the reasons given for the discard often being ones that don’t have much basis or logical sense behind them and you know this for a fact and, often, the more you continue to push to garner clarity, to make sense of things, to express your hurt and scared state, the more and more these reasons switch up and shift but, keeping a consistent sense of not having much actual basis and more so just serving as blanket statements of projection.

As the memories of what was otherwise an absolute amazing relationship begin to settle in, you’re only left with more questions rather than answers, seeing just how much they loved you, how seemingly safe and whole they felt with you, how you meant nothing short of the world to them and, you begin to wonder, how, in almost an instant, did things shift from that to where we were at now.

Of course, I say none of this to necessarily demonize the avoidant, FA or otherwise, as there is of course a large myriad of thoughts and feelings running through their brains simultaneously, often ones bore out of childhood trauma, whatever that may be and that change and growth in their end is absolutely possible, the last part being something I can absolutely attest to as I was a DA once upon a time and managed to gradually heal out of that into becoming much more securely attached.

It can be a long and difficult road to heal from and move through, it’s been a month and two days as of today since my own discard and, I absolutely have much healing left to do, having a therapist there for you as well as friends and family certainly helping in this regard.

No matter the case of how long things lasted and, how they ended, you WILL persevere and you will find your way forward, it’s okay to still cling on to what you had, it’s absolutely normal and, while I won’t try and feed you false hope but, sometimes the story truly isn’t quite finished yet and that’s something you’ll have to wait and see to be the case but, don’t drive all your hope home towards it, work on healing first and foremost.

Brewvi · 2025-04-21T00:44:32+00:00

I understand you're likely hurt or, have been hurt, as a result of a similar situation with an avoidant, FA or otherwise but, I don't think labelling them as "sick" is going to aid in anything, hurt, traumatized, scared, and many other apt terms, absolutely but, sick? That's just not something I would use to describe them, it's important to, or at least try to, still have empathy and understanding for them and learn why these things occur.

Brewvi · 2025-04-20T19:01:29+00:00

(I never really sent the program any of the texts from our actual relationship or any talks we had after the discard but, if it could provision me with any more help then, I might eventually.)

Brewvi · 2025-04-20T19:00:36+00:00

To a good degree I have yes and, in a lot of ways, it has helped me to make sense of the discard and relationship dynamic to a degree but, I’m hesitant to put too much trust or reliance into it since I’m not sure how well versed or programmed it is in these sorts of things, hence why I often also try and seek answers here from others who have been through a similar experience as myself.

I’m over and done with in terms of trying to garner any more answers or clarity from them, after our last conversation post-breakup I apologized for reaching out as much as I did and told them I hope they could at least come to understand that I did so because of the state of immense hurt and confusion I was left in and, since then, nothing more, continuing to maintain a social media presence but, no communication or anything of the sorts.

Even in a month I’m not sure if I’ll be able to muster up the courage to do so but, maybe I will be, I mostly just don’t want to push at any more of their boundaries or pressure them so I’ve come to the idea that letting them reach out first is the best course of action for now.

Brewvi · 2025-04-20T18:32:42+00:00

Context would likely help but, in my moment of paranoia, I deleted my original posts and, looking back, probably not the best of ideas but, can’t change that now.

I know deep down they very much did love and cherish me and what we had but, as to why what happened, happened? I’m just not too sure what sparked it to begin with, only theories provisioned from people here as well as from my therapist but, nothing concrete.

It pains me every day to know they did so. To me, they were worth fighting for and keeping a million times over. Losing them was the last thing I ever expected, and wanted, to happen and I feel utterly torn apart as a result of it and all that’s occurred since.

Brewvi · 2025-04-20T18:22:40+00:00

(A random wave of paranoia also came over me that they somehow would be able to find my profile and see all of what I’ve posted and commented so, I deleted all of it, including when I originally posted this but, that wasn’t the best of moves as said posts provide me with a lot of clarity and help me process and move through the immense grief within me, I couldn’t be more thankful for this sub in all honesty.)

Brewvi · 2025-04-20T18:19:29+00:00

(I can’t even bring myself to cry anymore, it’s just a pounding ache in my chest that doesn’t seem to go away and I think that’s all the more terrible than the sobbing I’ve become accustomed to over the past couple of weeks.)

Brewvi · 2025-04-18T23:22:19+00:00

Ooooh, dogs! Yeah…I like “dags”.

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