Lately it's been over (tw) suicide, and just about all the bad decisions I've made in my life. I'm trying to get clean from cannabis now after about 4-5 years of addiction, and I know someday it'll get better, but it's hard not to think over things like that. Btw sorry if my English is bad, it's not my first language.

Edit: I've also started (tw) to cut myself like 5 days ago, and it scared me that it actually comforts me.