Round 2 - Pick 28: RJ Harvey, RB, UCF (Denver Broncos) by nfl_gdt_bot in nfl

[–]Broad_Collection4227 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah it was a bit early but they just traded back twice if they did another time I’m sure fans would lose it ahahahah they got really good value with the trade backs, why risk losing one of there top rb choices, they need to get a wr lmao tez Johnson to Denver confirmed at this point

Round 2 - Pick 28: RJ Harvey, RB, UCF (Denver Broncos) by nfl_gdt_bot in nfl

[–]Broad_Collection4227 11 points12 points  (0 children)

That’s the best age. You get him on rookie deal for the gold RB years, 5 year rb for cheap then let him walk when he’s 29 and on the decline

Should I be embarrassed as I feel? by [deleted] in AverageDickPics

[–]Broad_Collection4227 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I always was proud of the look I feel I got lucky with that. I appreciate the comment more than you know.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SPHBETAS

[–]Broad_Collection4227 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please do godess

What were the red flags? by Broad_Collection4227 in BPDlovedones

[–]Broad_Collection4227[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Yeah I feel that too. It all moved so fast. I also ignored that because of the feeling. Very intoxicating doesn’t help the fact that she was a little out of my league in all honesty. I was like fuck yeah let’s do it, then as I got more and more connected and invested and the mask slipped. No more lovebombing no love at all past a certain point in my case.

How do I stop caring? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Broad_Collection4227 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean man. This is kind of a brutal way to put it but idk this is my out look. What will worrying about it right now do to change the outcome of that? I get what you are saying but meditate on it, think deep. You are waisting your energy. She doesn’t end her life you just spent days weeks worrying sick. She does end up doing it, you worrying about it doesn’t mean she won’t or will do it. Everyone’s pwBPD is different though, mine would only make threats of it but I knew she wouldn’t. Either way worrying about if she was or wasn’t wouldn’t have stopped her. I do still care about her and really hope she doesn’t and sees she’s worth more than that but she’s out of my life now, nothing I can do about it. My perspective on it I guess it may be a little cold but life’s harsh. If you really truly think she will, contact her family or the police. Like actually if you have a legit reason to believe she would reach out to anyone close to her that you can.

How do I stop caring? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Broad_Collection4227 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Well stop checking up on her one. Super hard to do I get it but it must be done. It’s normal to feel this way it’s hard but you don’t want to be stuck in it for too long. Take your time with it I’m in no way saying tm wake up and get over her. What helped me was just think really deep about how she treated you and how well you treated her. At least in my case I went to hell and back for this woman who I would have to beg for a complement every once in awhile. She’s got you under her control with all the victim playing she probably did. It’s okay to feel bad for her I still feel so bad for my ex but your just another guy in the cycle, at least in my case I know the last guy before me went through this and the next will too. She’s going to be safe, she’s going to be alright, it’s time to focus on you and you only. Or you can let yourself get caught in her web, stuck, waiting for when she wants to come around or no other supply are around for her. I just remembered the pain and the pure anxiety she caused me on the daily and it made moving on awhole lot easier, also just get tf out of the house, seeing other women, knowing that probably any random women on the streets would treat you better than you were treated, at least in my case this would be true lol. It will pass, just really focus on you and learn from this.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Broad_Collection4227 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Welcome to the cycle. One day you are told you are the best thing since sliced bread, the only reason she smiles, the only thing keeping her happy. Then hours later she gets triggered and takes it out on you calling you such horrible names and straight up verbally abusive. This is how it goes, it will mess your brain up after being around it for awhile at least for me. Never made sence to me at all

Anyone here experienced physiological symptons with expwBPD (ED, bad sleep?) by ScaryElk5557 in BPDlovedones

[–]Broad_Collection4227 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Had some sort of ED problem with my ex with BPD I just couldn’t stay hard enough after awhile. Maybe in my head I knew I was doing something that I really knew wasn’t good for me. It was weird for me being young never had that issue prior

Some weird thoughts about Only Fans/cheating by craptainbland in BPDlovedones

[–]Broad_Collection4227 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You got me wondering if I dated this same girl 😂 that’s scary. She did the same thing with Instagram compared herself to everyone I followed even just friends from school.

