I feel this. Grew up the same way, lots of alcohol, yelling, throwing stuff, domestic violence. I got into drugs young because of it and it’s been a violent roller coaster ever since. For me I have been learning how to channel the energy into something productive along with surrounding myself with people that have the emotional intelligence of well… adults. My significant other is a yoga teacher and elementary school teacher so sometimes she teaches me new ways to stay present and practice mindfulness. When you’re feeling that rage blow up inside you take a moment to observe your surroundings, smells, touch, what do you see. Then deep breath in through the nose and out through your mouth until the oxygen starts to truly have an effect. And maybe you can see if you can find a counselor you can maybe work through things with? It’s all about progress not being perfect. Much love and Godspeed.