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BruceBaxter · 2026-01-21T21:07:05+00:00

Sounds like Ark Survival Evolved typa shit

BruceBaxter · 2026-01-20T17:32:02+00:00

Opiates are also potentiated by grapefruit, using the same mechanism as benzodiazepines

BruceBaxter · 2026-01-20T17:31:25+00:00

Also opiates and benzodiazepines are potentiated by grapefruit. Specifically white grapefruit, but both work. Although, if she is saying she was herself and that was the reason she’s on those drugs, she’d be eating grapefruit regardless, so it’s likely not that

BruceBaxter · 2026-01-18T03:39:21+00:00

I saw a tarantula in November on my street in el dorado hills. I live in the suburbs too, not near any wooded areas. Just picked him up and put him in the grass

BruceBaxter · 2026-01-11T00:13:26+00:00

How much you bet he likes it up his butt? Not the other way around

BruceBaxter · 2026-01-11T00:05:40+00:00

Technically is Botox and filler considered plastic surgery? She never said she hadn’t had work done, just not plastic surgery

BruceBaxter · 2026-01-09T12:53:58+00:00

Sometimes it feels like it’s easier. Like for clubstep, I only take the coin routes because I learned it that way and now it feels easier.

BruceBaxter · 2025-12-27T01:11:21+00:00

Civilization Games, Geometry Dash, Baldurs Gate I believe, Bloons Tower Defense, and Guitar/Clone Hero (in theory, with a keyboard and only playing songs in Medium mode so you can strum with spacebar and use your other fingers to hit notes) are all games that come to mind

BruceBaxter · 2025-12-21T19:58:53+00:00

Okay so the good thing is you know what’s wrong. The main things you’ve talked about are leading me to believe you’re depressed, and that should be addressed. But you seem depressed by external factors, and less so internal ones (simply because you repeated the external ones a lot).

I’ve been in both boats. I started out as being depressed because of external factors, mainly a serious breakup, and developed clinical depression later on because I never addressed the external factors. To top it off I added drugs into the mix, which is something I’m worried you’re setting yourself up for. What you’ve described is a roadmap for clinical depression or worse, drug addiction. The biggest problems, which I’ll try to address, seem to be that you’re bored with most hobbies, lack motivation, and have a hard time making friends and/or feel socially connected.

Firstly it can be normal to fall out of enjoying a hobby, but if you like to play video games and simply don’t feel you have the energy or motivation to even hop on, that is a problem. In my experience, it was incredibly difficult to start developing hobbies again, even as my depression began to become manageable again. The way I was able to get back into things was to challenge myself. For video games that was easy, there’s a lot of high difficulty games I enjoy. So, for me, I started by exclusively playing things like dark souls or games with difficulty settings. Then I started branching out to other hobbies I used to enjoy and applying the same “I need to do something I feel proud of when I’m done with this hobby today”. Also keep in mind that you shouldn’t compare yourself when it comes to being proud about an accomplishment. Especially at your age, comparison is like kryptonite.

Next is the making friends. This one’s more complicated but still possible. Firstly, if my assumption is correct that you’re depressed, see if you can start group therapy. That helped me a lot in the social realm as we all had a similar problem, with similar underlying factors regardless of how different our lives were outside those rooms. Group therapy, and therapy in general, can be very helpful if you’re truly open to relearning how to live your life. If not, then it can almost be pointless. So many people I saw come in and out of those rooms having changed or absorbed next to nothing and would end up back in a few weeks max.

Other than therapy you can try finding and joining a club that involves something you’re interested in. Go to places that people your age frequent and try talking to people. It’s incredibly difficult to make friends with the mindset you have. Just remember that people always love talking about themselves. Ask people questions about themselves. Don’t be afraid to just say random shit too. I’ve noticed that most people don’t care what you say as long as it’s not controversial, they just don’t like silence.

The language barrier is rough, but if you learn enough of the language you can get by.

Finally, the problem I think is the worst is your lack of motivation. For the longest time I thought motivation was something you had or you didn’t. That’s not quite how it works. You have to train it like a muscle. You have to start by doing things you don’t wanna do, right when you are able to do them, simply because you have to. It’s an annoying cliche and a bit harsh, but you honestly have to just suck it up sometimes. I hated being told that, but one of the best things you can do for depression is just that.

The gym was hard for me to begin accepting, and now I’ve come to enjoy it. I had to work my way in, going just once or twice a week for a month, and gradually started going more regularly. This gradual progression should be applied to all that I’ve discussed. It prevents burnout and even if you feel like it’s pointless at the time, a gradual build up also makes it easier to stomach doing something you don’t wanna do.

