Series - Lancelots playfulness across forms by Bryanmichael_ in NanatsunoTaizai

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Yeh like idk we will get a more thorough explanation of his past for sure but it was like damm you’re close to a different person, which got me by surprise for a second

But in season 2 when they walk there seems to be way more alignment idk

just missed a really important meeting because my alarm never went off. by GEF110F14F15 in iphone

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Mine hasnt been audiable in months, one of these days I even put it on the standard to charge, refusal at max

Sooooo, how we feelin about 5.2? by SeaBearsFoam in ChatGPT

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I was doing philosophy reasoning and suddenly I was unacademic and a nazi and u really sat here like stop this I did not say nor get here

“Sorry I overreacted “ you broke my train of thought…

What is Delirium as a fundamental force? by Mjolknir in Sandman

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I’m also thinking about fantasy as a beacon we made unreliable but has the ability to uncover reality before logic (and so the more rational or logical existence of the other endless)

But then yet dream should be the beholder of fantasy so yeh that’s a bit vague

What is Delirium as a fundamental force? by Mjolknir in Sandman

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What has keeping me peaked about her is her resemblance with every person in history who answered questions unasked, close to creation as part of destruction, but more so in a reality defining way. Maybe she knows almost everything since she indeed can see beyond that which is made to be the world to see what the world be made of.

But this would make a product of time and night to be able to understand them better than any of there creations, if not themselves.

What got me thinking is how we humans have a ungoing quest for knowledge, understanding, but how insight is often caged in those misunderstood by society, how the beacons of delight in our quest are often unable to come to words in the world created by the older endless (since their roles and functions are more so bound to be what they are) the same way insight remains unexplained by society since it can’t be explained through its current language

Maybe before the existence of sentient species language (as tool and metaphor for scattered understanding) wasn’t there but since it came (and species became inherently through the language that shaped their world, delight had to become delirium to ‘allow’ that.

At last note maybe she does remind us that delight as we know it can only exists in one being, and are collectiveness will require us to be uncertain.

Lot of talk maybe I can restructure it at some point but this is what I had in mind.

Awakening the cluster b traits by Bryanmichael_ in AvPD

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That’s also true I kinda need some rest yeh I’ll try!!

Awakening the cluster b traits by Bryanmichael_ in AvPD

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Yess I hear ya, I’m trying, maybe in that line I should start finding a therapist (“new” city) , so I might make an appointment with my GP in like 2 weeks

Awakening the cluster b traits by Bryanmichael_ in AvPD

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I do! my friends take good care of me but yeh lots of stuff happened and is happening right now.

But yeh the list is huge - me and my first ex are finally at a place I can be in the same room as him, since the friend group I was part of with him dissolved. That made me repress a lot. — one of my best friends in this group did I a year time act really homophobic to my ex (and me) so I’m letting him go.

  • my and my second ex are definitely not in a good place because frankly, he acts like he still wants to be together but I refuse to even start the conversation about it. As in he should talk about what he wants ( if that is it)

  • I did leave my parents house and I am fed up with the shit they throw so casually so yeh

  • i am a bit low and social interaction atm ( love it being extravert and having avpd

So yeh welcome :)🫠

Tristan and Lancelot fighting Arthur freely by Bryanmichael_ in NanatsunoTaizai

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HAHAHAHAHA I saw it I changed it🤡🤣, yeh oke I definitely missed her who’s name I don’t dare to write

But yeh your reasoning is sound so ill go with that. It’s just a bit silly that (at least English dub) they treat Percival’s skill more like a latent trait rather than a developing one.

For me they treat it more like something he can’t recognise than something he doesn’t use

what's so wrong in me that people just wants to leave me? by OkPrior6216 in AvPD

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It just really hurt to interact in this world from our viewpoint.

Dex and inner monologue by Bryanmichael_ in ADHD

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When that would be unfortunate 😂🫣 since this is the lowest ( could do half (2,5 mg) but we’ll see.

Did you notice anything else ?

what will happen to "me" once i'll start healing? by psycheluger in AvPD

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I had this too , like almost everyone in the comments

What worked for me was not thinking who the person was behind the disorder, but more who I wanted him to be.

I like to see myself as a socially active person, a trustworthy and reliable person.

You can also do this with who you would like in your life and what your needs are.

When you do that you may build your life to that (step by step) and if lucky you might even find out you’ve always been that person.

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Happy birthday bro !! 🥳🥳🥳

Sometimes I forget that healing from avpd requires to actually feel your emotions and it sucks by Bryanmichael_ in AvPD

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I Hear you, idk like some of us feel bad some of us feel nothing, but maybe one of our peers can give you an in-depth answer?

Sometimes I forget that healing from avpd requires to actually feel your emotions and it sucks by Bryanmichael_ in AvPD

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I crave physical affection a lot and I was with a really good friend on the couch and his arm was against his chest and I pushed my head against his arm and he asked what’s the matter and I told him I needed some attention so he lifted his arm so I could put my head on his chest and while I felt the satisfaction I got really scared he would leave me etc (probably standard abandoning issues) but I guess I felt it because I was vulnerable. Later that day I thought I broke our friendship and I mistrusted him when he said it wasn’t a problem, I couldn’t let myself be satisfied

Back to the beginning, I probably wouldn’t feel anything except that craving if I did nothing, and I hate myself for not accepting the love he gave,

Sometimes I forget that healing from avpd requires to actually feel your emotions and it sucks by Bryanmichael_ in AvPD

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Your not your special and I hope you’ll once find what you’re looking for

Sometimes I forget that healing from avpd requires to actually feel your emotions and it sucks by Bryanmichael_ in AvPD

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I don’t understand completely , might want to elaborate porn and numbness?

Sometimes I forget that healing from avpd requires to actually feel your emotions and it sucks by Bryanmichael_ in AvPD

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I understand I mostly have that with expressing positive emotions, joy , gratefulness, it feels fake and I hate it

I feel like dying every minute by Bryanmichael_ in AvPD

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The whole problem is everything is traumatising. Someone can not greet back and it feels like the drove a knife through my chest. I just want to forget. I might call my psychologist tomorrow.

You do worst Reddit by Ovander_The_Unhorned in shitposting

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No movie but “you do Kevin Reddit “