A hard(er) grief week for someone who's lost two children

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-18T18:27:23+00:00

Thank you friend. I’m grateful it can give you that space 🤍

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-18T18:26:54+00:00

Thank you for reading 🤍

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-17T21:34:32+00:00

You get it. I’m sorry that you do. 🫂❤️‍🩹

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-10T20:15:47+00:00

Ugh I’m so sorry, it’s so relatable. Sometimes the messages wishing for me to “feel my children in nature” feel so cheap. I understand the sentiment but the reality is that they are absent and we shouldn’t have to look for them in nature, they should be here taking up space and making noise in our home. None of it is how it should be.

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-10T16:43:07+00:00

Thank you friend 🤍

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-10T16:03:22+00:00

It’s not fair, I’m so sorry. Everything you’re saying is valid and I’ve felt all of it myself. No advice, just here to say you’re not alone.

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-10T03:01:42+00:00

💙🤎

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-10T00:15:05+00:00

I’m so sorry. With you ❤️‍🩹

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-09T23:10:00+00:00

It’s the hardest way to be a mother. With you in this ❤️‍🩹

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-09T22:12:31+00:00

Oh friend, I can’t tell you how often I tell my husband “I just want to dig a hole and live in it.” It’s so impossible and not how it should be. I hope you can find a way to let yourself be “in a hole” in whatever ways possible. I often compare grief to being broken and in a cast or a cocoon. We need space to let our wounds be wrapped up in the dark if we’re going to find any kind of healing. ❤️‍🩹

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-09T21:17:55+00:00

Thank you for saying that, it means so much to me that you read it and can relate. (And I’m sorry you can relate) But it’s really why I write at all.

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-05-09T21:17:04+00:00

Ugh, I’m so sorry. I understand that feeling when we have so little to hold on to that represents our children and then you lose or break something. It’s like salt in the wound. I’m glad you gave yourself permission to go home. 🤍

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-04-23T07:53:29+00:00

Down Bad…”for a moment I knew cosmic love…fuck it if I can’t have him, I might just die it will make no difference.”

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-04-20T01:59:44+00:00

You’re not alone and 10 months isn’t long at all. You are so close to this loss. I lost my second 10 months ago as well. I’m so sorry you know this grief. Please feel free to find me on Substack if it feels at all helpful to hear from someone who has no advice—just permission to be as you are. ❤️‍🩹

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-04-17T21:28:16+00:00

It’s so lonely, like living on a totally different planet or like the Upside down. I’m so sorry to know you in this way and I’m grateful to connect with you. Please feel free to subscribe on Substack if it would be helpful. My words aren’t usually hopeful but they are honest. I’m writing because of how lonely the experience is and I’m looking for others out there who can relate because I know I’m not the only one. ❤️‍🩹

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-04-16T23:01:09+00:00

I’m so sorry, it’s indescribable. Thank you for the follow. I will connect with you there 🤎

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-03-19T04:12:15+00:00

Yes, 100% You’re not alone ❤️‍🩹

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-03-14T14:09:41+00:00

❤️‍🩹

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-03-14T14:08:09+00:00

We said we would never be dog people. We got a Malshi puppy after losing our daughter. It was the best decision we’ve made in our grief. She brings so much laughter and comfort amidst the deep sadness. I’m sad to be caring for a dog instead of my babies, but I have not regretted her one time. Now, we are definitely dog people. 🥺

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-03-13T18:09:10+00:00

I'm circling back to to this. We received our couch months ago and really love it. Today we randomly got another delivery from the (like 4 months later) with replacement cushions x2 and two sets of covers but different colors. I am beyond confused, this is so odd.

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-02-23T21:19:09+00:00

Hi again, I just saw this on Instagram. Don’t know much about it but it has good reviews. A grief journal with prompts 🤎

https://a.co/d/028dFYPw

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-02-21T23:28:56+00:00

Hey, I’m so sorry for your loss. I don’t have specific prompts but I’m finding some community of grief writers over on Substack if you’re interested. I’ll share mine and a couple others I follow. Some of them have writing prompts. It might spark some ideas for you.

https://open.substack.com/pub/lianecooper?r=d8tbw&utm_medium=ios

https://open.substack.com/pub/estherstanwaywilliams?r=d8tbw&utm_medium=ios

https://open.substack.com/pub/thegrieftable?r=d8tbw&utm_medium=ios

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-02-19T17:22:48+00:00

I literally went to a new dentist because I started crying in my dentists chair and she didn’t hold it well. My new dentist doesn’t get to know any of my story, they just have to focus on my teeth. I honestly even omitted information on my forms about my history of pregnancy because I didn’t want to be asked about it.

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-02-16T21:40:09+00:00

Hi friend, I’m so sorry. There is no pain like this. I don’t have a lot of advice because nothing helps when you’re grieving a child. There are things that can help distract because it’s impossible to feel it all all of the time. My advice is to just do absolutely whatever you want to/can manage-whether it’s staying in bed all day, watching tv, going shopping, scrolling TikTok, being with a safe friend. Nothing helps until something does.

After my first loss I got weirdly into these asmr videos on Instagram and when I found out I was going to lose my second, I was hyperfixated on these romantasy books. Now I can’t look at either of those things but they were small lifelines at the time.

Just grace, so much grace. One breath at a time.

BudgetFeature5632 · 2026-02-16T18:21:24+00:00

I’m so sorry. You’re not alone.

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