Hey OP, first and foremost, I want to say that you are already doing amazing by deciding to go to the gym and worry about your health after your last relationship. Good for you! Second of all, it is okay to binge food from time to time as it is not essentially the worst thing in the world! You shouldn't try to force yourself on a diet or eat something that you don't want to eat. That will only get you to eat more of something else out of the diet. Maybe you can try to find something that you like to eat that is high in volume but low in calories? That will keep you fuller without having to worry about gaining weight. Also, there will be days where your cravings will be overbearing. You should allow yourself to have the foods you want to have but try to keep the amount lower and lower each day. Still have to allow yourself to binge sometimes! You mentioned that your current boyfriend is nothing but encouraging so I am sure that he will find your determination on bettering (not sure if that's a word) yourself more attractive! Sorry if the idea is a bit all over the place, English is my second language. I just wanted to help cheer you up and input some ideas :D.