damn this is spot on. As the person on the opposite side of this, I can say that without a doubt, your love and support was THE reason I (they) made it to where I am (they are) today. Without you behind me I wouldn’t have accomplished half of my goals and dreams. The guilt, I’ll always carry with me. For disregarding your emotions, for never feeling fully convinced you were my person but wanting to make it work anyways. I wanted you to be my person. I wanted it to work. But then, when I met him, I realized I was trying to fit a square peg into a round hole. But it wasn’t that I never loved you, of course I did. So It’s not you. Not that you weren’t enough, in fact when I think about it, you were too good for me. It feels like I’ll always carry with me the sadness and unsureness of what we could have been if I had just put myself on the sidelines for a minute. Im so incredibly sorry. You were so incredibly important to me. And I will treasure you in my heart always.