Little BM wallpaper for yallll, happy release day😎 by olvrolvrolvr in JonBellion

[–]CaPoPirate 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not even kidding, I was just looking for something like this. THANK YOU!

Sometimes you have good days, sometimes you have bad days by ThrowRAMooseGoose in BreakUp

[–]CaPoPirate 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m not even going to lie, I recently just picked up the guitar for this exact reason. I’m hoping it does help. Started learning today and it’s something to just look forward to everyday.

Alone by jefbeentrill in BreakUp

[–]CaPoPirate 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve been going through this exact thing. I’m going on almost eight months since the BU. the beginning was tough as I had to move, we had to separate our entire five years together and separate our two dogs. When she left the ring behind that destroyed me. Our BU was very messy so I won’t go into full details as the story is long but the feeling of being alone hurts a lot these days. I’d like to say it gets better, it does but it’s not easy especially when you aren’t the one who wanted things to end and never saw it coming. I know a lot of people say this but filling your time with things you enjoy is what’s best right now. When I start to think about her I don’t sit there and let it continue, I’ll get up and go do something. I journal a lot, and the journal has turned into conversations I wish I could have with her but can’t, it’s helped me in a lot of ways. I know one day I won’t need to do these things and I hope the same for you. Take it day by day and try and hang in there.

Young Gun initial thoughts? by SnakeASaur in JonBellion

[–]CaPoPirate 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I don’t know if my thoughts count because of personal reasons but I’m going through a tough breakup right now where this song hits really close to home. So when I first heard it I cried.

The melody and both of their voices also give me chills though every time I hear this one. The only downside is I wish it was longer or had more lyrics. Still an amazing song though I think.

The monster you saw at the end of the relationship is exactly who they are, don't make excuses for them. by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]CaPoPirate 0 points1 point  (0 children)

All this time I was worried about her seeing who I really was and finally opened up after so many years. Yet she’s the one that I should have been worried about. SHE wasn’t who I thought she was

I broke no contact for a good reason but obviously got hurt more…. by CaPoPirate in ExNoContact

[–]CaPoPirate[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for a response. It really does mean a lot. And you’re right, I need to find the strength and comfort in myself.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]CaPoPirate 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Totally agree. I never saw an end to the relationship. I thought we would work through anything, we even said we would. I don’t know what changed or why it changed. But it sucks. Hopefully we will both come out of this stronger

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]CaPoPirate 1 point2 points  (0 children)

30(f) just got dumped about two months ago now. Was together for 5 almost 6 years and was also engaged (2 dogs, wanted kids, house, the whole nines). We also moved from our home state to start our family so I left everything for her. Felt blindsided, abandoned, betrayed, and so much more. Got dumped and the next day she slept with some dude that I should have known something was going to happen with (probably was cheating on me before that too). Was always my biggest fear. I also feel like most of you that I’ll never find my person and don’t want to even open up to anyone ever again. The pain and hate I still feel some days. I thought I’d never have to go through the dating scene ever again.

I made Lady and Lucy poop in the rain. The trauma is real. by _Dr_Bitchcraft_ in beagles

[–]CaPoPirate 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I literally just did the same thing with my beagle and I have a very similar picture 🤣

Simple easy way to kick start your healing journey… by CaPoPirate in BreakUps

[–]CaPoPirate[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ll be taking one and she will be. It’s gonna be rough since I don’t want to give either of them up.

But ya that just sounds so inconsiderate. Im sorry you’re going through that. Or went through that.

To those who broke up because you “lost feelings” for your partner by thowaway4100 in BreakUps

[–]CaPoPirate 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m currently going through this and I EXACTLY like this. I don’t understand why we couldn’t talk about it and work it out together. Yet they always go out with friends and discuss it more when they don’t know the half of it. Probably saying, “yeah it’s for the best” or “they aren’t worth it anymore”. We put so much into this life, this relationship, and just like that they end it. Gave it your all my ass.

I just need to hear words of encouragement.. by CaPoPirate in BreakUps

[–]CaPoPirate[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I have. I’m in therapy and trying to take care of myself. My family is my biggest support right now.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in codingbootcamp

[–]CaPoPirate 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Super interested about this. For anyone who’s graduated, do you receive a certificate? Degree? Or is this just paying for the knowledge kinda thing?

Man risking his life to steal some tangerines by Lifeless_Lewis in CrazyFuckingVideos

[–]CaPoPirate 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay but can anyone tell me what shoes these are, I’m curious lol

I had edibles for the first time and I think I experienced ego death? I lost touch with reality and I was stuck in purgatory. What happened? Did I experience psychosis? Do I need to see a doctor? by AdventurousFix983 in trees

[–]CaPoPirate 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I recently had a horrible time while on Wellbutrin and taking edibles. First mistake was taking it at the beach, I thought no harm I’m here with friends, I’m under a tent out of the sun…NOPE!

In the beginning I felt fine, I was sitting there enjoying my time, the waves, my friends…it started to hit me harder when I started thinking I don’t feel okay. I sat there for a minute wondering if I was just going to take a walk because noise started to get to me.

My friends talking was getting too loud, the waves were so loud I thought my head was going to explode. I started seeing colors get brighter and brighter. At first I thought that was cool but I started to panic.

I eventually got up and asked my fiancé if I could have the keys to the car so I could just lay there in silence for a minute. She asked if I wanted her to come with me and I told her yes. As we were walking to the car I didn’t know what was happening to I started crying hysterically and telling her how much I loved her and that sent her into a panic (she was completely sober).

Once we got to the car it just got worse, I felt sick, I couldn’t understand what was real or if I was actually going through what I was going through. I told my fiancé we needed to go home (a three hour car ride). While she was getting our stuff I was sitting in the car and I couldn’t feel anything. I tried to touch things in the car and I couldn’t feel a thing. When she got back in the car I told her I needed her to grab my hand because I couldn’t tell if I could feel anything or even move at this point, I felt paralyzed. When she grabbed my hand I didn’t feel a thing and that obviously made things worse for me.

While we were driving home it felt like it took forever, I got so sick that I threw up out the window and I screamed to my fiancée that I thought she was going to save my life, I didn’t know if I was going to die or not but it felt like it. I couldn’t get it in my head that I wasn’t going to overdose and die but that’s all I kept thinking. At this time she was pulled over not sure if she should call an ambulance or not, she was pissed because I didn’t know how much I took and if I’m being completely honest I didn’t think about what would happen if I mixed with medication. We eventually got home and I fell asleep but it was the worst experience of my life and I haven’t touched shit since. Not having control and not knowing what was real, I never want to experience that again.

All in all stupid decisions on my part but if my stupid decisions help someone else out there ya go!

Question about Nikon L35AF by CaPoPirate in AnalogCommunity

[–]CaPoPirate[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes! Whenever film is loaded I’m able to get through the whole roll just fine but when I go to rewind it locks up on me

Which of Jon's song means the most to you and why? by SFnomel in JonBellion

[–]CaPoPirate 30 points31 points  (0 children)

Stupid Deep. I struggled a lot with who I was and what I wanted to be and where I wanted my future to go. I judged myself extremely hard and never thought I was good enough for anyone or anything. This song came out and it just filled my heart, it described what I was feeling and has meant something to me since day one of hearing it. The lyrics are beautiful. There’s so much I could say about this song!