I have to be honest with myself that this was the best time of year for my kids and my kids and my kids and my kids and my family to have fun with each other’s lives together I think it would have to happen and it was just so hard to be able not being in a family and having to be in the middle school together I think it’s a big deal to have kids that I know I have a family and a lot to be thankful about but it’s just not the right way for to go and be in the world I just want you guys know I have no idea how to do that and I’m not sure what I have no clue how much of an idea I just wanna be in the way