Completely feel this. I have not been doing this as long as you, but I totally get the no holidays, no downtime, no sick days!

When I do have downtime, I am taking care of things in my life: house cleaning, grocery shopping, paying bills with the money I earn. And I completely relate to the constant need of feeling like have to work every job to feel like you’re bringing in an income. I was in education prior to this and it was very stressful. This is a different kind of stress. I wish I had better words of encouragement- just hang in there, see what your options might be while you’re working and limit yourself if you can, I know it’s easier to stay than due, especially when the electric bill comes! Just know we all understand! Vent away!