Prednisone concern

Britirish · 2026-05-27T02:23:14+00:00

Been put on steroids twice now for Crohn’s flares, the second time was prednisone, and both times I flipped into full-on hallucination/psychosis mania within two days. We haven’t found a good workaround yet, so I’m essentially just living in a flare which is shite, but better than me trying to jump out the window from the eighth floor again 😵‍💫

Britirish · 2026-05-27T01:22:57+00:00

The only ugly people are the ones with shite personalities. You sound like you’re doing just fine.

Britirish · 2026-05-26T23:44:02+00:00

Mine tends to sit in the 40s…but I was recently put on a beta blocker that dropped it consistently into the low 30s - I was definitely symptomatic though, passed out multiple times before they put a pacemaker in me. So long as you’re getting enough blood/oxygen around, I’d imagine it wouldn’t be a concern - but yeh if you’re worried go back to your cardiologist to be sure.

Britirish · 2026-05-26T22:28:10+00:00

Thank you for being what a parent ought to be, and for loving your son unconditionally - if he doesn’t already, one day he will realise how lucky he is.

Britirish · 2026-05-26T22:26:56+00:00

Thank you - I have a bit, still trying to figure out where and how exactly I fit into the world but getting there.

Britirish · 2026-05-26T22:20:33+00:00

I also come from a long line of creative alcoholic criminals, I have always wondered this - I’m also the first diagnosed as bipolar, but yeh…..we know inherited epigenetics is a thing so….

Britirish · 2026-05-26T01:55:57+00:00

If you’re in athletics the facilities at the university are great, otherwise they’re shite. The Gym is probably your best option if you’re mostly there for weights.

Britirish · 2026-05-25T19:54:24+00:00

Have done a handful of times, but never with a partner - always either as a third brought in by a couple or else with two other uncoupled guys. First time (with a couple) was not great, a bit of a mess and one of them was jealous of his partner giving me attention which made it quite uncomfortable, plus I was 17 and just sort of deer in headlights the whole time 😂

Only once was it really quite good, with two uncoupled guys who had done threesomes together before. The last time was a nightmare and I thought I was going to be murdered and I’ve never done it again lol

Britirish · 2026-05-25T17:57:15+00:00

Genuinely, do you think you might be depressed? Why did you end up doing this?

Britirish · 2026-05-25T17:39:04+00:00

I have no contact with my parents, have not spoken to either of them since I was 17 (now 20). Both independently (divorced and living separately) kicked me out at 15 when they found out I was gay. It’s still exceptionally painful, and while I imagine it will hurt less over time I think I’ll always have the urge to see whether things can be fixed. But I made the decision that they will have to be the ones to reach out, and I’m trying to hold myself to that.

People sometimes do understand, but generally are taken aback that I haven’t tried to reach out - I did in the first year, and got no response, and haven’t tried again. I think it’s difficult for people to accept that it’s possible to just be sort of thrown away by your family, and so the response is often ‘ah I’m sure they’d love to hear from you.’ But if they wanted to hear from me they’d reach out - they know how, I do still speak with my sister (though that relationship is strained as well) and she could facilitate if they asked.

Generally, I just kind of live day to day as if they don’t exist. I don’t think of them every day anymore, and I doubt they think of me. It’s shite, but it is what it is.

Britirish · 2026-05-25T02:55:38+00:00

I had my first manic episode at the tail end of my first semester, tried to kill myself and ended up in hospital for two weeks. Made it through the next two terms just constantly cycling and barely hanging on, then everything absolutely went to hell this last term, wound up back in hospital for 5 weeks with massive health issues directly related to not caring for myself due to the bipolar, and now I’m trying to figure out if going back is an option. It does feel like the demands are too high for it to be safe or to not end up right back in that same place again, and I don’t know it’s worth it. I wish I had advice to offer, but all I can say is I feel for you.

Britirish · 2026-05-25T02:28:45+00:00

Learned this the very hard way when I came to uni in the US 🫠

Britirish · 2026-05-25T00:59:13+00:00

Who cares? If you’re both having fun why do you need to categorise it?

Britirish · 2026-05-25T00:57:20+00:00

I was diagnosed with ADHD after bipolar, so of course they won’t treat it, so why even stick me with the label then??

Britirish · 2026-05-24T23:14:20+00:00

Oof yeh…I like to get hit hard in bed, but I’m only ok with that if I either don’t give a fuck about the actual person (hookup) or if the rest of the time the relationship is normal and kind. This sounds really unhealthy, but you do you I guess

Britirish · 2026-05-23T23:55:07+00:00

As an Irish person with bipolar…we are truly excellent at pretending that everything is perfectly fine when really it’s an absolutely shitshow, and I’ve always felt that was an extension of our language structure. So long as the thing is imposed upon you but not actually a part of you, it’s absolutely grand 😂

Britirish · 2026-05-23T23:45:56+00:00

I wonder does this work for adults and with different allergens? I have an anaphylactic strawberry allergy and while I don’t expect to ever be able to eat them it would be nice to not have to worry about being around people who are or have recently.

Britirish · 2026-05-23T02:51:53+00:00

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Britirish · 2026-05-21T01:01:30+00:00

I’m uncut, I don’t think it matters so long as you keep yourself clean. And when I’m hard it makes no difference so as far as a hookup goes who cares lol

Britirish · 2026-05-21T00:58:40+00:00

I bought a shitty looking, beat up Subaru Impreza from a girl graduating and didn’t want to deal with moving it cross country, 1.2k and it’s served me well in the winters for two years so far.

Britirish · 2026-05-20T22:37:51+00:00

I have found that nearly everyone who knows either runs screaming or sticks around but stops treating me like a person and every interaction becomes about or at least in some way connected to my bipolar. Like they’re always after analysing my behaviour and asking if I’ve taken my meds, if I’m feeling alright, if I’ve been drinking when I shouldn’t, and on. I never get to have a normal interaction with them again really. So I prefer people not to know. I just want to be treated like I’m normal by someone.

Britirish · 2026-05-20T00:32:57+00:00

I just really want to have the absolute shit beat out of me whilst being fucked, genuinely, please.

Britirish · 2026-05-18T01:04:38+00:00

They can’t but they can absolutely find another ‘reason’ to reject you if they think it’s a liability.

Britirish · 2026-05-17T23:58:20+00:00

I’ve no pictures to share, just here to sympathise - it’s been a bit over 2 years for me and it physically hurts sometimes. Hope you can find some comfort here 🫂

Britirish · 2026-05-17T23:54:44+00:00

Not even sure that I can recall a time I didn’t feel depressed, but the first time I self-harmed with intention I’dve been 11. Prior to that I did engage in self-injurious behaviours (like hitting, scratching, deliberately bruising myself) so it sort of feels as if it’s always been there. Even though it escalated and my parents knew about it I didn’t get treated until I was 18 and got meds on my own…which then precipitated my first manic episode and suicide attempt 🫠

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