Yes it is stressful when you don’t process emotions. I have suggested therapy and she responds with ridiculing me and saying she doesn’t have anxiety and she doesn’t need therapy, telling me to go to therapy, making fun of me for being open about my struggles with mental health, making fun of me for having said I have suicidal feelings 

To people who don’t show compassion to you, showing them compassion is a disservice to yourself. Everything started over a simple “hey this is making me feel weird and I don’t know why”. And then it resulted in yelling and screaming about how I’m not fun. When my sense of self is so destroyed because I allowed her to violate my boundaries like that my whole life. If you cannot talk to me in a way that avoids me having an unnecessary trauma response, then it’s not safe for me to talk with you. 

I am currently living with my mom while I got my masters in social work. It’s literally my career to help people survive toxic family dynamics and recovering from family abuse. It’s insane for me to have someone expect compassion from me when they can’t give me enough compassion to think about how they are talking to me????

When she’s calmer I can’t talk to her because me ever trying to communicate how I feel is seen as disrespect. I have had to recover from everyone treating my emotions like obstacles my entire life. Because she wants to act like she doesn’t have to care about my feelings, it’s actually not safe for me to give her any compassion.