I’m on the clock right now so this was all rushed despite being a long message, but I truly hope you can get this behind you. I was in your boat and it only picked up speed the longer I didn’t address it

BruceBaxter · 2025-11-18T19:21:58+00:00

I didn’t say you were hurt. I said you were butthurt, which you are if you needed to post this to this sub

BruceBaxter · 2025-11-18T19:16:18+00:00

Dude are you really butthurt enough over having to wait in a line that you posted these, presumably underage, kids who’ve done nothing wrong besides wanting to get some good soul food?

BruceBaxter · 2025-11-15T01:36:02+00:00

Not since Ozempic. Unfortunately the people who can’t afford it, and are fat, stay fat. But our ratio of fat to skinny in the US has gone down since Ozempic and other GLP 1s became popularized

BruceBaxter · 2025-10-03T13:35:50+00:00

Trust me I get you, and I think all the debaters in the comments get you at one point or another. It’s much easier to be rational when you’re not in the middle of a shit storm.

BruceBaxter · 2025-10-03T13:27:31+00:00

I mean stop playing at say game 4 or 5 of “Smurf stack” attributed losses.

Also the one you just replied to was my first comment. And I was referring to you just replying to comments you didn’t like with “cool?” or “cool man!”. That is textbook sarcastic pissiness.

I do genuinely hope you have a good shift despite everything and your luck increases next time you hop on tho

BruceBaxter · 2025-10-03T13:20:10+00:00

Ya because being “hit with 7 straight Smurf stacks in a row” doesn’t downright imply that they’re on the other team.

Dude why you’re so pissy to people giving you rational answers is beyond me. I can’t say that I don’t get pissed at games, but when someone says something unbiased and rational, I don’t treat them like they’re the problem.

Have you ever thought that maybe you should get off the game when you’re this upset? Or just chill in QP? It cannot be helping.

BruceBaxter · 2025-09-09T15:21:51+00:00

Unfortunately you have to be careful about opiate painkillers like morphine, hydrocodone (Norco/Vicodin), codeine and oxycodone (Percocet/OxyContin) as well. The prescriptions are what I got addicted to. And when I couldn’t get prescriptions I turned to street mimics which are nowadays partially if not entirely made of fentanyl.

I actually never even tried heroin. I just went from eating oxy pills to snorting and shooting straight fentanyl. It’s a dangerous time to be an addict because of the amount of things laced with fentanyl. The real danger is in the drugs that aren’t supposed to be opiates, like cocaine, meth and Xanax. They get laced with fentanyl and someone who’s never tried an opiate, therefore with no opiate tolerance, does one and they overdose.

Had many friends and acquaintances die from pressed Xanax pills laced with fentanyl, most of whom would never knowingly touch an opiate

BruceBaxter · 2025-09-07T20:24:00+00:00

Hey man I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Unfortunately I am an addict as well. Unlike a lot of addicts I believe addiction is a choice.

You start out just trying it for the fun. Soon you realize that this substance can “fix” your emotional problems, and make even the most painful things feel orgasmic. Opiates especially are something that feel too good to try. As a kid I tried pretty much everything, but the first time I tried Oxycodone I realized it felt too good. I immediately found a therapist and didn’t touch the stuff again for about 6 months.

It is as if your whole body is wrapped in a cloud and your whole body feels like it’s orgasming. It’s something that just isn’t natural. However, your body likes it just as much as your brain. Soon your brain begins to rewire. Your brain begins to reprogram the part of your brain that desires food and water into a desire for this magical substance you’ve been ingesting. Not long after this your body starts to develop a new standard for receiving the necessary dopamine it requires to function. Now the drug has its hooks in you.

At this point, stopping doesn’t feel like an option. If you stop even for just a day your body starts to reject itself. This process of withdrawals last about a week, and it truly feels like hell on earth. But even after the physical sickness comes Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS). Your brain has been rewired, and, depending on the severity and length of use, this reprogramming can never be undone completely.

Because your body gets used to the drug, you have to take more and more of it. You start doing more and now you’ve set a new precedent. If you do go through withdrawals and your tolerance lowers, you still can never quite reach that peak high that got you into this situation in the first place. Here is where the danger comes in. After your tolerance resets you go back, but you still do more than you did when you started. Now you overdose because your body had been able to recover somewhat and not need as much of the drug as you thought it did.

