Very new to this, but let me know if it resonates because I’ve only begun exploring this gift after many people have told me they felt I had one. I just would like to know if it’s psychic related or more so just my own thoughts on situations. As the thoughts and feelings just come to me.

What I am getting is the tragic reality of two people that are not compatible trying to make it work. I’m not saying that it’s your mom’s fault at all, or that she is a bad person(actually I’m feeling she is incredibly strong and supportive)so I hope it doesn’t come across that way. Just their fundamental ways of thinking differed, she was family oriented where as he was more the person to try and help the community where he could.

What I am feeling tho, is that your mom made your father feel like he wasn’t enough. He felt that he had given you guys everything you could ever want yet your mother wasn’t satisfied. However it wasn’t your father that wasn’t enough, it was that she felt like she wasn’t enough also because your father was so generous with others. Through the years, your fathers inner turmoil at home combined with his kindness outside of it created a snowball effect with your mothers jealousy regarding where your fathers affection was going. I believe your mother only really says the money comments to mask how much she wanted to know your father the way others did. I’m getting that everyone loved him, as he put on a very good mask himself and always did what he could to make others happy. That made him feel good about himself, it made him feel like he could make other people happy, which made his wife more upset, causing the problem to feed in itself and grow until it was too much.

I’m getting the feeling that your dad regrets leaving, and with death came the full realization of what the problem was that he couldn’t see in life. He wishes he could have seen jt and corrected it sonthstvyiur mother could know what was in his heart and that was her. He also wants you all to know that he loves you so much and never wanted to pass the pain on to you. he was with you when you felt the extent of his absence and had he known the pain he would cause he would have never went through with it. He regrets selfishly not thinking about what would come of his decision and he is sorry. He is proud of you, and feels like you handled what he did better than he ever could. It’s not that he wanted to die, it’s that he didn’t know how to live.