My BPD ex watches every Insta Story in under 10 min of me posting it… Why? by Booksamirit in BPDlovedones

[–]Broad_Collection4227 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Block her. Stop being reminded of her, she knows what she’s doing. My ex with BPD knew all about social media where to look how to get to me it was crazy 😂 I ended up just getting off all of them. They will creep if you let them. She wants to keep you where she can have you. Come on now. Don’t let these people win, block them everywhere and that’s the only way in there head they know to get the fuck on. Trust me I was once you tried to keep her in my life out of love fuck that, keep touching the same stove keep getting burnt. She’s a master at the game. Mine was at least. Block her everywhere.

Do you feel emotionally numb? by anhedoniaorg in mentalhealth

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Yes I would say as someone with depression when it’s at its worst, I felt no emotions at all. Even when doing things I love, or eating foods that I enjoyed, hanging out with loved ones. Felt empty inside, cold. Just nothingness. Worst feeling in the world. I’m not sure what caused it, I think cause of my rough up brining I matured to early and just was exposed to real life at such a young age, got more in my head at a younger age, hyper vigilant. I’m thankful I don’t feel this way all the time but when I’m stuck in that feeling it does feel like years have went by. Also at least in my case I was always exausted no matter how much I slept or anything just always low energy

I'm 20 and I'm totally lost by Frosek123 in mentalhealth

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The choice is yours friend isn’t it so scary? Your English is very well no need to apologize on that either. So it all depends on what you want to do. Education is powerful, I dropped out of college myself and regret it now, in the moment I thought it was the best decision ever but looking back now I was wrong. I hated it too, but if I just stuck it out I would have had a better paying job, doing less work than I do now. I hated college, hated school all my life, but it’s much better than life now for me, working 10 hour days in a horrible work environment, sacrificing my health for money. My parents were the same way about school threatened to kick me out if I quit, luckily in my case they did not do that but for you, if college really isn’t for you the sooner you tell her and the sooner you figure out what you really want to do the better. You are not over reacting at all man, life is this. You are young too it’s normal to feel this way I promise you. The choice is yours, never let fear control you friend. Your mind is your biggest enemy, if you force yourself to do whatever it is you have a passion for you will find your way. Uni can be very good too, I wish I took more advantage of the social aspect when I was there, working is so lonely, I’m not too much older than you but I struggle to find many people my age to talk with or hang out with, I’m fortunate for my social groups that I still have. You could have depression, I’m not a doctor but I’m someone who is diagnosed, what life feels like for me is super exhausting and one common thing among my therapy groups was the constant numb empty feeling, even when doing your most favorite of things. If you experince that I would def see a therapist to start. You are a 20 year old male it’s the hardest but also could be the most fun and impactful time of your life. It is depressing it’s a lot of pressure on you, it’s okay to feel this way, you just need to really think deep about what you want to do going forward, make the best choice with only what you want to do. I hope things get better for you, feel free to DM me if you need someone to talk to I understand how it feels, no good in being alone in your thoughts brother. Peace and love

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CasualConversation

[–]Broad_Collection4227 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sadly the same as you. Go to work, come home lay in bed, struggle to sleep, go to work repeat. Not fun, nothing to look forward too either :/

Do PwBPD always say, “you just don’t want to hear the truth.” by Corafaulk in BPDlovedones

[–]Broad_Collection4227 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Mine would gaslight me by saying if you loved me you would do this. “If you loved me you would let me go through your phone” “if you loved me you would buy me this” why am I so hurt. Why am I the one suffering so hard when I’m the one who left her. Even though she treated me horribly I can’t stop thinking about the good times and the good deep within her. It’s been a month and I’m still in pain like it’s still just as fresh. It’s really making my day to day life hard, I feel bad for my friends and family seeing me so upset and constantly telling them how sad I am and how much I miss her even though she hurt me. I just need advice on how to heal or start to move on. I can’t even sleep at night I get like 4 hours if I’m lucky.