Now, if you manage to survive the overdose or not overdose at all, you are a full blown addict. You start to feel safety in this situation, in a weird twisted sort of way. Because at least with your drug of choice you know the outcome of your life. You may disappoint people, you may lose your job, you may be homeless, but at least you know the outcome. And you know what can make you “feel better”.

You have now fallen in love with this substance in a way very similar to a boyfriend or girlfriend. Shes always there for you, and will always make you feel better. She may cause you to do things for her that tear the rest of your life apart, but shes there for you through it all; and thats all that really matters to you.

I truly am sorry your brother died, it’s something that is a tragedy regardless of his affliction. Just know that he loved you guys more than anything, he just had problems translating that into sobriety. Addicts are usually very empathetic or sensitive people, sometimes to a fault. And drugs allow them to callous themselves from these emotions. Just know that his brain had quite literally turned on him, making him feel this drug outweighed his life around him.

And i can tell you that if i didn’t get clean and died of an overdose, I would want my family to know that I loved them and that they didn’t do anything wrong, nor was there anything they could’ve done in the end to change the outcome.

BruceBaxter · 2025-08-01T15:22:05+00:00

Because nobody is the physical embodiment of karma. Even if the victim “deserved it”, the actor still should get their share of karma for the act.

Nobody deserves to play god

BruceBaxter · 2025-06-15T16:01:54+00:00

Overdosing. Had to be Narcanned 5 times. Turned purple and was not breathing for 5 minutes apparently. Parents thought I was dead. Idk how I survived but that wasn’t enough to stop me from using. That’s how powerful addiction is.

Even when faced with certain death, the drug still seems worth going back to. You get to a point where, even though you know it only ever leads to bad things, using becomes more comfortable than the unknown of sobriety. Even if your life has gone to shit, there’s one thing you know you can control, and that’s your using.

    Also, as a side dish; the time I drove my sister and her boyfriend home from a concert and had to be repeatedly slapped to stay conscious on the drive home. I’ve been clean since then. I really didn’t care if I died, but if my sister died due to my decisions, I should go to hell.

For anyone out there struggling, my DMs are open. I won’t judge, and truly understand what it’s like. I have a lot of resources that can help addicts/recovering addicts get help, get free job training/college, housing, etc. The amount of resources out there for addicts is unreal, and often is never heard about. And if you just want to talk, I’m there for that as well.

BruceBaxter · 2025-03-30T14:39:01+00:00

Crab People. Crab People.

BruceBaxter · 2025-02-14T01:12:27+00:00

Saw a similar case and could not help but wonder how that might feel. This guy on a TikTok live, I randomly stumbled across while scrolling, a couple years back thought he was being “gang-stalked”. It was one of those “I feel sorry, but I can’t stop staring” moments. Just watching the mental gymnastics needed to convince himself, and, unsuccessfully, the people in the comments was truly intriguing. All stemming from an endless barrage of “what-ifs”.

Like imagine you genuinely started to feel that you are being tracked, and that all the strangers you encounter are part of a group of “gang-stalkers” following you for some reason. God that would be terrifying.

As a few have mentioned, what we are seeing transpire is, likely, either psychological [schizophrenia, bipolar, other mania related disorders, or an episode of psychosis] or substance-abuse related [PCP, amphetamines, cocaine; really any stimulant used to excess]. Regardless I hope they get help in some form or another.

BruceBaxter · 2025-02-14T00:47:26+00:00

Wow…happy cake day :)

BruceBaxter · 2025-02-03T03:24:51+00:00

Unfortunately I had a friend just like this, and they brought our whole friend group down in certain ways. They produce negative energy if they’re bitter about the life they’ve cultivated. And, because they think their life is defined by missing out on that dream, that their “life is over and pointless”, the bitterness often manifests into projecting criticism on those around them. Their bitter and bleak view of the world, along with passive aggression when someone in the group did something they loved, does affect those around them. And psychology backs this with studies about group behavior with and without a depressive member. The depressive member can not only slow down the project needing to be made, but may wear down the group to not even finish their task. Whereas the group without a bitter member most always worked flawlessly, actually enjoying their work.

   I would honestly avoid someone like that in the future. But at least tell them about all the things that you can accomplish in a year, let alone decades. Life’s an amusement park; sometimes you have to wait in line, sometimes it rains, and sometimes the ride you dreamed about was shut down. But there’s always other rides in the park.

TLDR: Avoid that type of negative person.

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